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Cevapcici

Student
Dec 30, 2018
148
Well I was shaking on my knees, so I really wasn't able to walk straight. But I didn't feel like I was going to vomit though. Not at all. Mind you though - I was on oxygen and shit in an ambulance before I got to my last minutes. So maybe that prevented me from throwing up.
In the end the most painful thing was the treatment at the intensive care unit, the attempt itself wasn't so bad physically.
Thanks for your useful reply! Sorry to know the treatment was painful.
 
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Neville1

Student
Aug 26, 2019
170
I'm listing names of those attempting with SN since my last post and some missed.

Despite the uncertainty of the veracity of the testimonials, I'm inclined to believe most. Many departed devoted much time and effort to the forum and it seems unlikely that they gave up their accounts to fake death.

I'm using @quarty00's choice of words. The word "success" was never intended to convey celebration of the attempt. The circumstances that result in someone making this choice are tragic for families, friends and members of the board.

I relied on posts by @Living sucks on @notjustyetagain's thread for many recent ones.

My thanks to all of those who have given their testimony and my condolences to all those grieving for the departed.

Peace and hugs to all.

Fatal
@PwincessStepford
@iceiceice722
@EBEN30
@Oofeditup
@hellboy
@Chocolover15
@theergorthdies
@Chronic pain
@FailedWoman
@Amossoma543
@SNistheway
@phezel
@LostBoy33
@Finding_Peace
@SuicideByBelt
@BlueWidow
@martin8383784
@Alcal
@iasbics
@aramir
@NotGoneButNotHere
@dunkelheit
@Toosoon
@teddybear1403
@former<redacted>
@Lostnotfound
@error_ratio
@18andlife
@Yes
@roor
@ninja_daryl
@Egddios
@welshie84
@jimbob1000
@VolatilePotato
@Kibblesummer
@Circlingthedrain
@Ilikeshrimp


Non-fatal
@VoloFataliDoce
@MysticPerception
 
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Living sucks

Forced out of life before I wanted to leave
Mar 27, 2020
3,146
For what it’s worth and we will never know why, could be family or police on their accounts, but just an observation.
@iceiceice722 drank SN on Jan 15 but was last seen Feb 24.
@ninja_daryl drank SN on Apr 13 but was last seen Apr15.
 
Suez

Suez

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Feb 27, 2020
279
with my rudimentary research from a non-clinician, this is how I see it. SN produces methemoglobin which removes the oxygen from the bloodstream. The liver and other biological process try and remove this and replace it with hemoglobin that does carry oxygen. I believe the dose of 15 - 20gm is there to overload the system so the hemoglobin can't be restored quick enough regardless of your metabolism. If done that way, one of the early symptoms should be drowsiness and then unconsciousness due to the brain being deprived of oxygen. There is a symptom that people breath a lot quicker but there is no discomfort as say with CO2 poisoning as the lungs accept that you are taking in air. Being not found and not having intervention is also key. Even though I am looking at autopsy and clinical notes, they only talk about the medical stuff rather than saying how they were found, did they call assistance or were found by someone. Everyone has different tolerances and I guess different times to unconsciousness and death is to be expected. But there are a few reports from members who have passed that either mentions nausea, a manageable headache or blurred vision before they logged off. I have seen that people have taken sedatives to help them get to sleep a bit quicker.

But without having a full scientific investigation into why those who failed did so I cannot speculate. But I do know that I nearly bought the wrong purity SN so its worth double checking.
I have seen someone pass from taking SN. I am an MD, but i did not see it in my capacity as an MD at that time. I can confirm though that it was a very peacefull death for this person. I was with them from the moment they took the last mouthfull until they passed. I know that they had taken an anti-emetic prior to taking the SN, they did not vomit, nor did they say that they felt nauseous. They remained talking at least for the first 5 minutes or so before becoming very sleepy. I was aware that they were still breathing but they were not responding to my voice at that point. From that moment until they passed, they did not wake, i heard her expell air twice before finally passing. I could not have imagine a more peacefull way for them to pass. Thats what they wanted. I know that she also took sedatives, I believe they were valium before taking SN as well.
 
