- Mar 17, 2020
Lately I'm starting to think that I'm just meant to fail, nothing is ever successful work or money wise. I have no "skills" social or otherwise. At 30 I supposedly "should" have been married or something, or at least moved out. I still live with my parents, and my social aptitude is quite poor. It's been many years since I've been in a relationship or even "hooked up". I can barely talk to women in any casual social situation without massive anxiety, alcohol or not. I'm just tired of feeling like I constantly have to appease people and put everyone above myself. I'm sick of the growing division in this country, and frankly most of the time I just want to be left alone, not used as cannon fodder for either "side". I don't see myself being around for more than maybe 5 years at most, though at this rate it may as well be 5 months. I just want to travel a bit before I go, but I can't even have that, as to do so you need money, and I fail at making any. So I'm just stuck here. It's all so tiresome.