- Jun 10, 2021
While it’s not my firm belief, I take solace in the hope that after CTB from this life of unfavorable genes, environment, circumstances, etc, I will be reincarnated into a much better life free of all the shit that has driven me to this point. I hope for and look forward to my next life being filled with love, happiness, success, and fulfillment in the way that this one never did. There’s so much that fundamentally went wrong in my life that caused me to screw up or miss out on entirely the things that most normal people get to experience, be fulfilled by, and be grateful for. But as the end approaches nearer and nearer, I feel like this life can’t possibly be all there is for me. Everything has just been so anti-climactic, and I feel so strongly that this is just unfair. Therefore, I can’t help but hope that my next life will be everything that I ever wanted this one to be, and maybe more. This hope is making it easier for me to come to terms with CTB, as I have something to look forward to after the deed is done. Does anyone else share this hope with me?