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suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
So I've been trying to slowly crawl my way into life again (work and dating life) because hitmans are illegal and I can't end it myself.
After weeks of searching, I finally was set for an interview. I also found someone I liked and I was liked back on a dating site.
I contacted my "mutual match". Their profile disappeared (I was probably unliked).
Today I waited for the interviewer to call me, as scheduled. They never did.
I sometimes wonder if my laptop was hacked and someone is sabotaging me.
I don't even have whom to complain to. You guys are the closest thing I have to a friend.
My life is utter shit.
 
Sidestep

Sidestep

Student
Aug 15, 2018
128
I'm sorry that happened to you. Did you call the interviewer back or send them an email?
 
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suffering

suffering

Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
Aug 17, 2018
398
I'm sorry that happened to you. Did you call the interviewer back or send them an email?
they did send an email with some bs excuse.. will see what happens
 
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Breelia

Breelia

Member
Aug 25, 2018
57
That's rough, it makes me feel a bit bad actually.

Often I'll go on tinder or okq and match with people in the hope I will find the energy to connect but I never do. It's not that I don't want to talk to them, I just can't bring myself to.

I don't believe that the universe is out to get us. I believe that the world is chaos, we desperately try to control what we cannot. We try and make sense of it through spiritual understandings but I believe the reality is that, it just is what it is.

I think the things that helped me get through so many years was living in the moment, just taking each day as it comes, find something to enjoy in that day, cherish it then let it go...clinging to things that once made us happy is where we fail. If you enjoy that same thing again in the future, cool. If not, there will be something else to appreciate.

For example, your match. You felt happiness knowing that someone wanted to match with you. Cherish that happiness, then let it go. If that match leads to a message, cherish that happiness once again and let go again.

I was able to operate this way for a long time but my mental health is not going well now and it's harder to.
 
Caustic Cardinals

Caustic Cardinals

Enlightened
Sep 1, 2018
1,340
If only the universe cared enough i'd might fight back.