FuneralCry

FuneralCry

She dreams of eternal sleep
Sep 24, 2020
12,421
To me, the train sounds like such a horrifying way to leave this world. I know that I could never ctb that way. I think that someone must be so desperate to be able to ctb this way. I’m sorry that it has come to this point for you. I know that this life can be unbearable when you suffer so much. I hope that you find relief from your pain.
 
DerTod

DerTod

No alarms and no surprises
Apr 17, 2022
137
What happened to you that drove you to this state of desperation? I would say that the best is to take time to plan for your suicide.Don't do it out of impulse. Train method will trigger your SI like crazy because it is quite scary: imagine you sitting there waiting,train coming, you hearing it speeding and the alarm it makes. Plus why involve someone into your death against their will?!
 
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ornitier199

Arcanist
Mar 26, 2022
417
Wow. I'd expect to see replies like this from that dumpster fire subreddit
Just stop
 
TheLastFemaphrodyke

TheLastFemaphrodyke

Student
May 25, 2022
126
Help please
read the ppeh, there are much better ways to go, you MAY survive the train, unless you can lay down on the track with your head on the rail and NOT move and the train does not stop, How can you overcome that SI if you cannot overcome the jumping in front of one SI? You have been through enough already, that is why you want to check out of Hotel California, please, do not put yourself into a wheelchair or worse. Read the PPEH, there is at least one way that cost little to no money, is successful with only only about an hour of uninterrupted alone time, actually 20 minutes would do it, but I like to take me time, you have been through enough, others have put you through enough, do not allow them to make you do something so horrid to yourself, find the better way. There are links to the ppeh on here, it covers methods, there are many, find your way, be good to yourself. Do not be worse to yourself than what others have already done to you, fuck them, leave well, or do not leave, find your way and stay, just to piss them off, fuck them.
 
DerTod

DerTod

No alarms and no surprises
Apr 17, 2022
137
I didn't do it. Wasn't able to overcome SI. Probably trying pills again
Pills? What pills you plan to take? I know you feel very bad now but we're here to listen to you and help you take the best decision. If you are convinced that you want to end your life,take a little time to read this forum,ask questions and do it rationally not on impulse. There are methods that are not gruesome and have very good success rates. There's always someone here you can talk to about anything who will listen and give a good advice.
 
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Sadness20

Student
Nov 1, 2021
129
Pills? What pills you plan to take? I know you feel very bad now but we're here to listen to you and help you take the best decision. If you are convinced that you want to end your life,take a little time to read this forum,ask questions and do it rationally not on impulse. There are methods that are not gruesome and have very good success rates. There's always someone here you can talk to about anything who will listen and give a good advice.
I'm so lost i dont know what to do anymore rn
 
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Sadness20

Student
Nov 1, 2021
129
I'm thinking of getting help. Of calling a crisis line or talking to someone. But i'm scared. Maybe i do all of this for attention. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks so. I don't know whether to go through with this or try to get help. But it hasn't worked until now, so i dont know.
If you feel comfortable sharing,tell us what's going on. Might help you to get it off your chest.
 
DerTod

DerTod

No alarms and no surprises
Apr 17, 2022
137
I'm thinking of getting help. Of calling a crisis line or talking to someone. But i'm scared. Maybe i do all of this for attention. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks so. I don't know whether to go through with this or try to get help. But it hasn't worked until now, so i dont know.
You are anonymous on this site and we are not here to judge you. It's up to you if you share here or on a crisis line but there is no reason to be scared about talking. Please just don't do anything on impulse as you might end up in a worse situation.
 
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Sadness20

Student
Nov 1, 2021
129
You are anonymous on this site and we are not here to judge you. It's up to you if you share here or on a crisis line but there is no reason to be scared about talking. Please just don't do anything on impulse as you might end up in a worse situation.
It's all just so difficult lately. I've been having really bad mood swings like 3-5 times a day. Every small thing gets overly exaggerated in my mind. I'm so tired, i'm thinking of going to a psych ward, but i dont know, maybe i should just go through with it impulsively.
 
