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throwaway123

throwaway123

Hell0
Aug 5, 2018
1,445
but I also like to stay anonymous and hidden. This is a dilemma I'm in. I really like some people here but I have trouble connecting with them not only because of my social anxiety but also because I'm extremely paranoid and I don't want to give away too much.
 
DreamFreedom

DreamFreedom

Thane
Oct 3, 2018
68
I felt exactly the same! I wonder if I say too much, someone on here might think I sound familiar. And that is terrifying. I also just can't for the life of me hold a conversation. I want to reply but I either don't know what to say or think nothing I say is worth saying.
 
Desperate_Soul

Desperate_Soul

I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
Aug 26, 2018
1,980
Story of my life. I sometimes wonder if I come off as a bitch because of this.

Another issue for me with connecting with people on here is that I might start getting attached to them. This is a suicide forum. It doesn't matter who you are, I automatically care about you... but once things start getting personal and I know a lot about you and you know a lot about me, that level of care is beyond my control. I don't want to deal with that. This isn't to say that I will tell people not to kill themselves, or that I won't kill myself because of them... but it does make things harder. I don't know where I was going with this anymore. I don't think I'm making any sense, lol. Anyway. This is why I try to stay distant with people and avoid starting any kind of relationship. It's hard, and I'm not doing a really good job distancing myself at all... but I still try.
 
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lostinthedream

lostinthedream

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Sep 2, 2018
754
aye the very su
Story of my life. I sometimes wonder if I come off as a bitch because of this.

Another issue for me with connecting with people on here is that I might start getting attached to them. This is a suicide forum. It doesn't matter who you are, I automatically care about you... but once things start getting personal and I know a lot about you and you know a lot about me, that level of care is beyond my control. I don't want to deal with that. This isn't to say that I will tell people not to kill themselves, or that I won't kill myself because of them... but it does make things harder. I don't know where I was going with this anymore. I don't think I'm making any sense, lol. Anyway. This is why I try to stay distant with people and avoid starting any kind of relationship. It's hard, and I'm not doing a really good job distancing myself at all... but I still try.

This place is great practice in spiritual perspectives and divine unconditional love. I recognize all as Divine and therefore those who depart are fulfilling their purpose, their journey.. and to those around them.. Its beyond my small mind.. I simply desire peace for all who are drawn here, in this world or beyond..
 
Chinaski

Chinaski

Perchance to dream
Sep 1, 2018
1,824
I came here purely for practical info, made a conscious decision not to get too involved or get to know anyone on here, yet reading about those people who ctb via sn the other day made me genuinely very sad. I desperately want to get the courage and appropriate method to get out, but have realised l can't feel happy for anyone else to make that same choice and successfully act upon it. I wonder if l should leave this place because of this tbh.
 
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Morning Angel

Useless Broken Wings
Aug 8, 2018
619
I have to agree with DS. It’s best not to get attached, because you don’t know who you’re dealing with and because once attachments form, so do emotions and expectations. I don’t allow anyone here to get to know me or my life beyond one or two people now.
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
I love it here because I’m able to communicate honestly with like-minded people, ask questions & share information that i’d be uncomfortable/worried sharing if the person knew me irl.

Even though people here are hidden in anonymity I still feel for them when they go. I feel sad, glad, inspired, jealous etc. I think we all have similar goals fears and concerns and most of us are trapped with a lot of pain.

It’s really nice to communicate openly when we’re about to go because it’s quite isolating to hold all of these thoughts inside and plan/act alone.
 
ignominia

ignominia

O Rose thou art sick.
Oct 6, 2018
91
I do not selfcensore (idk if is the correct word in english) and don't have to deal with pro life people here, it's so liberating, i feel part of a community also.
 
Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
417
Story of my life. I sometimes wonder if I come off as a bitch because of this.

Another issue for me with connecting with people on here is that I might start getting attached to them. This is a suicide forum. It doesn't matter who you are, I automatically care about you... but once things start getting personal and I know a lot about you and you know a lot about me, that level of care is beyond my control. I don't want to deal with that. This isn't to say that I will tell people not to kill themselves, or that I won't kill myself because of them... but it does make things harder. I don't know where I was going with this anymore. I don't think I'm making any sense, lol. Anyway. This is why I try to stay distant with people and avoid starting any kind of relationship. It's hard, and I'm not doing a really good job distancing myself at all... but I still try.


This is how I feel, a part of me thinks wow everyone here is so relatable and I feel a sort of connection. Then the reality is everyone here is at the least planning on killing themselves, not everyone will kill themselves I'm sure. So that just puts breaks on fully connecting with people, but low and behold I'm still on this site everyday. It's usually the best part of my days too.
 
Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Super duper enlightened
Sep 9, 2018
1,707
I don't see anything wrong with forming connections or friendships by way of this site. It's quite a stretch to assume everyone will off themselves. Statistically speaking that won't happen. I think it's liberating to open up and admit you're at rock bottom, and some friendly interaction may just help someone survive a little longer. Even if a person you're friendly with does ctb, you can take comfort in the fact that you made their final days a little brighter. I suppose it's all a matter of perspective.
 
deathoverlife

deathoverlife

life is fleeting.....
Oct 8, 2018
197
am so glad i found this forum.. in my gloomy life this brougt lil sunshine. I was so lost, isolated with no one to talk to

being ananomous gives you courage to speak out you mind loud and clear...it liberates you..its so easy to connect with unknown and anonymous people than the kown one. coz you know you are not being judged and branded for how you feel and what you say..

coming to connection ..less than a week I already feel good..i feel connected..i feel i have people around who would help and and guide me. I don't feel alone and pained coz of my thoughts.. now i know i can spill any thing that comes to my mind without a second thought..

buy also i fear..fear of watching the people i connected with go before me.. i might sound mean.. but I fork want to lose any one i love before me. i have lost the most important person in my life and in the thought of losing any one i love or care tears me apart :(
 
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IG959

Arcanist
Aug 14, 2018
430
I hunk everyone is so nice here, well I haven’t had any major issues so far. Luckily.


Story of my life. I sometimes wonder if I come off as a bitch because of this.

Another issue for me with connecting with people on here is that I might start getting attached to them. This is a suicide forum. It doesn't matter who you are, I automatically care about you... but once things start getting personal and I know a lot about you and you know a lot about me, that level of care is beyond my control. I don't want to deal with that. This isn't to say that I will tell people not to kill themselves, or that I won't kill myself because of them... but it does make things harder. I don't know where I was going with this anymore. I don't think I'm making any sense, lol. Anyway. This is why I try to stay distant with people and avoid starting any kind of relationship. It's hard, and I'm not doing a really good job distancing myself at all... but I still try.
You definitely don’t come across as a bitch!!
 
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Voldmort

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Sep 23, 2018
287
I also like to sail around here. usually when I want to die I navigate the suicide forum ... when I just want to read other people's stories and even entertain myself, I come here. so it's a very versatile site.