Aug 18, 2020
What do you get when you cross a mentally ill loner with a society who abandons him and treats him like trash? I'll tell you what you get. You get what you deserve!

I can relate well with other real people with suicidality/depression. Like DFW or Chester Bennington. But recently I watched Joker. Not gonna lie there are some points we are similar. He probably has psychosis and is crazy. Sometimes I feel not sane. Sometimes I am a bit delusional and imagine things which are not the reality. I think about things I have told other people 3 yaears ago over and over again. Like they would still care about me, in reality these people have forgotten me.

He lives with his mom. was abused as a child and the society treats him like trash. In contrast to him I would never do violence.
There was a time I related a lot with him. Not now so much. This was a period I felt extremely bad. A very insane mixed bipolar period. I felt extremely bad and I thought very fast all the time. My thoughts tortured me. My friends who experienced this were really afraid.

He is delusional about having a gf. I dream about having a gf a lot and live in the past. And I sad about my past crushes who denied me.

When I told my therapist that I compared myself to him he looked concerned. However he does not know I normally only compare myself to people who ctb. So maybe we can see this as kind of progress. I am kind of joking...I know this all sounds insane


Jul 3, 2019
I hated the film then realised I identified with him - the trauma, not able to laugh or feel happiness. I wonder what the film is like for normal people to watch...Maybe they feel fear and compassion? I felt bleak and numb.


Mar 9, 2020
I can definitely relate with being in so much pain that everything essentially seems absurd and even funny. The whole, "life is a big joke" not to be taken seriously concept.


Dec 1, 2020
i want to dress and make up as Joaquin Phoenix Joker for my CTB day


Mar 26, 2021
I also relate with the Joker. Actually, I find many villains in movies, video games, anime, etc. to be relatable, compelling, interesting, whereas I find heroes/"good" guys to be boring, cliche, predictable, goody two shoes, holier-than-thou, hypocritical.