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AloneInCollege

AloneInCollege

The one and only
Mar 7, 2022
91
It's all just so difficult lately. I've been having really bad mood swings like 3-5 times a day. Every small thing gets overly exaggerated in my mind. I'm so tired, i'm thinking of going to a psych ward, but i dont know, maybe i should just go through with it impulsively.
Impulsiveness rarely if ever is the right way. Especially when it comes to choosing to ctb or get help. We can't decide for you, but we are here to listen and to help along the way for whatever you feel is best, but we can't help you if you're currently manic or Impulsive. I've been in that state before and it's awful, but looking back I'm glad I didn't make any decisions in that state. And this is all coming from someone who's still planning to ctb.
 
DerTod

DerTod

No alarms and no surprises
Apr 17, 2022
137
It's all just so difficult lately. I've been having really bad mood swings like 3-5 times a day. Every small thing gets overly exaggerated in my mind. I'm so tired, i'm thinking of going to a psych ward, but i dont know, maybe i should just go through with it impulsively.
Yes i understand the bad mood swings and the feeling of being tired. Have bipolar depression and anxiety( overly exagerated thoughts that dig at me every day). Went to a psychiatrist about a month ago and i'm on treatment now. It's better. From the way you write i understand that you don't know what to do yet. Going to a psychiatrist might help in the sense that they can put you on a treatment to diminish what you feel now. At least it might take away this pressure and desperation you feel now and after with a clear mind you can decide for a quick and painless method if you still feel that it is time for you to leave.
You mentioned you plan to take some pills again. I don't know what pills you have but pills don't kill as far as i am aware.
 
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Marktheghost

Marktheghost

Elementalist
Feb 20, 2020
848
Underground. Just did it, overcoming SI. I was suffering from the pain in my chest, it was really caused by mental suffering, but felt as a real physical pain. Thoughts about non-existence or reincarnation after death to start from scratch helped to overcome SI. Unfortunately.
What did you do? Did you stand in front of the train or what? How did you lose your legs but not your head?
 
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LittleJem

Enlightened
Jul 3, 2019
1,585
Hanging must be better than train method. More effective
 
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Sobreviviente

Member
Jun 4, 2022
51
What did you do? Did you stand in front of the train or what? How did you lose your legs but not your head?
I jumped trying to overcome SI when the train started to approach. I did it with passion and unfortunately there was enough space behind the rails for my body, but not for my legs. There were stations without this space, but unfortunately at that station it was there, but I was so upset and concentrated on fighting against my SI that I didn't look at it in advance. Now it's hard to believe that I was so dumb and so unlucky. Literally it's a nightmare, I think it's better to end up either died or without such injuries. I was conscious till the emergency came and gave me some gas. I even remember a wheel on one of my feet which looked like mince. Somehow the train stopped with the wheel on my foot, the second one. I was begging to finish me but of course these bastards didn't. A psychiatrist even asked me if I am happy that I ended up alive, lol. I think she needs a psychiatrist for herself if she can ask such a question to the guy who was trying to committe suicide in such a horrible way and ended up in much worst condition
 
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LeavingEarly

Student
Mar 19, 2022
115
I jumped trying to overcome SI when the train started to approach. I did it with passion and unfortunately there was enough space behind the rails for my body, but not for my legs. There were stations without this space, but unfortunately at that station it was there, but I was so upset and concentrated on fighting against my SI that I didn't look at it in advance. Now it's hard to believe that I was so dumb and so unlucky. Literally it's a nightmare, I think it's better to end up either died or without such injuries. I was conscious till the emergency came and gave me some gas. I even remember a wheel on one of my feet which looked like mince. Somehow the train stopped with the wheel on my foot, the second one. I was begging to finish me but of course these bastards didn't. A psychiatrist even asked me if I am happy that I ended up alive, lol. I think she needs a psychiatrist for herself if she can ask such a question to the guy who was trying to committe suicide in such a horrible way and ended up in much worst condition
Sorry you made it
 
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Sadness20

Student
Nov 1, 2021
129
I'm in the psych ward right now. I'll see if they can help me, otherwise i can still do it later.