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motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
You've got the cool water
When the fever runs high
You've got the look of lovelight
In your eyes
And I was in a crazy motion
Until you calmed me down
It took a little time
But you calmed me down

Some people never say the words
"I love you"
It's not their style to be so bold
Some people never say those words
"I love you"
But like a child they're longing to be told

They got a wall in China
It's a thousand miles long
To keep out the foreigners
They made it strong
And I got a wall around me
That you can't even see
It took a little time
To get next to me...


 
callme

callme

Elementalist
Aug 15, 2021
850
Pretending to be an eccentric who doesn't take anything seriously? Not half-bad, man. If somebody did seriously accuse you of being one I can see very clearly why you'd say "Have at it". Maybe you are eccentric and if that's how you cope, not bad either. Better than an alcohoo addiction for one.
 
Flippy

Flippy

Felis Sapien
Jan 5, 2020
943
Pretending to be an eccentric who doesn't take anything seriously? Not half-bad, man. If somebody did seriously accuse you of being one I can see very clearly why you'd say "Have at it". Maybe you are eccentric and if that's how you cope, not bad either. Better than an alcohoo addiction for one.
Confused Wait What GIF

Did I miss something? lol!

EDIT: Awwww man, the hilarious GIF isn't showing. That sucks :-(
 
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callme

callme

Elementalist
Aug 15, 2021
850
Confused Wait What GIF

Did I miss something? lol!

EDIT: Awwww man, the hilarious GIF isn't showing. That sucks :-(

Nope, just saying. He says it like being an eccentric is a bad thing. If that's how he copes with his problems and considers that putting on a mask, so be it. Could do a lot worse, unlike so many others in real life cope by being full of shit.

In fact, I can see your gif. It usually happens when I post one in a reply and I can't see it, but others can and that's what's happened here. I am so boring. I wish I was a banana tree
 
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Flippy

Flippy

Felis Sapien
Jan 5, 2020
943
Nope, just saying. He says it like being an eccentric is a bad thing. If that's how he copes with his problems and considers that putting on a mask, so be it. Could do a lot worse, unlike so many others in real life cope by being full of shit.

In fact, I can see your gif. It usually happens when I post one in a reply and I can't see it, but others can and that's what's happened here. I am so boring. I wish I was a banana tree
I see now, I think my brain ain't working so good this evening (long day). I don't think he meant it as a negative thing. More like a self effacing/self aware statement. I prefer eccentric people over the general populace, given the choice lol! The more the better!

The GIF thing is weird though, I've never encountered it before a couple of days ago.
 
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motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
I don't think he meant it as a negative thing. More like a self effacing/self aware statement. I prefer eccentric people over the general populace, given the choice lol! The more the better!
I'm not terribly eccentric. I just make jokes all the time to prevent people from asking me serious questions & I enjoy messing with the braindead by saying inappropriate things I know will shock them & acting like I'm much weirder & more unpredictable than I really am. Sometimes I'll go totally quiet for no reason or laugh too loudly at something uninteresting they say or start humming, "Strike a pose, strike a pose. Come on, vogue! Psycho killer, run, run, run away, ayayayay! And nothing else matters, yeah yeah!", that kind of stuff.
 
Flippy

Flippy

Felis Sapien
Jan 5, 2020
943
I'm not terribly eccentric. I just make jokes all the time to prevent people from asking me serious questions & I enjoy messing with the braindead by saying inappropriate things I know will shock them & acting like I'm much weirder & more unpredictable than I really am. Sometimes I'll go totally quiet for no reason or laugh too loudly at something uninteresting they say or start humming, "Strike a pose, strike a pose. Come on, vogue! Psycho killer, run, run, run away, ayayayay! And nothing else matters, yeah yeah!", that kind of stuff.
You know, we really should start a club or something :)) We could have meetings where we play fucking awesome music and baffle the brain-dead! For once it would be nice to not be the only one in the room who knows what I'm doing lol!
 
callme

callme

Elementalist
Aug 15, 2021
850
You know, we really should start a club or something :)) We could have meetings where we play fucking awesome music and baffle the brain-dead! For once it would be nice to not be the only one in the room who knows what I'm doing lol!

Something tells me in a way you are already doing it 😡
 
Mayushii

Mayushii

Global Mom. Tu tu ru!
Mar 28, 2021
590
@hotelbeneathground I am so happy for you and proud of you. I wish I could give you a big hug.

You have been through so much horror that no-one should ever endure. You so deserve to love and to be loved in return, and I'm so glad you have a loving and supportive relationship with your husband (congratulations by the way on getting married!). I know you said your lives are still a mess and it may not be simple for either of you, but I'm glad you have each other and that you want to try to live. Best news I've read in a long time! :heart:
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
@hotelbeneathground I am so happy for you and proud of you. I wish I could give you a big hug.

Thank you, I wish I could hug you right back... :hug:

I'm still quite disoriented. I'm used to chaos & dealing with selfish people who amuse themselves by playing superficial games; it's very strange to live with someone who is never ironic & never complains about anything. He's a much better person than me, immensely patient & understanding. Stronger & more reliable than I first thought. I know that he's doing his best not to drink mostly because it makes me sad & not because it's bad for him, but he's managing to go without alcohol for 3-4 days. Maybe there's still hope he can learn to like & respect himself...
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
I'm a moth
Who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect
Trying to get out of the night
I only stick with you
Because there are no others

You're all I need
You're all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all right
It's all right

 
Midgardsorm

Midgardsorm

Global Mod
Apr 28, 2020
882
I haven't seen this.

Congratulations !!

Life is about joy and pleasures. Yours are just beginning.

I hope this is just the first of many good things for you.

You deserve happiness.
 
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I am happy for those of you "eccentrics" who find love on your own terms with your amazing, unique, special personality types. It always amazes me when 2 people can get along. I am happy that you have found special relationships unlike all of the rest of them - "this is what we do AT CHURCH". I'm grateful that you've found someone who means something to you and admire your resilience, the depth of your relationship, the way that you love each other imperfect and can still love each other, support each other. That is AMAZING. I hope that your love and happiness last forever :) - R
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
Let me live my life beside the river
Take me to places where a child can grow
And then maybe the boy inside will forsake me
Maybe the child in me
Will just let me go

I'm going down
The cold, cold water is rushing in
I'm going down
And I would beg to be forgiven
If I knew my sin, if I knew my sin
Save me, save me...

 
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SlipAway

Member
Dec 9, 2021
7
Hi, my name is @hotelbeneathground, I'm 40, I suffer from C-PTSD & hypersexuality disorder (sex addiction) due to CSA (childhood sexual abuse) & I'm not sure I belong in the Recovery section. Not so long ago I was sure I was ready to ctb, but I ended up having a mini breakdown & starting a relationship with someone I thought was as doomed as me & would help me destroy myself. We got married instead. Our lives are still a mess, but I suppose I'm in love & I feel loved, so I kind of, sort of don't wanna die as much as I used to or whatever. Starting a thread in Recovery feels real weird, almost a bit humiliating, never thought it would come to this for me. :ahhha:
Thank you for sharing this. Wishing you good things and many of them in the coming year. We are overdue.
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,947
I was in need of help
Heading to black out
Till someone told me,
"Run on in, honey
Before somebody blows
Your goddamn brains out"
You shoplifted as a child
I had a model's smile

But one day we'll float
Take life as it comes

So will we die of shock?
Die without a trial?
Die on Good Friday
While holding each other tight?

But one day we'll float
Take life as it comes...

 
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