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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
Only one week passed, and for me, it's already shittier than last year. I have felt despair and pain non stop.
At this point it is clear that it's going to be the worst year ever. That can change if I ctb successfully.
 
Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
221
It's a mixed bag. My grandmother is in the hospital and things don't look good. My antivax family keeps stirring up drama every time someone else in the family gets a booster.

But hey, I'm smoke free for one week now. So I got that going for me, which is nice.
 
Wrennie

Wrennie

Latent Corpse 💀
Dec 18, 2019
1,339
My brother got diagnosed with Covid and it turns out he has the same subpar immune system as I do, so he’s deteriorating rapidly. My grandma is also starting to get dementia, and my mother is incredibly depressed because despite all of her efforts she can’t help either of her children.

I also am still slowly dying from my diseases, so whoop-dee-doo. I’m pretty sure I won’t make it to see 2023. :notsure:
 
LeavingForever

LeavingForever

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Sep 24, 2020
7,565
For me, this year is just the same as the last one. I am very tired of life and I want to be free from this existence. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. Life is just pointless suffering. I do not want any more days or years. The way I see it, to exist is to suffer.
 
freemindnsoul

freemindnsoul

Wizard
Sep 29, 2021
649
it is slightly better but I have stronger willpower to ctb. I am more suicidal in May, June, November and December. This doesn't change. It is the same every year.

I wrote a short suicide note 1 hour ago. I am trying to ctb before May
 
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Licoricepasta

Member
Dec 21, 2021
7
My brother got diagnosed with Covid and it turns out he has the same subpar immune system as I do, so he’s deteriorating rapidly. My grandma is also starting to get dementia, and my mother is incredibly depressed because despite all of her efforts she can’t help either of her children.

I also am still slowly dying from my diseases, so whoop-dee-doo. I’m pretty sure I won’t make it to see 2023. :notsure:
So sorry. Sending you hugs.
 
Xeroornothing

Xeroornothing

Global Mod “Ye shall be as gods..🐍🍎”
Jun 22, 2021
2,092
Caught covid a second time this week, which sucks.

It's Omicron and very mild, which also sucks because it won't kill me like Delta almost did in September...
Covid is a total dick that way
 
Depressed Werewolf

Depressed Werewolf

Tired bi disaster
Jan 8, 2022
1
My health has gotten much worse, I'm worried about my mom, and my sister is going to find out if she has cancer tomorrow. So my brain is back to trying to cope by being nearly fully apathetic, and I'm also putting on fake smiles so I don't worry my family about my own problems.
 
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blahblahuser1174

Member
Dec 21, 2021
8
it was okay. i got one good grade! haven't check the rest yet. i have a lot of anxiety and i feel paralyzed half the time. i just lay in bed bc my classes are remote.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,322
Pretty bad. My mom caught covid as soon as the year began and even though I tested negative, I feel pretty sick myself and it’s been pretty miserable. I think it’s possibly a false negative too with how some of my symptoms have been.
 
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ForeverLonely82

ForeverLonely82

Member
Dec 22, 2021
21
Nothing has changed it all remains the same as it did for the past decade. Just older.
Much shittier than I anticipated. I miss my cat so fucking much and it hurts so bad, all I want to do is give her one more forehead kiss. Okay and a hug, too. So alone in this world now, I'm surprised I haven't gone through with it yet.
I had to put my cat "Nova" down 3 days ago,she got feline leukemia...apparently she had it since birth as she hasn't been exposed to other cats. We tried saving her, but she just got worse, stopped eating, meowing in pain and weak I have crying spells at night. I would have much rather be taken away from here than her, She was too good of a cat to Die. If my life were taken and hers would be spared A friend would have cared for her, But alas I remain in this crap world we are forced to live in thanks to two selfish people who wanted to procreate.
 
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VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
206
I have been gloomy in ways that do not fit the usual pattern, so it's a sign of what's to come.

I'm quite set on January of next year to go. But I'm wondering how plausible it is to go before May. It's one of the two for me, and May depends on how things go. But January is quite locked in.

I cannot fucking believe how easy this could be if I was a prodigy at something. I could earn all my money that way, plus have people care about me naturally for being fking awesome.
 
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E_Berwick

Member
Dec 8, 2020
11
Nothing has changed it all remains the same as it did for the past decade. Just older.

I had to put my cat "Nova" down 3 days ago,she got feline leukemia...apparently she had it since birth as she hasn't been exposed to other cats. We tried saving her, but she just got worse, stopped eating, meowing in pain and weak I have crying spells at night. I would have much rather be taken away from here than her, She was too good of a cat to Die. If my life were taken and hers would be spared A friend would have cared for her, But alas I remain in this crap world we are forced to live in thanks to two selfish people who wanted to procreate.
I'm sorry to hear of your cat. It's absolutely the worst thing to lose a feline friend.