- Jul 20, 2018
I have just come to the conclusion that I have just been fooling myself with silly questions like how to crush the pills and stuff like this. I have everything I need: huge dose of amitriptyline, enough metoclopramide, enough cimetidine, huge dose of benzos (clonazepam). All have to do is book a hotel room and take everything there. I think about It 24/7 and I think that concerns about hurting my family is the only reason I am still here. I can not wait for them to die, It would be just too long of a time. They Will be hurt and they Will Deal with It I dont know how, but they will have to. I just need to wait until monday and then that's it, It is hell living with suicidal thoughts and I want It to end.