Suicideisnirvana

Suicideisnirvana

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Aug 4, 2018
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While being suicidal gives you apathy.

I try to fight my apathy with meditation/deadlines/giving myself things to do for the day and doing them to worn on my resolve/putting myself in risky situations as in inviting a girl or something so that rejection may act as a booster.

Now i'm looking for a bitcoin seller and it's hard to find that in Morocco, it's illegal to buy it so credit cards won't allow the purchase of bitcoins.

It really sucks that we have no failsafe easy method of suicide, waiting even 24h is hell for me, but still i have to not rush things to guarantee a successfull suicide.
 
sadak_the_wanderer

sadak_the_wanderer

An appropriate painting
Mar 19, 2018
243
I don't know what to tell you. Carbon monoxide used to be easy; coal gas could run right into the house. Pop your head in the oven and done. They put up fences around Mount Mihara in Japan, once upon a time you could just walk up and jump into the volcano. GFI circuits prevent easy electrocution since the 1970s. Laudanum could be bought at the corner store over a hundred years ago. Even barbiturates were easily obtained in the three and four decades ago. The world has safety rails around it now. We are forced to behave like spies, ferreting out secrets and conspiring for destruction, if only of our own lives.
 
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creatureoflight

Mage
Jul 27, 2018
531
The body is very hardy and not easy to destroy
 
Suicideisnirvana

Suicideisnirvana

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Aug 4, 2018
312
The body is very hardy and not easy to destroy

That's not what i'm talking about, there is a biiig difference between having a gun or N and finding it hard to CTB because of survival mechanisms, and not even having reliable means to begin with. I'm in the latter category, trying to buy N now and then i'll see for myself how hard it is to "destroy the body", till then it's mostly lack of means.