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hikikomori

hikikomori

Attention whore and regular whore
Oct 23, 2018
209
title says it all. I'm sad I get close to ppl and I end up accidently push them away aperantly I do that here it hurts being along. I just want to be held by somone. that's all I want. I make jokes to hide my emotions. nd I get close nd say love stuff because i don't have anything substantial to contribute to them. I do t Evan know why I'm posting any more is this some bs way to get self gratification. I'm so fucking needy why can't I just be normal
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
724
Normal is way way way overrated. I enjoy reading your posts and conversing with you. You're a great person.

The most important thing is that we're honest with ourselves about how we feel, and coming out here and typing out what you typed out shows real courage.
 
Dani Paradox

Dani Paradox

Permanently Banned
Aug 17, 2018
981
You are loved and accepted here <3 Try not to be so hard on yourself. Normal to the spider is chaos to the fly. There's no such thing as normal. Normality is not necessarily a virtue, but rather denotes a lack of courage ;-) If someone can't appreciate your individuality then that person simply isn't meant to be in your life. Be happy with who you are =) the right people will find their way to you. Hugs
 
your pathologist

your pathologist

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Sep 5, 2018
516
I know i'm really annoying.
I 1000% post here because i'm not getting enough attention anywere else in my life.
Its becoming at peace with it.



Good luck i'm still trying to figure it out
I hate that guy (me)
 
your pathologist

your pathologist

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Sep 5, 2018
516
For what it's worth, I've never found you even the slightest bit annoying <3 *shrugs*

Hahaha... thanks Dani.

I primarily meant in the box. I just poke at people and nudge nudge them with silly jokes and try to make light of serious situations because to me
everything is a fucking joke.

And for what its worth, there are few people that i get excited to see online.
You're one of them.
 
jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
563
S’all good. I actually quite like your presence here :) and you’re also quite the worthy opponent in Cards Against Humanity. We need a rematch soon. You’re not annoying.

However, I do understand how you feel to an extent. I use to be on Shoutbox a lot but I stopped because I think I’m starting to get annoying repeating the same shit. I also think I’m annoying posting random shit on the threads now too. I don’t know what to anymore.

P.S. I like dark humor :) what kind of jokes do you like?
 
The Blackangel

The Blackangel

Nyiach des uti nesi deh ahy.
Nov 3, 2018
209
I'm annoying as hell. I get started on a rant and I never shut up. And I'm always bitching about the same thing over and over and over again. But even in my short time here, so far I've learned that you can let loose, and be who, or whatever you want to be. I'm transgender and no one has rejected me. So a bit of baggage isn't annoying.

Just so you know, it took more courage than you probably realize to make this thread. So keep posting unless it's time to CTB.
 
Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
title says it all. I'm sad I get close to ppl and I end up accidently push them away aperantly I do that here it hurts being along. I just want to be held by somone. that's all I want. I make jokes to hide my emotions. nd I get close nd say love stuff because i don't have anything substantial to contribute to them. I do t Evan know why I'm posting any more is this some bs way to get self gratification. I'm so fucking needy why can't I just be normal
I’m isolated because my depression makes me horrible to be around so I don’t bother persuing anything at this point. I cannot be around people when i’m sick with depression. In the past i’ve been horribly clingy and desperate and many relationships and friendships were destroyed because of my problems.

It’s awful because I feel horribly alone at times but I have to stay away from any social situations.
 
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weedoge

weedoge

Banned
Jul 12, 2018
1,528
I'm annoying as hell. I get started on a rant and I never shut up. And I'm always bitching about the same thing over and over and over again. But even in my short time here, so far I've learned that you can let loose, and be who, or whatever you want to be. I'm transgender and no one has rejected me. So a bit of baggage isn't annoying.

Just so you know, it took more courage than you probably realize to make this thread. So keep posting unless it's time to CTB.
You're not annoying as hell, and the same goes for everyone else, but I totally understand the feeling. Especially like, obsessing and going over the same thing over and over. Thinking and talking about stuff never seems to change or fix it materially but it's all we have in the absence of anything else good so just let it all out, people won't judge you here.
 
