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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

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I just want my struggle to end .I feel like I've climbed my own personal Mt Everest 1000 times so it's just really exhausting and pointless now.I don't have a good reason to have hope in life. I truly don't. The universe seems intent on giving me an unhappy life. There is no sign or evidence at all that things will truly "get better" . Even if they could. I'm too tired to try anymore. I seek rest from the burden of life.
 
PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Joined
Feb 21, 2019
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I relate very much. It pains me to see you feeling the same. I will keep on hoping for your miracle, because I know what it’s like to have no hope left. Much love for you ❤️
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Living dead girl
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I can relate. Life can be cruel to us and there is an unlimited amount of suffering we can go through and much of it is out of our control. I dread the future as I know things can only get worse. It’s why death comforts me so much.
 
Zzzzz

Zzzzz

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I have some hope in death. But basically zero hope for a happy life. No evidence for me to believe that. CTB is 10 X more difficult because it's so prohibited and all must be done in secret. Living and dying are both monumentally difficult for me.
 
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Scarred

Looking California, Feeling Minnesota
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Yes I'm tired too but I have to move on. What else can I do?
 
Wrennie

Wrennie

〘 Latent Corpse 〙
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I’m “I want to take a nap six feet under” level tired, so I feel you.

I truly, truly do.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
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Mar 22, 2020
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Yeah, I can relate.

Unfortunately, depression is a daily and never-ending battle.

That's why in spite of doing my best to live, I just know I'll ctb before my 40s.
 
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littleloup

littleloup

しょうがない
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May 28, 2021
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I, too, can relate. The eternal pain and suffering from mental illnesses is the main reason why I want to leave as soon as I can. It's exhausting being alive. I want nothing more than to finally rest.
 
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NoPointToContinue

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Yeah that was the realization that made me decide on ctb. We are dealt with shitty life that we did not choose and we struggle to make it better for a long time and do not succeed. It feels like universe does not want it. And at one point question comes : Why I am doing this? For what? And I could not find an answer to that in the face of hopelessness, meaninglessness of life. All my efforts and intentions for "better life" collapsed at that moment.
 
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