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QueenEtna

Gone
Jul 29, 2018
258
If you had the chance to restart you’re life over would you do it? You’ll still retain the memories from this current life but you’d have the power to change it in your new one.

I probably would, theres so many things I messed up on in my life. Like not getting education, not taking care of myself, not doing things I should of done but it’s too late to do so now. I feel like if I had the chance I could live a happy fullfilling life.
 
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IronicFail

Member
Sep 27, 2018
62
Yes if I could retain my knowledge (maybe not my experiences). Otherwise there is no point because it was experiences of abuse that drives this. My knowledge retained would have stopped a good chunk of the abuse.
 
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IronicFail

Member
Sep 27, 2018
62
Oh most definitely, at various stages I would absolutely love the chance to explore decisions not made, roads not taken..etc..Perhaps that will be my after-life, it would be intriguing

Can I change my answer? This made me think, if I couldn't retain my knowledge, then I'd have been a socially acceptable asshole by doing normal things at certain points instead of having compassion.
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,380
It is. But, at least for me, right now it's making not having checked out easier. I can escape into day dreams and pretend that I'm there. It's nice. It's temporary (like a few minutes at a time) but it is nice.
It's all I think about and the fact I can't redo it just from 2004/2005 onwards is the reason I 'm checking out. I should have thought about that before I did it
 
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IronicFail

Member
Sep 27, 2018
62
It's all I think about and the fact I can't redo it just from 2004/2005 onwards is the reason I 'm checking out. I should have thought about that before I did it

The downside, and why it only works for a few minutes, is my shit luck. I start think even if I do everything right, the world conspires against my happiness... But the temporary relief is nice.
 
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IronicFail

Member
Sep 27, 2018
62
I've a very vivid imagination. It's actually a byproduct of my abuse (how I 'survived' it too). I can lose myself in the story I tell myself (if you've done LSD think about your experiences with that) but eventually the negative side, my fears, my experiences, etc. corrupt the dream and I crash back into reality. As I'm only retutning to base line at that point, the day dreams offer just a temporary respite... But I've not been able to do that for four months.
 
jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
563
I would say so. I would do somethings differently to change for a better life. I also would love to re-do my life so I can relive the positive parts of my childhood. I really want to retain my current knowledge though if I do go back and re-do my life so I'd be an abnormally smart kid that's way beyond my years kind of like Stewie from Family Guy.
 
whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
I’m trans
I'm seem like a Dumbie but is Trans a boy to a girl or a girl to a boy or it doesn't matter the order? Is it just feeling like your the opposite sex?
Sounds complicated of I'm just Dumb
 
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Miss clefable

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Aug 23, 2018
1,589
I'm seem like a Dumbie but is Trans a boy to a girl or a girl to a boy or it doesn't matter the order? Is it just feeling like your the opposite sex?
Sounds complicated of I'm just Dumb
I’m male to female it goes beyond a feeling
 
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Maggotymaggots

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Apr 18, 2018
54
Personally, I'd have to say no.

I recognize that I probably have a particularly negative outlook on life, but I'd much rather just end it all than have to relive all those years in the hope of fixing everything. A lot things I dislike about life were and are beyond my control, so there's really only so much I'd be able to do. Even with the things I had some control over, realistically I'd probably end up falling into a lot of the same pitfalls I did the first time around.

I don't know, maybe I'm too fatalistic.
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
If i could pick a date then yes .. bitcoin obviously. If i had to redo my whole life. No thank you.

I couldn't make my life a whole lot better than i already made it to be without vast amounts of money. Given the fact that "you" would still be "you" including physical and mental state. I already gave it my best shot so what could i do more except being filthy rich.

Makes me sound like an asshole but almost everything that's good and fun in life is available for purchase.
 
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whatmattersmost

whatmattersmost

Gone to HANG.
Sep 10, 2018
224
If i could pick a date then yes .. bitcoin obviously. If i had to redo my whole life. No thank you.

I couldn't make my life a whole lot better than i already made it to be without vast amounts of money. Given the fact that "you" would still be "you" including physical and mental state. I already gave it my best shot so what could i do more except being filthy rich.

Makes me sound like an asshole but almost everything that's good and fun in life is available for purchase.
Not Love. . . .
 
Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
625
Not Love. . . .

That's why i said 'almost' everything. Also love is a big word ... For some it means alot for others not so much. It all depends on how you experience it. It's like the debate on what is true love and what is not ... It's impossible to put an answer on that question.

And i'm certain it would make the search a hell of alot easier .. just weed out the golddiggers.

I may not have found love ... But i have made more than one friendship using money. I did not buy the friendship but i made friends while using it.

Let me put it this way. If you live in the gutter your chances of finding love are a whole lot smaller than it would be when you are rich. So money may not buy genuine love but it can help you find it.
 
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wiIIow

Arcanist
Sep 22, 2018
459
if I could go back just a few years for the sole purpose of not getting an unnecessary botched surgery that worsened my chronic pain, then yes I would. I spend an unhealthy amount of time thinking about it actually.

no way in hell though would I redo my whole life, there are awful circumstances beyond my control early in life that I don't care to relive. unless of course I had the option of living in an alternate reality where my mother wasn't present, I tend to cling onto the scattered memories with my dad who made my childhood at least somewhat bearable.