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thereisnoneed

thereisnoneed

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I am 21 years old male I been a Hiki _ NEET since the age of 11 due to chronic anxiety which got a lot better for me in the past year and now i want to change and find a way to make a living since I live in a third world country i fear going homeless or starving death and have to eat from the garbage, there are no social workers to feed the homeless and that is a fate I want to avoid, my plan is to start by going outside more and more regularly on a daily basis and stay at my brother*s store for some hours a day since he needs someone to watch the store when he is off for sometime everyday, i do not know what i will do after that i may work with my brother since it soundslike a good chance for me in several ways, but for now I will make it step by step, but I am afraid of what will happen after that, it is all that is in my mind all these days, i never been in school since the age of 11 and i am scared of the world of * being a normal human being * considering that I have spent TOO many years in Isolation,

I have made this thread to see if there is anyone in a similar situation to mine and to vent to relieve the stress I been having.
 
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Thank you for sharing your story friend. It is comforting to those who share the same fate. I am sorry that you've suffered in isolation for so long. It is really hard to keep your spirits up when you've given up on life a million times over. Which is why I deeply admire your desire to get better, it's a sign of great strength. I think working at your brother's store is a good decision. You will gradually learn to become emotionally healthy again. Just remember to never ignore or take your mental health lightly. The demons you have are real and they will try to pull you back every chance they get. Talk to your brother or other family members about seeing a counsellor. Educating yourself on your afflictions is another good way to keep them in check. I wish you the best of luck with your journey friend. Thank you for making this thread.

I'm too depressed to delve into my past right now. To summarise, I'm a NEET as well. Four years and counting. Deathly afraid of the world and living, just like you. I don't have much else to say. We can talk whenever you want to vent or anything like that. I know I'm a complete stranger so it means nothing to you but I'm rooting for you. Keep fighting.
 
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Lovely comment from you, you have given me a possibly good idea regarding talking to my family a thing I almost never do, I hope you find happiness and peace as soon as possible whether on earth or on the other side.

Feel feel to message me as well altho sadly I do not open this site often.
 
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Those who come late to enter into the larger world may feel less integrated. However, there can be an advantage in bringing mature skills to the process. One might not enjoy seamless integration, however, one may also avoid some of the painful mistakes younger people can make.

There are those, for whatever reason, that are unable to achieve full social integration. Someone who was an abuse victim, someone who has a high (or low) IQ, someone who has health problems, or even those who work in fields that see the worst of humanity (cops, emergency room nurses, or combat veterans) often find that their perspectives limit the degree to which they can plunge into the social world.

There can be a dull and even deeper life for those whose intentionality limits their integration. Integrated people may not be able to find deeper and richer lives. Those of us on the fringe find comradeship less frequently, but it can be much more satisfying.
 
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thereisnoneed said:
I am 21 years old male I been a Hiki _ NEET since the age of 11 due to chronic anxiety which got a lot better for me in the past year and now i want to change and find a way to make a living since I live in a third world country i fear going homeless or starving death and have to eat from the garbage, there are no social workers to feed the homeless and that is a fate I want to avoid, my plan is to start by going outside more and more regularly on a daily basis and stay at my brother*s store for some hours a day since he needs someone to watch the store when he is off for sometime everyday, i do not know what i will do after that i may work with my brother since it soundslike a good chance for me in several ways, but for now I will make it step by step, but I am afraid of what will happen after that, it is all that is in my mind all these days, i never been in school since the age of 11 and i am scared of the world of * being a normal human being * considering that I have spent TOO many years in Isolation,

I have made this thread to see if there is anyone in a similar situation to mine and to vent to relieve the stress I been having.
Hi, I missed thirty days of school in fifth grade and then another thirty of so in sixth and was removed to be "homeschooled". I received pretty much no schooling at all. Homeschool is a nuclear option on someone's life and to homeschool them is to take the responsibility of an entire school facility so if you have any guilt towards yourself know you deserve little. I had pretty massive anxiety at fourteen and a bit older as well, my mother at one point suggested I go to a psychiatrist for autism telling me that she obviously didn't think I had autism, but my anxiety could get me diagnosed and money could be made off of that because of the context of parents being rewarded financially for disabled children. (never really went, but I find it kind of degrading that was an option but never anything else for the anxiety)

I have no high school transcripts myself, my first attempt of suicide at sixteen was to try to avoid what I saw as my fate from being homeschooled and my lack of ability to get myself to self teach myself everything I needed by eighteen. Originally I planned on blowing my brains out at eighteen with a shotgun but at point it was simply emotionally escalating in a way that I felt leaving earlier would be harm reduction. I am now twenty one as well actually, and I've never had a job or further schooling. I'm pretty sorry to hear your situation, it's been pretty rare to see neets in a similar situation from childhood. I've always found it somewhat maybe not emotionally funny but funny in a novelty sense that neets who are are twenty at best and managed to get through schooling perfectly adequately boasting or venting about neetdom in comparison to someone in a position of neetdom from childhood. The situation of being stuck in a situation like this from childhood is not one that is societally talked about much at all, and I imagine even worse for you in a third world country. I'm afraid I can't really help too much with your anxiety, but perhaps if possible the job might be a decent idea? If it's a part time basis and not degrading emotionally from others it can help with exposure to a degree.