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JSauter

Experienced
Oct 14, 2019
208
I have seen someone pass from taking SN. I am an MD, but i did not see it in my capacity as an MD at that time. I can confirm though that it was a very peacefull death for this person. I was with them from the moment they took the last mouthfull until they passed. I know that they had taken an anti-emetic prior to taking the SN, they did not vomit, nor did they say that they felt nauseous. They remained talking at least for the first 5 minutes or so before becoming very sleepy. I was aware that they were still breathing but they were not responding to my voice at that point. From that moment until they passed, they did not wake, i heard her expell air twice before finally passing. I could not have imagine a more peacefull way for them to pass. Thats what they wanted. I know that she also took sedatives, I believe they were valium before taking SN as well.

It seems SN has quite a diverse set of outcomes - because I've heard stories on this forum that tell a less optimistic story in regards to the peacefulness - that there is some visible discomfort before unconsciousness. I hope what you witnessed is less of anomalous than them..
 
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Suez

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Feb 27, 2020
279
No, I have not any doubt about its lethality. It is a toxic.
What if I have a lot of doubts about it is a method reliable and painless.
It seems SN has quite a diverse set of outcomes - because I've heard stories on this forum that tell a less optimistic story in regards to the peacefulness - that there is some visible discomfort before unconsciousness. I hope what you witnessed is less of anomalous than them..
I agree with you. mine is only one perspective, but i guess at least it is one observed perspective. Hopefully this may raise anomalous dispersions. Given that my desired method of CTB may not be possible i have begun to consider SN as a possible CTB for me.
 
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Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
2,912
Thanks @Neville1 and @Living sucks , for all the hard work :heart:

Jesus Quarky00 i'm having a piss up I can't absorb all this information, :haha: some great messages though.

Thanks

Cheers

Geo
 
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fox_wannabe

Enlightened
Jul 7, 2021
1,115
I'm listing names of those attempting with SN since my last post and some missed.

Despite the uncertainty of the veracity of the testimonials, I'm inclined to believe most. Many departed devoted much time and effort to the forum and it seems unlikely that they gave up their accounts to fake death.

I'm using @quarty00's choice of words. The word "success" was never intended to convey celebration of the attempt. The circumstances that result in someone making this choice are tragic for families, friends and members of the board.

I relied on posts by @Living sucks on @notjustyetagain's thread for many recent ones.

My thanks to all of those who have given their testimony and my condolences to all those grieving for the departed.

Peace and hugs to all.

Fatal
@PwincessStepford
@iceiceice722
@EBEN30
@Oofeditup
@hellboy
@Chocolover15
@theergorthdies
@Chronic pain
@FailedWoman
@Amossoma543
@SNistheway
@phezel
@LostBoy33
@Finding_Peace
@SuicideByBelt
@BlueWidow
@martin8383784
@Alcal
@iasbics
@aramir
@NotGoneButNotHere
@dunkelheit
@Toosoon
@teddybear1403
@former<redacted>
@Lostnotfound
@error_ratio
@18andlife
@Yes
@roor
@ninja_daryl
@Egddios
@welshie84
@jimbob1000
@VolatilePotato
@Kibblesummer
@Circlingthedrain
@Ilikeshrimp


