- Sep 8, 2021
And I'm scared. I want to get rid of it but it brings me so much comfort. I'm scared of how inconsolable I can be when I am on my own. Is that something non-suicidal people struggle with too, or am I just "not loving myself enough" or whatever. I always wonder if I am not doing enough to recover. These negative feelings are fucking addictive though, I don't know how to stop my mind from wanting to leave. One good thing is that this state I'm in keeps me eternally grateful for the things I DO have, the little moments almost make it wort it.