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Philip

Specialist
Oct 23, 2018
318
title says it all. I'm sad I get close to ppl and I end up accidently push them away aperantly I do that here it hurts being along. I just want to be held by somone. that's all I want. I make jokes to hide my emotions. nd I get close nd say love stuff because i don't have anything substantial to contribute to them. I do t Evan know why I'm posting any more is this some bs way to get self gratification. I'm so fucking needy why can't I just be normal
I feel the same exact way
 
weedoge

weedoge

Banned
Jul 12, 2018
1,528
tell this to @weedoge

we can't help who we are.
You're special.
I consider myself to be very annoying as well. I always assume people want to get away from me. Sometimes I’m wrong. So are you. You’re not annoying, @hikikomori, nor you @your pathologist. It’s okay to be needy. We can’t help who we are.
Feeling the love... Seriously I feel blessed for those people who will give me even a second out of their day. Thank you.
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
362
title says it all. I'm sad I get close to ppl and I end up accidently push them away aperantly I do that here it hurts being along. I just want to be held by somone. that's all I want. I make jokes to hide my emotions. nd I get close nd say love stuff because i don't have anything substantial to contribute to them. I do t Evan know why I'm posting any more is this some bs way to get self gratification. I'm so fucking needy why can't I just be normal
I'm super needy/clingy too and I like people who are the same. It's the "default state" to me. We don't have to be replaceable..

Sending a virtual hug
 
Deleted member 2141

Deleted member 2141

The angel of choice is enduring.
Aug 30, 2018
5,309
I'm kinda like that too IRL, people treat me as though I'm incompetent and infantilize me which gets on my nerves a lot. Then when I try to stand my ground, stand up for myself, they get repulsed and offended that I've decided to not put up with their shit. Goddamn, it really frustrates me too and I've also tried to keep a distance so that way they are less likely to get in my way of ultimately ctb'ing.

Personally, I just want a real 'friend' who wants to be my friend for me instead of wanting me to be submissive, compliant, conform to society and their expectations. Basically, I want someone who is genuine and stuff, not some pretend, pity shit. Since I can't find those, I've resigned and gave up on trying to make friends and what not, it's pretty much doomed. I'm just putting up a front IRL so people would stop being condescending and patronizing to me.
 
TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

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Nov 2, 2018
285
title says it all. I'm sad I get close to ppl and I end up accidently push them away aperantly I do that here it hurts being along. I just want to be held by somone. that's all I want. I make jokes to hide my emotions. nd I get close nd say love stuff because i don't have anything substantial to contribute to them. I do t Evan know why I'm posting any more is this some bs way to get self gratification. I'm so fucking needy why can't I just be normal

I haven't spoken to you much as I think you tend to stay in chat and not on the forum itself, but I personally think you're awesome from what I have seen. Give yourself a break, we're all awesome here *hugs*
 
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Compodulator

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,343
We may have spoke only once through that live chatbox thing, but I didn't find you annoying in the slightest.
You're honest with yourself, about yourself and opened up about it to others. That takes some courage and strength. I've seen a good share of people who can't do it. Too weak to acknowledge it about themselves, that they're not what they see as what they want to be.
 
Angel2018

Angel2018

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Sep 20, 2018
30
I believe I'm annoying as well. Always making dumb jokes and posting only shit. I think that people can't wait to get away from me as fast as possible.

PS: Even my english's annoying, 'cause I'm from germany and I'm too dumb for this language XD -.-
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
I believe I'm annoying as well. Always making dumb jokes and posting only shit. I think that people can't wait to get away from me as fast as possible.

PS: Even my english's annoying, 'cause I'm from germany and I'm too dumb for this language XD -.-

You’re not annoying. And your English is very good, honestly. If these people can put up with my stilted, crappy English, they’ll have no problem with yours :p