You mentioned you were in a third world country so I'm not sure how possible this is, but maybe trying to get a microphone and getting into some online game like tabletop simulator which should be casual enough to not be openly hostile, and to perhaps to help work you in socially before thrusting you fully into the world? I haven't tried that myself, but not being a psychologist or otherwise I can't really think of something to possibly help anxiety other than affirming experiences that you expose yourself to. Otherwise maybe introduce it after the job?

I think for the anxiety you might have a decent chance if you still desire social belonging and otherwise, I ended up just largely not desiring at this point -- my mother warned the two people who ended up staying at the house for a time briefly (my sisters online boyfriend, and otherwise a person my mother knew from selling plasma) that I likely didn't care how their day went and that I likely wouldn't greet them. I didn't find that out until after the fact, but I suppose it's not inaccurate even if I still experience anxiety with thrust into a situation with others -- though not as bad as when I was younger. Sorry as well if you weren't homeschooled, but rather pulled out with no other option. I think it's similar enough regardless, not a neet in the eyes of society when I was younger technically, but of course automatically one when I was eighteen despite no change in my situation or to show academically transcripts or otherwise.

Sorry if this isn't helpful or written poorly.
 
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Thank you for taking the time to write this, as for talking to people in multiplayer games.

I do have a microphone, but i never use it, and i have no interest in any kind of video games whatsoever but thank you for suggesting that, somebody else may find it helpful.

And yes it is more off when you been in isolation from a young age.
 
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the worst thing is that nobody help you they forget you that is how i knew that nobody in this world truly cares about you but yourself i learn that in the hard way
 
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thereisnoneed said:
Thank you for taking the time to write this, as for talking to people in multiplayer games.

I do have a microphone, but i never use it, and i have no interest in any kind of video games whatsoever but thank you for suggesting that, somebody else may find it helpful.

And yes it is more off when you been in isolation from a young age.
Understandable, I suppose that leaves the job then. Hope it gets better for you.
 
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hey friend, it seems like you have a pretty good plan here. working at your brother's store will likely open up more opportunities for you in the future along with helping you with your social/agoraphobic anxiety.

you are still very young, which means you can almost certainly turn your life around. i don't know if you can afford to go to community college classes (if that exists in your country) since i don't know what socioeconomic standing you're in. but if you can't, try to go to a library and find books about things you want to learn about. libraries rent out books to people for free and you can bring them back whenever most of the time.

knowledge is power and it will help you in everyday situations. since you have access to the internet try to research coping mechanisms for agoraphobic anxiety and see if you like the premise of any of them. try to take steps in getting out of your shell. agoraphobia can be debilitating but it is abssolutely treatable. maybe try to think up new activities you want to try that give you no choice but to go outside for.

theres no such thing as "too much isolation". theres always hope. youre only 21. you can turn things around!!

good luck (:
 
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hey friend, it seems like you have a pretty good plan here. working at your brother's store will likely open up more opportunities for you in the future along with helping you with your social/agoraphobic anxiety.

you are still very young, which means you can almost certainly turn your life around. i don't know if you can afford to go to community college classes (if that exists in your country) since i don't know what socioeconomic standing you're in. but if you can't, try to go to a library and find books about things you want to learn about. libraries rent out books to people for free and you can bring them back whenever most of the time.

knowledge is power and it will help you in everyday situations. since you have access to the internet try to research coping mechanisms for agoraphobic anxiety and see if you like the premise of any of them. try to take steps in getting out of your shell. agoraphobia can be debilitating but it is abssolutely treatable. maybe try to think up new activities you want to try that give you no choice but to go outside for.

theres no such thing as "too much isolation". theres always hope. youre only 21. you can turn things around!!

good luck (:
Am I on Facebook rn? What happened to this place?
 
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Am I on Facebook rn? What happened to this place?
bro what are you on about? it's the recovery forum. also i've been here longer than you. :pfff:
 
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Working is a good cope. Like any cope it will not make you a "normal person", but it will take your mind off of the abnormalities.
 
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