- Jun 8, 2022
I have no love for myself. I can't accept who I am. I feel I always feel uncomfortable. It's a shame I feel I could do so many things but I just can't get over this one impenetrable wall. I can't fully enjoy anything. There's no point. I do the things I think I need to make up for the things I don't have. Why am I forced to live a life with no happiness? Luckily I am not responsible for anyone except for maybe my mother. She puts me on a pedestal of so much potential at least she has my siblings. I try and am trying to fix my problem but I feel nothing is working. I'm not sure how long I can take it. I want to order SN soon and just leave on the night that I feel worse.