Non-fatal
@VoloFataliDoce
@MysticPerception
Fatal :
@Cheers
@91Days
RIP
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
2,349
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Fatal
@PwincessStepford
@iceiceice722
@EBEN30
@Oofeditup
@hellboy
@Chocolover15
@theergorthdies
@Chronic pain
@FailedWoman
@Amossoma543
@SNistheway
@phezel
@LostBoy33
@Finding_Peace
@SuicideByBelt
@BlueWidow
@martin8383784
@Alcal
@iasbics
@aramir
@NotGoneButNotHere
@dunkelheit
@Toosoon
@teddybear1403
@former<redacted>
@Lostnotfound
@error_ratio
@18andlife
@Yes
@roor
@ninja_daryl
@Egddios
@welshie84
@jimbob1000
@VolatilePotato
@Kibblesummer
@Circlingthedrain
@Ilikeshrimp
@Geesuicide
@Minudah
@Eden2k
@Crest33
@Wantingpeace
@Kakabushi
@Tristesse
@Funkygibbon
@Whatshername
@Northerngirl1965
@Edrudd
@zadig777
@Purple777
@Jackblade
@Kemis
@Spartacus00
@Kukubananas
@LuxelDrief
@Lunaemoth
@Lunar
@melanar
@peaceminusbts
@Karangel25
@Davy
@JustOverIt
@Cloudz
@Zal
@Groovy123
@Rocksandsand
@Godofdeathftw
@bubbletea
@Suicidal4Ever
@Vegrau
@Hurry
@Kvothe_alThor
@Oblivion Lover
@spiderman_32
@shango
@Leaving soon
@metalchic_74
@Stan
@timetogo
@AnxiouslyDepressed
@SoupSnakes
@trynacbt
@daikon
@Neverod
@Crystal Labeija
@Kronos
@khw777
@CrushedHopes
@BleedingHeart
@JordT
@Bumblebee
@SpecialK
@heylightiforgot
@isam
@Alchemist
@Sonnenblume
@Readytoendit
@windingdown
@Escaper Boy
@epil
@LASTUSER
@MeltingHeart
@NeCkDeEp
@BPD_LE
@Tearygirl
@gambardella
@Rena rossy
@NotGoneButNotHere
@Moonicide
@TiredOfLife95
@6ixxy
@Sea Turtle
@AMorteVivente
@sealbabies
@asdfandqwerty
@trynacbt

This is only a percentage of assumed SN fatal accounts. There are tons and tons of others not listed here.
 
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Graytaichi

Wizard
Feb 14, 2022
609
Thanks for the info. May i ask why those failure rates. Did they ask for help or being found.
 
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Funeralprincess

Death never turned on me
May 8, 2022
434
Feel free to add me to the failures list

Failed Feb 2019

Reason: mixing with orange juice (vitamin c cancels SN)

Still became very ill. Still have minor health problems but I am alive
Did you feel pain
 
Judy Garland

Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
702
I have seen someone pass from taking SN. I am an MD, but i did not see it in my capacity as an MD at that time. I can confirm though that it was a very peacefull death for this person. I was with them from the moment they took the last mouthfull until they passed. I know that they had taken an anti-emetic prior to taking the SN, they did not vomit, nor did they say that they felt nauseous. They remained talking at least for the first 5 minutes or so before becoming very sleepy. I was aware that they were still breathing but they were not responding to my voice at that point. From that moment until they passed, they did not wake, i heard her expell air twice before finally passing. I could not have imagine a more peacefull way for them to pass. Thats what they wanted. I know that she also took sedatives, I believe they were valium before taking SN as well.
@Shu Glad I read this.
 
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houseofleaves

and this with thee remains.
Jan 14, 2022
530
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Fatal
@PwincessStepford
@iceiceice722
@EBEN30
@Oofeditup
@hellboy
@Chocolover15
@theergorthdies
@Chronic pain
@FailedWoman
@Amossoma543
@SNistheway
@phezel
@LostBoy33
@Finding_Peace
@SuicideByBelt
@BlueWidow
@martin8383784
@Alcal
@iasbics
@aramir
@NotGoneButNotHere
@dunkelheit
@Toosoon
@teddybear1403
@former<redacted>
@Lostnotfound
@error_ratio
@18andlife
@Yes
@roor
@ninja_daryl
@Egddios
@welshie84
@jimbob1000
@VolatilePotato
@Kibblesummer
@Circlingthedrain
@Ilikeshrimp
@Geesuicide
@Minudah
@Eden2k
@Crest33
@Wantingpeace
@Kakabushi
@Tristesse
@Funkygibbon
@Whatshername
@Northerngirl1965
@Edrudd
@zadig777
@Purple777
@Jackblade
@Kemis
@Spartacus00
@Kukubananas
@LuxelDrief
@Lunaemoth
@Lunar
@melanar
@peaceminusbts
@Karangel25
@Davy
@JustOverIt
@Cloudz
@Zal
@Groovy123
@Rocksandsand
@Godofdeathftw
@bubbletea
@Suicidal4Ever
@Vegrau
@Hurry
@Kvothe_alThor
@Oblivion Lover
@spiderman_32
@shango
@Leaving soon
@metalchic_74
@Stan
@timetogo
@AnxiouslyDepressed
@SoupSnakes
@trynacbt
@daikon
@Neverod
@Crystal Labeija
@Kronos
@khw777
@CrushedHopes
@BleedingHeart
@JordT
@Bumblebee
@SpecialK
@heylightiforgot
@isam
@Alchemist
@Sonnenblume
@Readytoendit
@windingdown
@Escaper Boy
@epil
@LASTUSER
@MeltingHeart
@NeCkDeEp
@BPD_LE
@Tearygirl
@gambardella
@Rena rossy
@NotGoneButNotHere
@Moonicide
@TiredOfLife95
@6ixxy
@Sea Turtle
@AMorteVivente
@sealbabies
@asdfandqwerty
@trynacbt

