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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,445
Once you look behind the scenes you start the realize how stupid and pointless life is. But that is not even the worst thing. The thing that bothers me the most is how fucking pathetic humanity is. They kill each other over the color of their skin, they destroy their own planet. So many things I could list here but I don't have the energy to type it all.

Sometimes I laugh when I see motivated people working or studying. It's just cringe worthy to me. Like happy slaves enjoying their enslavement. .........
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
they are just as not as depressed as you

when i ever im depressed i have the same thoughts as you and when i get out of depression i always could cry how i wasted my time doing nothing while i was depressed
 
throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,445
they are just as not as depressed as you

when i ever im depressed i have the same thoughts as you and when i get out of depression i always could cry how i wasted my time doing nothing while i was depressed

are you serious?

Does that mean that you want to be happy? You don't want to die?
 
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Nlnp2

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Sep 22, 2018
103
The only reason why I don't want to kill myself anymore, is because I want to do some experiments to see if there really is an afterlife. After I get my answer I'll be gone. It might take a year or two. There's no way I'll stay here for more than that. This life is exhausting and disadvantageous. The people you see studying or working are just folks who decided to play the game of being human. I'm glad I'm not one of them.
 
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couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
what makes you so unhappy?


i had a semi-chronic disease in my teens for 3 years. i recovered physically but mentally im not so same anymore. chronic depressions, probably bpd since back then

future as i imagined it not possible anymore
socially isolated
cant maintain relationships
cant sleep properly for years now
huge feelings of stress, anixiety and anger
 
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Taylored

I've figured it out
Sep 20, 2018
321
People "Living the Life" are just working or doing something to benefit powerful people It's a huge joke. Everything we work hard for and do Is for nothing but making somebody else richer while we have nothing.
 
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NoHope

Member
Aug 7, 2018
44
Once you look behind the scenes you start the realize how stupid and pointless life is. But that is not even the worst thing. The thing that bothers me the most is how fucking pathetic humanity is. They kill each other over the color of their skin, they destroy their own planet. So many things I could list here but I don't have the energy to type it all.

Sometimes I laugh when I see motivated people working or studying. It's just cringe worthy to me. Like happy slaves enjoying their enslavement. .........

I agree. I also find it ridiculous how most people seem to completely ignore the reality of death and their own mortality. Like I know some people who literally believe that they will never die. When I merely try to mention anything death-related, they just say "Stop it" or "That's not going to happen". It's like they totally reject the idea that death is natural and it is not good or bad, it is just a part of our life. It really shows how some people choose to ignore the reality, they are living in this happy bubble and don't want to take off their rose-colored glasses or at least be somewhat realistic.

And then they get offended or angry when they hear or see someone take their own life. Well, it's probably not the suicidal person's problem that you chose to ignore the reality for most of your life. We're all going to die anyway, whether you like it or not. No point in acting like you or anyone will live forever.
 
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Nlnp2

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Sep 22, 2018
103
I agree. I also find it ridiculous how most people seem to completely ignore the reality of death and their own mortality. Like I know some people who literally believe that they will never die. When I merely try to mention anything death-related, they just say "Stop it" or "That's not going to happen". It's like they totally reject the idea that death is natural and it is not good or bad, it is just a part of our life. It really shows how some people choose to ignore the reality, they are living in this happy bubble and don't want to take off their rose-colored glasses or at least be somewhat realistic.

And then they get offended or angry when they hear or see someone take their own life. Well, it's probably not the suicidal person's problem that you chose to ignore the reality for most of your life. We're all going to die anyway, whether you like it or not. No point in acting like you or anyone will live forever.
We know nothing about death. Death is just the word we use to describe the biological end of a certain organism. We don't know the reality of death, because we don't know if consciousness is really dependent on the brain to exist. We can use Occam's Razor and speculate that death is the end, but claiming that we know what really happens is just lying.
 
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Jaded

Student
Sep 8, 2018
112
. When I merely try to mention anything death-related, they just say "Stop it" or "That's not going to happen". It's like they totally reject the idea that death is natural and it is not good or bad, it is just a part of our life.
That's so crazy. I mean anyone can try and enjoy life but everyone dies. I really don't see the point in life. You have to sustain yourself daily and age.it makes no sense to me.
 
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SomeGuyDK

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Sep 17, 2018
31
The only reason why I don't want to kill myself anymore, is because I want to do some experiments to see if there really is an afterlife. After I get my answer I'll be gone. It might take a year or two. There's no way I'll stay here for more than that. This life is exhausting and disadvantageous. The people you see studying or working are just folks who decided to play the game of being human. I'm glad I'm not one of them.
What kind of experiments are you thinking about, if you don't mind me asking? I am guessing it is near death experience related?
 
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Nlnp2

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Sep 22, 2018
103
What kind of experiments are you thinking about, if you don't mind me asking? I am guessing it is near death experience related?
I'm going to train myself to induce an out of body experience at will, then I will try to read 4 digit code numbers generated by my phone while having the experience. A lady succeeded in the 60s to do this (or maybe the experiment was a fraud, but I want to find out by myself) after a few failed attempts. She read a 5 digit code (the probability of guessing that is 1 in 100 000)
 
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NoHope

Member
Aug 7, 2018
44
We know nothing about death. Death is just the word we use to describe the biological end of a certain organism. We don't know the reality of death, because we don't know if consciousness is really dependent on the brain to exist. We can use Occam's Razor and speculate that death is the end, but claiming that we know what really happens is just lying.

Of course we don't know anything about it, but that doesn't change the fact that death is a natural part of life.

Then again, I don't believe in anything supernatural or any kind of afterlife, so that's just my opinion.
 
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windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
368
That's so crazy. I mean anyone can try and enjoy life but everyone dies. I really don't see the point in life. You have to sustain yourself daily and age.it makes no sense to me.
We have to sustain ourselves daily and age - that's such a succinct, incisive way to put it! : )
 
windingdown

windingdown

Specialist
Sep 10, 2018
368
The thing is that it's like there are two sides of experience - I'll call them Experience 1 and 2. On one side, Experience 1, you are a participant in life, and you take life seriously. It feels legitimate, even the hard parts. I was on that side of things for 30 years, so I get that. I had almost 0 suicidal thoughts. I didn't think about having the will to live, because it was just there. I engaged.

On the other side of experience, Experience 2, the curtain has fallen. You can't take living seriously, because it appears pointless and probably meaningless. Anhedonia is likely. I don't think everyone 'reaches' this side, like the two aspects of experience always arise consecutively in a given life. It can be digital; you're in one or the other. I think some people are born into this experience, or just wake up into it at a very young age.

I don't think we can help which side of experience we're living in. They just happen to us. People in Experience 1 are the ones likely to seek recovery when negative experiences befall them. Those in Experience 2, who often I think arrive there following negative experiences, are likely to be the ones on this forum, or in general just seeking a way out.
 
Life sucks

Life sucks

Enlightened
Apr 18, 2018
1,926
So many things in many aspects, endless like infinite. I can talk and talk about it and it will never end. But I'll just say life sucks instead.