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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.
 
cambrai33

cambrai33

Member
Nov 3, 2021
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I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.
I’m really happy for you

Tell us what happened when you feel ready. I posted in the scheduled thread and just noticed this post.
 
miserableforever

miserableforever

Student
Oct 23, 2020
191
I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.
All my best wishes for you out there. Stay safe!
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
Changed?
Interesting. How did you manage to do that?
It started with sleeping too little too long. Then came my last week and decided to live life its fullest as I can.

And then 4 nights either passed out or not sleeping at all.
Ended in delirium, heard and saw hallucinations, my inner demons. Im really surprised that I woke today, considering what I did last night. It was like a dream.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
I´ve heard stories of people who changed their attitude towards life after a near death experience.

Maybe that is the sweetspot for some.
I hadnt near death experience. I just lost contact sith reality, but I did suspect something is wrong.

Anyway I think now that drugs such as ketamine which can induce "maddnes" in safe enviroment could realle be the cure to many mental healt issues.

Im really glad that I did woke up today, seems like no brain damage too.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
I wish I could recover. So that my life quality would improve then I would try to live too. However everything fails and fails.
I get it, but image if you wake up tomorrow different person, happy. It is possibl atleast was for me. Never been hapoier to wake up!
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

I want to sleep for an eternity
Sep 24, 2020
5,984
I’m pleased that things got better for you, I hope things continue to go well, I wish you the best.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
I’m pleased that things got better for you, I hope things continue to go well, I wish you the best.
Trust me, they will. I managed to not sync thoughts with reality, but reality with my thoughts
 
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atari

The Very Best
Jun 30, 2019
438
I hope you didn’t suffer with that :( I’m glad you found a reason or something inside of you that makes you want to live.
 
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miserableforever

miserableforever

Student
Oct 23, 2020
191
I´ve heard stories of people who changed their attitude towards life after a near death experience.

Maybe that is the sweetspot for some.
Seems like it. I read about people completely changing after brain injury/accidents too. It’s a thin line.
 
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SoyMedusa

SoyMedusa

I am the Crone.
Sep 28, 2021
150
That is wonderful news and I'm happy for you. :)
Why not hang around in the Recovery Group? Maybe you can help some peeps there, if you're up for it, after some rest. NO pressure. :)
Gods, that's all any of us needs, more pressure. LOL
 
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Hateyouprolife

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Sep 4, 2021
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That is wonderful news and I'm happy for you. :)
Why not hang around in the Recovery Group? Maybe you can help some peeps there, if you're up for it, after some rest. NO pressure. :)
Gods, that's all any of us needs, more pressure. LOL
Maybe even gonna do it. 24h after waking up feeling okay.
 
hotelbeneathground

hotelbeneathground

so gay.
Apr 13, 2021
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I wish I could recover. So that my life quality would improve then I would try to live too. However everything fails and fails.

No offense to anyone, don't mean to be a party pooper & to rain on parades, but I'm skeptical as to whether the "change of personality" OP has achieved will be permanent. Best of luck to them...
 
stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
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I survived suffocation with citric acid bag and baking soda and inhaling pool water. Im better now, even though I think life overally is pointless, I chanced my personality, wanna keep living now.

You can ask me and I will answer. Im not goung to ctb anymore.
I hope your journey is a positive one.
 
RockBot

RockBot

Cog Watcher (UK)
Jun 6, 2020
88
Trust me, they will. I managed to not sync thoughts with reality, but reality with my thoughts
That's the problem for me; I sync reality with my thoughts.

I need to unsync with reality completely. And then I'll be just dandy.
 
Fumito

Fumito

egoworld
May 1, 2020
538
Gonna do it. I not only feel, but am more clear now. Got used to living as different person.
That's great. You know, it's been a while since I used this forum, and back when I was here last I think my posts were more in support of dying or whatever, but recently now that I have returned, i think life is important, and that living is valuable even if I still think about suicide or don't think I can carry on. i think that despite it being painful, we should want and should try to stay alive. I hope this doesn't come across as too prolifey or something, I'm not saying people who actually do still wanna die are completely wrong or delusional because I've been there, but I have also had this change of heart, even though my own life is getting worse, and the future is more uncertain now than it used to be.
if you're still leaving the site, i just wanna say i hope you live long and enjoy it as much as possible. hopefully you don't ctb, hopefully things remain clear for you, hopefully it goes well. i am going to try to hang on as well.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
That's great. You know, it's been a while since I used this forum, and back when I was here last I think my posts were more in support of dying or whatever, but recently now that I have returned, i think life is important, and that living is valuable even if I still think about suicide or don't think I can carry on. i think that despite it being painful, we should want and should try to stay alive. I hope this doesn't come across as too prolifey or something, I'm not saying people who actually do still wanna die are completely wrong or delusional because I've been there, but I have also had this change of heart, even though my own life is getting worse, and the future is more uncertain now than it used to be.
if you're still leaving the site, i just wanna say i hope you live long and enjoy it as much as possible. hopefully you don't ctb, hopefully things remain clear for you, hopefully it goes well. i am going to try to hang on as well.
One thing I can promise is I will never ctb. Gonna live expectional and long life.
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
If I hadnt photo evidence of this allz I coul
dnt believe it myself. Its really crazy how from waiting for sleep is replaced with waiting a new morning, new adventures!
 
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Hateyouprolife

Survivalist
Sep 4, 2021
147
My life has completely changed by now. I guess I am not going to leave, but hang on in the recovery section to help others. Feel free to om or ask anything here.
 
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