This is only a percentage of assumed SN fatal accounts. There are tons and tons of others not listed here.
could you please add @CloseFriendofCamus too
 
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Joeydoe

Member
Aug 17, 2022
50
@Shu Glad I read this.
Just curious: how would it be possible that you, even if not a medical doctor at the time, nonetheless without a doubt possessing an inquisitive mind and fascination with what you were witnessing, could possibly not know what medications were ingested?
 
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Cathy Ames

Hopeless
Mar 11, 2022
1,361
Just curious: how would it be possible that you, even if not a medical doctor at the time, nonetheless without a doubt possessing an inquisitive mind and fascination with what you were witnessing, could possibly not know what medications were ingested?
You probably shouldn't expect a reply. @Suez (the person who posted that) has their name crossed out and hasn't posted on the forum since Jul 4, 2020.
 
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Judy Garland

HoHum
Mar 23, 2022
702
Just curious: how would it be possible that you, even if not a medical doctor at the time, nonetheless without a doubt possessing an inquisitive mind and fascination with what you were witnessing, could possibly not know what medications were ingested?
Not sure why you replied to me. I never said I was a doctor, and I haven't seen this thread in months. Hmm...I can't answer your question.
 
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AliceTheGoon

Experienced
Jul 1, 2022
229
Does anyone know if there's an N list like this? I only know one member from off this site that CTB'd with N but I don't think I've seen an N success/failure list.
 
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𝕃1𝕧1𝕟𝕘𝟚𝔻13💀

Arcanist
Aug 14, 2022
477
I have seen someone pass from taking SN. I am an MD, but i did not see it in my capacity as an MD at that time. I can confirm though that it was a very peacefull death for this person. I was with them from the moment they took the last mouthfull until they passed. I know that they had taken an anti-emetic prior to taking the SN, they did not vomit, nor did they say that they felt nauseous. They remained talking at least for the first 5 minutes or so before becoming very sleepy. I was aware that they were still breathing but they were not responding to my voice at that point. From that moment until they passed, they did not wake, i heard her expell air twice before finally passing. I could not have imagine a more peacefull way for them to pass. Thats what they wanted. I know that she also took sedatives, I believe they were valium before taking SN as well.
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makethepainstop

Specialist
Sep 16, 2022
328
I'm listing member handles of those who attempted with SN to help others in deciding on its reliability by reading their postings. All of them were hurting and I wish no disrespect. They shared their stories for the benefit of other members.

Being successful requires some hours of privacy and 4 elements: fasting 8 hours, appropriate antiemetic, acid reducer and sufficient dosage and purity of SN. Details are found in the wiki and megathread. I've found only 2 failures with stat dose and none with 48 hour.

All failures were due to vomiting, being found or calling emergencies. Alone time can be planned and it's your choice to call for help. However, you might not know that you're prone to vomiting for whom no oral method is recommended.

@Eden2k and @Funkygibbon both failed initially, learned from the attempt and were subsequently successful.

Please add to the thread missing member names or story links.

Successful:
@Geesuicide
@Minudah
@Eden2k
@Crest33
@Wantingpeace
@Kakabushi
@Tristesse
@Funkygibbon
@Whatshername
@Northerngirl1965
@Edrudd
@zadig777
@Purple777
@Jackblade
@Kemis
@Spartacus00
@Kukubananas

Unsuccessful:
@zajebistakaczka
@drakewantstogo
@axorz
@Suicidal4Ever
@21Neberg
@Jen0804
@Querry1
How I envy them I hope one day my moniker can be added to the successful list! :)