- Mar 18, 2018
Don't always gotta discuss negative emotions, I wanna know if there is anything that gives you even the tiniest of happy feelings.
Animals. They're one of the reasons why I'm still here. If I could ever get out of this mess I'm in I'd want to be a vet.
When I get home and my dog jumps over me and licks my face and hands like there is no tomorrow. Like we didn't see each other for years (but at most, we were apart for a few hours). I know that she is licking me not only because she missed, but because she is curious about the weird scents (that only she can tell) from the places I visited that are now on my body, but it still makes me feel good and also cared for, which is rare for me.
Also, when my dog is sleeping next to my back (she sleeps on my bed) and she enters REM sleep and starts dreaming, it is super cute how she shakes and tries to run in her sleep. Well, in short, my dog makes me happy.
I also do very much enjoy good music and good stories.
Awe! Sunny days make me feel better too, all that vitamin D. What kind of music do you like?
I have looked into vet schools. I want to try but I'm also constantly having doubts. I don't feel like I'm good enough, they won't accept me, my anxiety won't let me, etc. Everyone talks about how hard vet school is and how competitive things are and it's a bit discouraging. I'm pretty allergic to cats and sometimes dogs, but it's tolerable. The most I've done is volunteer at one of the local animal shelters. I may be able to volunteer at a vet's office sometime this summer, since my family know the people working there.Have you looked into schooling? Or volunteering somewhere?
I wanted to be a vet, but I started getting allergic reactions to all furry animals when I was in middle school and had to give up my dream.
Never been really happy in a "year". Since childhood my happiness was short-term only. The happiness I get is from video games, watching anime, technology and internet (except toxicity), food and sexuality. There are more things but all are of short intervals (even if it is continuous like learning a language for years it is considered short because whenever I stop the happiness ends)
Otherwise, whenever my little happiness and distraction ends, no, it sucks. I hated the world and I was ignorant and I learned about it and hated it more. These things I do was my real happiness that made me continue living. I delayed ctb many times because of these stuff. I wrote a list of games to play and things to do. Tbh sometimes I wish to continue doing these stuff and more but life is brutal
Mostly any form of escape is what lightens my mood. My best combination is something psychoactive kicking in as I get into an anticipated new book or begin rewatching a favorite old film. I sometimes like to time the rising upswing of some chemical with a romance; it allows me to suspend my disbelief long enough that I can imagine something like that happening to me.
Sometimes exercise is alright, especially walking alone at night. I enjoy buying or making special presents for people. Probably the strangest thing I enjoy is creating complex plans, timetables, and so forth, then executing the plan.
All of these are very ephemeral. I am less unhappy, or at least distracted, for only a little bit. Minutes, typically.
Now, nothing. I used to listen music, play videogames or enjoy stories but now I don't have mood enough for doing anything.
Even if I would like doing it, I'm having no time for doing anything, I'm very busy recently. Maybe if I could I would do something.I've been in that mood for a long time. I recently started pushing myself to go for walks, drives, play a game, etc and it's helping a tiny bit! You should try doing them anyways!
I have looked into vet schools. I want to try but I'm also constantly having doubts. I don't feel like I'm good enough, they won't accept me, my anxiety won't let me, etc. Everyone talks about how hard vet school is and how competitive things are and it's a bit discouraging. I'm pretty allergic to cats and sometimes dogs, but it's tolerable. The most I've done is volunteer at one of the local animal shelters. I may be able to volunteer at a vet's office sometime this summer, since my family know the people working there.