Deleted member 847
After all my failed attempts I think I learned something. I'm not ready to die. It's like there's something up there that simply doesn't fucking want me to die yet. I'm 18 and I thought I could just avoid by suicide all the crap a human being has to face in his life but looks like I'm not special enough for such a privilege. Maybe when I will be in my 30s and I will own a house and hopefully be alone in it I will finally be able to do it.