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Thisgirlwantstosleep

Thisgirlwantstosleep

Don't say sh*t unless you mean it
Joined
Mar 11, 2019
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I'm an ugly, poor, virgin with no friends or life experience.

The only socialisation I get is from online, mainly TikTok and 2 forums including this one.

Weirdly enough people from my school keep popping up on my TikTok for some reason, and they're more attractive than me, live in nice places, go on fancy holidays and such.

I'm paranoid enough as it is but I really do believe that I'm cursed and the universe has it out for me because why is it pushing stuff like that in my face? Especially seeing as I just came out of an extremely bad depressive episode.

I feel fucking awful every minute of the day because everything, from music, to TV to films reminds me of how alone I am both platonic and romantically and this is something a lot of people don't understand.

I legitimately have never spoken to anyone as socially isolated as I am, other than these people I spoke to on a forum for ugly people but I fell out with them so I truly have no one to relate to now

I hate my life and I'll always feel suicidal. The world is getting more materialistic and intolerable for someone like me because standards are going through the roof from beauty to the cost of living. Looking back on my life makes me want to kill myself as it is and I'm only 23. It's not going to get better when my body is even more old and decripid.

I'm bitter and angry and jealous as it is, it's going to fucking kill me when I can't even say my teen years or my 20s were good when my life has been notoriously shit.

I'm trying to hold on but the universe isn't making it easy for me. I'm going to try and buy SN next month I'm hoping it doesn't intercepted by customs.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Living dead girl
Joined
Sep 24, 2020
Messages
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This life really can be cruel to us. I feel like I am cursed too in this life and I dread the thought of living until I am old. I see my life as pointless and I’m pretty isolated too even know It is what I prefer in a way. It really is awful not being able to have the life you want yet you see it all around you. Other people certainly make me feel more depressed. I wish you the best.
 
WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Joined
Mar 22, 2020
Messages
7,335
Yeah, the world really sucks.
I think it's all about random luck.

You know, you can't choose your family, genes or where you're born and those things literally define everything as regards your life.

Sure, things can improve but not many manage to do that.

Sorry you're going through this but I bet you're a lovely person and trust me, that can get you lots of happiness and good stuff throughout the years.

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk!

Hugs and love,

Matt
 
my heart hurts

my heart hurts

Things could be worse, I guess.
Joined
May 29, 2019
Messages
108
jesus fuck most of this is so relatable I could only laugh
 
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