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While it’s not my firm belief, I take solace in the hope that after CTB from this life of unfavorable genes, environment, circumstances, etc, I will be reincarnated into a much better life free of all the shit that has driven me to this point. I hope for and look forward to my next life being filled with love, happiness, success, and fulfillment in the way that this one never did. There’s so much that fundamentally went wrong in my life that caused me to screw up or miss out on entirely the things that most normal people get to experience, be fulfilled by, and be grateful for. But as the end approaches nearer and nearer, I feel like this life can’t possibly be all there is for me. Everything has just been so anti-climactic, and I feel so strongly that this is just unfair. Therefore, I can’t help but hope that my next life will be everything that I ever wanted this one to be, and maybe more. This hope is making it easier for me to come to terms with CTB, as I have something to look forward to after the deed is done. Does anyone else share this hope with me?
 
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Oh damn seriously? I actually hope that reincarnation isn't real and I'll finally be one with the void for good. To be honest, nothing immensely horrifying has happened to me in life (so far), and I still want to CTB. I've never seen any religious or spiritual text mention how this is possible, but I hope we both get what we want in the end, or beginning for you.
 
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suisuiforum said:
Oh damn seriously? I actually hope that reincarnation isn't real and I'll finally be one with the void for good. To be honest, nothing immensely horrifying has happened to me in life (so far), and I still want to CTB. I've never seen any religious or spiritual text mention how this is possible, but I hope we both get what we want in the end, or beginning for you.
Call it entitlement or jealousy, but I guess I just feel cheated out of the life I always wanted. There’s so many people in the world who live happy, successful, fulfilling lives, and I just always wanted to be one of them. Sadly, this never fully materialized, which is what led me to this site in the first place. But I appreciate what you said about both of us getting what we want. I hope that we both get we want too.
 
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I’m up for the void or a new beginning. I have doubts about a new beginning however.
 
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If you would like to have a second chance then I hope you are given the opportunity to be reincarnated.

Personally, I hate the idea of being sent back here for a second time.

There are times when the thought of an afterlife is very comforting.

The indescribably beautiful, loving white light, diving into a cosmic ocean of unconditional love and healing, being reunited with family and loved ones (and hopefully the chance to hang out with the deceased celebrity or celebrities of your choice) that people who have had near death experiences have described sounds beautiful.

But then there are times when I wonder if I like anyone enough to spend eternity with them. I mean, eternity is a very long time (there is a term that describes people who have a fear of eternity, I can't think of it, but there is a term for people who have eternity-related anxiety).

So there is also a part of me that is fine with the idea of simply going into a very deep sleep. Fine with the idea of life simply being over.

Guess it depends on how lonely I feel on a particular day.

But, again, I can't stress enough how much I, personally, hate, hate, hate the idea of having to come back.

If you CTB and want the chance to do things over again and get the chances you didn't get the first time around, if you'd like a second chance at life then I truly hope that's what you receive.
 
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ReadyForIt said:
Call it entitlement or jealousy, but I guess I just feel cheated out of the life I always wanted. There’s so many people in the world who live happy, successful, fulfilling lives, and I just always wanted to be one of them. Sadly, this never fully materialized, which is what led me to this site in the first place. But I appreciate what you said about both of us getting what we want. I hope that we both get we want too.

Yeah that's totally understandable, and I wouldn't call it entitlement if you've tried so hard to have a fulfilling life but were dealt a bad hand. Unfortunately, many people won't understand why we're trying to CTB if they've never experienced this type of suffering.
 
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I think the idea that most lead happy fulfilling lives in the world is a first world misconception. Life on earth is a challenge at best and torture at worst. Suffering is the norm. Anything apart from that is simply a distraction.
 
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The idea of a next life is nice and all, but with my luck I’d go through the same BS as I have in this one and snap and become a serial killer. One time around is enough for me.
 
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ReadyForIt said:
Call it entitlement or jealousy, but I guess I just feel cheated out of the life I always wanted. There’s so many people in the world who live happy, successful, fulfilling lives, and I just always wanted to be one of them. Sadly, this never fully materialized, which is what led me to this site in the first place. But I appreciate what you said about both of us getting what we want. I hope that we both get we want too.
your post is also true for me
 
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I really hope there is nothing after this. The thought of eternal nothingness comforts me a lot really. It is understandable, hoping for a better next life when this one has just been a disappointment. However the fact that life exists means there is unlimited potential for suffering. There is no guarantee that the next life would be any better. I strongly believe when we lose consciousness there is nothing more and we are free from this burden of existence.
 
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