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Verodv

Verodv

Fight or flight
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I want to share with you some choice I made just to keep me safe from my self.

- work from home to avoid emotional overload.

- when asked to be in office once a week, deal very hard to have a car park to avoid tube.

- fight against my partner to have an electric oven and induction so we don't have gas in our house.

- refuse any apartment over 3rd floor.

- ask to prescribed only prolonged release formula of meds (alprazolam, lithium) so they doesn't add up if i take a lot. This is someting I REGRET almost every night at 4 am when I just wanna sleep.

I don't know if I'm going to ctb but for sure I want it planned and not for sudden pain and intrusive thougts.


There's somethig you're doing to remain safe that other people doesn't notice? I'll find helpful if you share.
 
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Miss_Takes

Somewhere Over the Rainbow
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I just want to say I find your way of managing your suicidal ideation very brave and I too think it is a decision to be made (for me) rather than an impulse to be acted upon (for me).
 
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mossyfox

Student
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Being on this site on my phone instead doing all my work lol. Any boss tells me to stop and focus harder on work and I'm leaving work for the day. My view is they can either get some work out of me and have a living employee or try to force the issue and get no work from a dead employee. And then lose even more time while they hire and train another person. Possibly also some other co-workers might? need a minute before working full speed after a co-worker killed themself. I see my SS site use as what is currently keeping me from moving forward with active plan making.

In general, in the past, I've fought and pushed back on a lot for things that I know contribute to better mental health for me.
 
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Cronetappingout

Member
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I do my best to just be kind to myself and do things that make me happy when I can. If I am having a bad day I tell myself that this will pass and do things that just comfort me. I love to have a clean bed and a bubble bath before bed. That was my self care after a tough week.
Hugs
 
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BetweenRadioStations

BetweenRadioStations

You are not your credentials
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I try to keep a couple people informed when my moods are in rotation or am just not in a good spot. Other things help as well like biofeedback, diet, etc, but sometimes I can't do any of those things so having a good support system is imperative to survival even if that support system is online.
 
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Verodv

Verodv

Fight or flight
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mossyfox said:
Being on this site on my phone instead doing all my work lol. Any boss tells me to stop and focus harder on work and I'm leaving work for the day. My view is they can either get some work out of me and have a living employee or try to force the issue and get no work from a dead employee. And then lose even more time while they hire and train another person. Possibly also some other co-workers might? need a minute before working full speed after a co-worker killed themself. I see my SS site use as what is currently keeping me from moving forward with active plan making.

In general, in the past, I've fought and pushed back on a lot for things that I know contribute to better mental health for me.

mossyfox said:
Being on this site on my phone instead doing all my work lol. Any boss tells me to stop and focus harder on work and I'm leaving work for the day. My view is they can either get some work out of me and have a living employee or try to force the issue and get no work from a dead employee. And then lose even more time while they hire and train another person. Possibly also some other co-workers might? need a minute before working full speed after a co-worker killed themself. I see my SS site use as what is currently keeping me from moving forward with active plan making.

In general, in the past, I've fought and pushed back on a lot for things that I know contribute to better mental health for m
Looks like your work is important for you (for me too!) - it's hard where you live try to find a more "sane" workplace habitat?
 
Kattt

Kattt

Specialist
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Always have an exit plan at the ready
 

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