edu0z

edu0z

It was finally his last day in this world.
Aug 25, 2021
75
Since I was a little boy I have been a person with suicidal fantasies. But even in the worst crises, there was some problem or circumstance that if I overcame, it gave me hope. But there is no hope at all. I am proud, after 9 years feeling wanting to die every day, I think I have endured a lot. Since July 23, 2018, put hope aside to start actively trying to overcome this. I have tried the path of psychology, the path of biology, the social path. I'm just tired, but not sad... I am happy and in peace because I will finally be able to rest :)
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

I want to sleep for an eternity
Sep 24, 2020
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The thought of no longer being alive is comforting to me, as it is the end of everything. Your feelings are understandable, after all we are all human and there is only so much suffering we can take. Life really is tiring. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
edu0z

edu0z

It was finally his last day in this world.
Aug 25, 2021
75
The thought of no longer being alive is comforting to me, as it is the end of everything. Your feelings are understandable, after all we are all human and there is only so much suffering we can take. Life really is tiring. I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
The thought that that day could finally end everything, was the only thing that calmed me down every morning when I prepared to go to school. Even then it felt like I still had a lot to deal with... it was just a fantasy... But now I am certain that these are my last days. I have done what I should have done and said what I had to say, I am ready.
 
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Apathetic999

Apathetic999

Student
Mar 9, 2020
178
I am glad you have found something that brings you peace. I feel the same, too. I've felt my end was near in a vague sense since I was 17, but now I truly cannot envision living one or two years from now at all. Lost hope in CTB for a while because of my failed attempts at partial, but recently the pain has surpassed my fear of using other methods. It is strangely comforting to know your end is near.
 
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