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KhLodyi

KhLodyi

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Nov 21, 2022
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I am looking for friends with whom I communicated at school and additional circles I lost contact because we communicated only because we were at school. I'm not very good at making friends, or rather, keeping in touch with them and maintaining a conversation. Maybe I've come across people who don't suit me, sometimes if the topic of conversation was interesting to me, I could keep the conversation going well, but it was rare.

I got the education that my parents wanted, but not me, I played sports that my parents also wanted, but not me, and I still live with my parents. My real desires are gradually fading and I'm thinking of ending my life, but I'm still hoping for the best.

I am 21 years old, I spend time in video games, because at least something works out in them, I constantly listen to music, sometimes I watch TV series \ movies.
Write, I will be glad to communicate with the world, even if it will not be long, maybe we'll even find common topics.


(if some phrases are strange, I just wrote with a translator)))
 
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anamikaa94

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Nov 20, 2022
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Please fight these feelings now. Otherwise they will get worse with time. You are very young. I hope you find something that interest you.
I am here if you need a friend
 
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BornHated

BornHated

God may judge, but his sins outnumber your own.
Nov 19, 2022
3
I am looking for friends with whom I communicated at school and additional circles I lost contact because we communicated only because we were at school. I'm not very good at making friends, or rather, keeping in touch with them and maintaining a conversation. Maybe I've come across people who don't suit me, sometimes if the topic of conversation was interesting to me, I could keep the conversation going well, but it was rare.

I got the education that my parents wanted, but not me, I played sports that my parents also wanted, but not me, and I still live with my parents. My real desires are gradually fading and I'm thinking of ending my life, but I'm still hoping for the best.

I am 21 years old, I spend time in video games, because at least something works out in them, I constantly listen to music, sometimes I watch TV series \ movies.
Write, I will be glad to communicate with the world, even if it will not be long, maybe we'll even find common topics.


(if some phrases are strange, I just wrote with a translator)))
Hi there, I feel you. We have similar situations- I also had very controlling parents. It's horrible and lonely. I think having trustworthy friends to enjoy a mutual activity with has always helped me.

What's your first language? I also speak Spanish as a bilingual. I did learn German during my adolescence and have retained some ability with it.
I also really enjoy video games, mostly Nintendo Switch and Genshin Impact. If you think we have some game in common and would like to play, feel free to message me. :)
I also constantly listen to music! Do you have any songs you especially enjoy in your language? Favorite music genres, too? I like to share songs often.
 
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volnaya_pesnya

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Oct 16, 2021
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I am looking for friends with whom I communicated at school and additional circles I lost contact because we communicated only because we were at school. I'm not very good at making friends, or rather, keeping in touch with them and maintaining a conversation. Maybe I've come across people who don't suit me, sometimes if the topic of conversation was interesting to me, I could keep the conversation going well, but it was rare.

I got the education that my parents wanted, but not me, I played sports that my parents also wanted, but not me, and I still live with my parents. My real desires are gradually fading and I'm thinking of ending my life, but I'm still hoping for the best.

I am 21 years old, I spend time in video games, because at least something works out in them, I constantly listen to music, sometimes I watch TV series \ movies.
Write, I will be glad to communicate with the world, even if it will not be long, maybe we'll even find common topics.


(if some phrases are strange, I just wrote with a translator)))
I understand how you feel about getting an education/going into a career that doesn't align with your interests. The way I'm trying to deal with it is by trying to find some sort of passion for the career path I now find myself in and just making the best of the situation. Unfortunately a LOT of people end up in careers that do not correspond to their actual passions, and as easy as it is to say "follow your dreams" this just isn't possible for a large portion, maybe even a majority of people. To be honest, if going back and studying something you actually feel passionate about isn't a realistic option for you, I'd just try to find some way to use your education to intersect with your interests as much as possible, and where they don't align try to find some positive aspect of what you're doing that can provide a degree of comfort for you long-term. Good luck my friend.
 
KhLodyi

KhLodyi

Member
Nov 21, 2022
5
Hi there, I feel you. We have similar situations- I also had very controlling parents. It's horrible and lonely. I think having trustworthy friends to enjoy a mutual activity with has always helped me.

