- Apr 7, 2019
I am downright miserable with my incurable inner ear condition. Constant vertigo and vomiting from it, wont let me sleep all sounds amplified hearing vibrations in the walls....Leading to diagnosis and after it just spent time on SS chat, drinking, doing drugs and yelling into the void. My family doesnt believe I'm sick. Well, I met a person, he has not only the same ear condition as me, but the same mental illness too! We clicked from day one. Every single thing I went through, regarding my ears, gaslighting medical PTSD, he went through it too. We even want to move in together. I promised him I will live for him. I know I'm supposed to do it for myself, I hate myself tho. But yeah, I'm doing it. I'm throwing away my rope. From that now on, I have a reason. Ill go to the bridge and smoke a cigarette, and tell it 'not today'.