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UseItOrLoseIt

UseItOrLoseIt

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I don't listen to much classical music as of late, but I've been listening to this on repeat for the last week. There's something about late Beethoven pieces. A melancholy far removed from simple sadness. An acceptance that you've reached the final station of transience and that death is nearing. A certain sweetness follows this realization. There's no despair, no fighting the inevitable. This sweet sadness is the final challenge of life, mans' final knowledge and last delight.
 
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In contrast to that, I'm sharing some of Schubert's late work. Schubert was no stranger to romanticist death wish, some of his earlier work dedicated to that. But he suffered from terminal illness (supposed to be syphilis) before he died at the young age of 31. A lot of his greatest works were composed nearing his death, and you can hear a mix of desperation, fatalism and defiance in them.














 
Skathon

Skathon

"...scarred underneath, and I'm falling..."
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AngelMaker - "Hollow Heart"
"In my head, all I think about is death
My suffering eternal, wounds infernal
Misery keeps calling me, inflicting me, deeper and deeper
Deeper and deeper, ecstatically eager"
"Every breath is agony, and all I know is
There's no way out"
"Left to rot alone again,
Shackled by the chains of my own disdain
Misery my company, endless agony consumed by the wounds which inflict me
Of all the wounds that cover me, none of them more burdening
Than the hole in which the pain inside resides eternally

Crawling in my skin
Immeasurable torture"
"I'm pulling back my skin,
Tearing out my organs and exposing all the hate I've kept within
Creeping, bleeding, seething, weeping
Bury me alive, in a coffin full of knives
Suffocating, sickened cycles left me seeking out the scythe

I yearn to feel peace once again
Iʼd rather die than live like this"

 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Escape The Fate-Chemical Warfare :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:


The bells are ringing out, it's five o'clock somewhere
If I told you that I missed you
Wonder would you even care?
I guess I'll keep pretending ignorance is bliss
But, not knowing if you loved me only feels like loneliness
There's people all around me, I just wanna be alone
I feel much better when I'm drowning on my own
My heart is full but our love is broken
Left me here with the door wide open
Nothing to hold the pain I bare
Except chemical warfare
When I'm not blackin' out I'm fallin' back asleep
'Cause you left without a reason and you got the best of me
There's people all around me, I just wanna be alone
Feel much better when I'm drowning on my own
My heart is full but our love is broken
Left me here with the door wide open
Nothing to hold the pain I bare
Except chemical warfare
Eyes are dry, you drained my soul
Got so high, but you always leave me low
I got a thousand mile stare
From that chemical warfare
Take your medicine, take your medicine
Chemical warfare
Take your medicine, take your medicine
Chemical warfare
Can't find my way, you're my light
No one else ever held a candle
I can't lie, I've been burned
But, for you I would walk for fire
It's suicide, do or die
Anything to stay here by your side, your side
My heart is full, but our love is broken
Left me here with the door wide open
Nothing to hold the pain I bare
Except chemical warfare
Eyes are dry, you drained my soul
Got so high, but you always leave me low
I got a thousand mile stare
From that chemical warfare
Take your medicine, take your medicine
Chemical warfare
Take your medicine, take your medicine
Chemical warfare
 
hotelbeneathground

hotelbeneathground

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My, my, the time do fly
When it's in another pair of hands
And a loser I will be
For I've never been a winner in my life
I got used to stressing pain
I used the sucker pills to pity for the self

 
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not-2-b-the-answer

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Children Of Bodom-Are You Dead Yet :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:


Don't hear, don't deem
Drown in before you dive
Don't care, commit
To your self destruction drive
I kiss the ground with
With love beyond forever
Flip off the sky with
With bleeding fingers 'til I die
Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care any more
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?
Wake up, don't cry
Regenerate to deny
The truth, the fiction
You live in blindfold on your eyes
Disclosure, self loathing
This time you've gone too far
Or could it be
My nemesis that you're me?
Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care any more
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?
Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Your tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch, shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but I don't care any more
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?
Are you dead yet?
Source: Musixmatch
 
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I love flamenco (and I mean "true" flamenco, not the tourist variety) because it expresses pain and sorrow like few other styles of music that aren't modern styles with a focus on just that. Played flamenco guitar for a while myself. My personal "guitar hero" is Chicuelo, seen here.

 
ForgiveMeMama

ForgiveMeMama

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Say No by Funeral Chic

This shit hits hard. Idk if any of ya'll like crust punk, but I really relate to the lyrics and you might too.

"I feel like I'm fuckin' dyin'. Twitching my way through time. A fucking product of bullshit and bad vibes. Pain is the only truth I'll ever need. The only warmth my body can keep. Tighten the rope. Say no to life. I feel like I'm fuckin' dyin'. I aint scared to die, but I aint tryin' to go where the mules don't kick and weeds don't grow. Send me deeper & deeper & deeper below. Lower & lower, the bottomless hole."
 
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hotelbeneathground

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That's where the pain comes in
Like a second skeleton
Trying to fit beneath the skin
I can't fit these feelings in
Every single night's
A fight with my brain

 
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Skitliv ("Shit Life") is a little project of Mayhem's Maniac. Niklas Kvarforth (Shining) on guitar. I probably won't have to translate the album title "Skandinavisk Misantropi".

 
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