What's your first language? I also speak Spanish as a bilingual. I did learn German during my adolescence and have retained some ability with it.
I also really enjoy video games, mostly Nintendo Switch and Genshin Impact. If you think we have some game in common and would like to play, feel free to message me. :)
I also constantly listen to music! Do you have any songs you especially enjoy in your language? Favorite music genres, too? I like to share songs often.
My native language is Russian, now I'm trying to learn English on my own, I studied German at school, but now I have lost the ability to do it.
I play on PC, mostly in warframe and battlefield 4.
I can't say which particular genre of music I like, I listen to different music, Now I'm listening to Jordan Critz, Mr. Kitty, Avicii, such genre as ambient and phonk, and various Russian - language songs
I understand how you feel about getting an education/going into a career that doesn't align with your interests. The way I'm trying to deal with it is by trying to find some sort of passion for the career path I now find myself in and just making the best of the situation. Unfortunately a LOT of people end up in careers that do not correspond to their actual passions, and as easy as it is to say "follow your dreams" this just isn't possible for a large portion, maybe even a majority of people. To be honest, if going back and studying something you actually feel passionate about isn't a realistic option for you, I'd just try to find some way to use your education to intersect with your interests as much as possible, and where they don't align try to find some positive aspect of what you're doing that can provide a degree of comfort for you long-term. Good luck my friend.
Thank you for a good answer, I want to go to study for the career I want, it seems to me that it's not too late, but I'm very sorry for how much time I missed doing what I didn't like
 
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anamikaa94

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Nov 20, 2022
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How to correspond? I don't think it will be convenient in this chat
My whole life is what my parents wanted.Never actually had a chance to do what i wanted , now its too late for everything and all this brings me regret ,pain and guilt for being a coward . You are still young make a change now. Do what make you happy . I know its easier said than done. But atleast choose wisely what you want to study or do in life. Dont overthink about hurting your parents or anyone else feelings. Dont let ANYONE decide over your future.
If you dont wanna do anything they want you to do just be honest and tell them .i knoe they may not understand you but regrets are bigger than failures so try.
Find something you like : i used to read novels at your age. Now i am nore interesred in documentries and politics. If you like any of these let me know i will recommend some.
 
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KhLodyi

KhLodyi

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Nov 21, 2022
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My whole life is what my parents wanted.Never actually had a chance to do what i wanted , now its too late for everything and all this brings me regret ,pain and guilt for being a coward . You are still young make a change now. Do what make you happy . I know its easier said than done. But atleast choose wisely what you want to study or do in life. Dont overthink about hurting your parents or anyone else feelings. Dont let ANYONE decide over your future.
If you dont wanna do anything they want you to do just be honest and tell them .i knoe they may not understand you but regrets are bigger than failures so try.
Find something you like : i used to read novels at your age. Now i am nore interesred in documentries and politics. If you like any of these let me know i will recommend some.
Thank you for the answer, unfortunately, I have read few books and there was no interest in them, but one of the books that I really liked is "Shantaram" - a 2003 novel by Gregory David, both parts of it.
Sometimes I watch documentaries and would not refuse your selection)
 
Domimi

Domimi

End of all hope
Apr 20, 2020
51
You and I have similiar backgrounds, i'm also 21y old and I spent most of my time listening to music, watching movies and playing games. I also live with my parents, though I used to be able to make money from home (don't know if it's your case). What are the things/topics that you like to talk about?
 
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KhLodyi

KhLodyi

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Nov 21, 2022
5
You and I have similiar backgrounds, i'm also 21y old and I spent most of my time listening to music, watching movies and playing games. I also live with my parents, though I used to be able to make money from home (don't know if it's your case). What are the things/topics that you like to talk about?
I'm not working yet, I really want to do something, I've always thought of becoming a programmer and I also really like the synthesizer, but I haven't even tried playing it. But now my desire for death greatly outweighs my desire to live.
I haven't had long-term communication with people for a long time (more than six months). I communicate with random people on the internet, mainly helping beginners in games because I have reached the maximum rank))) But it won't be for long.
So it's hard for me to say what I like to talk about, because it's just heart to heart I haven't talked for a very long time. There's just no one to talk to.
 
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HarmedVessel

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Nov 5, 2022
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I saw that you mentioned playing synth. I just started learning piano this year and have been enjoying it on and off.