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StillWaiting

StillWaiting

Need cats to comfort me
Jul 28, 2018
551
I have to wake up everyday go school and do school work.
I don't enjoy any of it. I hate what I am studying. I feel so trapped in my life.
Knowing that the moment I graduate from school, work life is going to be another hell awaiting for me. It makes me feel the need to ctb.
Going to school and seeing how others are so much greater than me in many ways. While I am just here trying my best to get myself together. I am so tired. I just want to rest.
 
BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
689
I get that, too. Life is exhausting. I'm long out of school now but getting up to go to work every day is soul-destroying (if I had a soul to begin with, otherwise it's just... destroying?)
 
Weeping Garbage Can

Weeping Garbage Can

ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਕੇ ਮੈਨੂੰ ਭੁੱਲ ਜਾਓ ❤️
Oct 31, 2018
316
Yeah...the 60-80 years ahead if I live till old age is unfathomable to me, with more school, work, and struggle. I'm in school right now, and I also hate it. I wouldn't mind doing easy assignments in class but the homework and exam studying is really annoying. The times of taking a shower and then settling in to bed at night is wonderful...I wish it could last forever....
 
AndyCurious

AndyCurious

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Sep 13, 2018
708
Yeah...the 60-80 years ahead if I live till old age is unfathomable to me, with more school, work, and struggle. I'm in school right now, and I also hate it. I wouldn't mind doing easy assignments in class but the homework and exam studying is really annoying. The times of taking a shower and then settling in to bed at night is wonderful...I wish it could last forever....
I wish the same <3
 
Tragoedia Vitae

Tragoedia Vitae

Experienced
Oct 14, 2018
224
I get this so much. After waking up, there's always the unshakable, intense feeling of dread. A cloudless blue sky is a beautiful sight to behold, but at the same time I absolutely hate sunshine. I haven't been able to find a pair of curtains black enough to drown out every single ray of sunshine. I would like nothing better than to lie on my bed all day wrapped up in my blankets, sleeping and dreaming....

I always feel cold inside. To be entombed in warm darkness, day after day.....it would be wonderful.

I will have to look for drugs or medications which would allow me to sleep for days on end without waking up.