Gevatsu

Gevatsu

Weak
Jul 15, 2018
66
Tonight is the night. I'm going to CTB using the SN method. I'll probably use 18 grams or so. I just took my benzos, antiemetics and sleeping pills so I'm almost done. I'm scared I might wake up again or I'll fall asleep before I can take the SN. I'm almost at peace, though I'm scared I'll awake in some sort of afterlife. I hope there's nothing past this point. I've tried so hard to die and for me to end up in an afterlife is pure torture.
 
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shadow11

Wizard
Jul 31, 2018
620
Tonight is the night. I'm going to CTB using the SN method. I'll probably use 18 grams or so. I just took my benzos, antiemetics and sleeping pills so I'm almost done. I'm scared I might wake up again or I'll fall asleep before I can take the SN. I'm almost at peace, though I'm scared I'll awake in some sort of afterlife. I hope there's nothing past this point. I've tried so hard to die and for me to end up in an afterlife is pure torture.
I wish you peace
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,412
Tonight is the night. I'm going to CTB using the SN method. I'll probably use 18 grams or so. I just took my benzos, antiemetics and sleeping pills so I'm almost done. I'm scared I might wake up again or I'll fall asleep before I can take the SN. I'm almost at peace, though I'm scared I'll awake in some sort of afterlife. I hope there's nothing past this point. I've tried so hard to die and for me to end up in an afterlife is pure torture.
I wish you peace
 
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