- Jul 15, 2018
I don't know what to say. After working this morning I feel sketchy as fuck thinking about my life and how I analyze it. I get existential dread everyday and feel like throwing up thinking that I have to go with the flow so to speak. I feel like I don't belong here and that my consciousness is trapped. I want out, it's that simple. I'm done acting like everything will be okay but it will not. I'm going to try it again for the 6th time by drinking lots of liquor, cut my wrists, take pills and smoke, hang myself and then hopefully it'll finally being made over. Maybe in a different life, maybe not and I hope not but if I succeed I sincerely wish y'all much love and peacefulness. Welp here goes.