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Juice WRLD- Already Dead is so haunting. It makes me so uncomfortable when he says
"I know that I didn't stand a chance
I don't think I'll live ever again
I'm only here by popular demand
I'm staying alive for the fans"

With him being passed and others putting out his music it just has a really strange vibe but at the same time its very much something I feel was true for him when he was alive
 
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BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

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Dec 8, 2020
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Your flesh - a shrine to my soul
Torn from bone, dripping crimson red
Your time is now, I dream of death
On ready wings with nothing left

Light floods your eyes as you struggle, bound in terror
Enveloped in the stench of morality
Tattered dolls found wrapped in plastic
Tortured souls freed from humanity

The feeble mind will pray to God
The feeble mind will fall
 
TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

Inthe kingdom ofthe blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,233
I gladly kneel and bleed at the feet of the synthesizer gods.
Yes, I've posted this somewhere else, but its so good.
(Like peeps asking what ctb or sn mean...)






Slow children :: once in yr mind it ain't ever gonna leave.



Petit Cheval at Chelsea Underground, Hillbrow, joburg.
I was just too young to be allowed in :ehh:





Sublime lyrics, sublime voice, sublime hairstyle....





Talking Heads :: the masters at work...



Evoid, my personal local heroes, love it when the crowd goes mental!



There were treasures to be found in the 80s.

You had to crawl on your knees to find them,
Scratch them out of the depths
Spit and suck them clean.

Treasures.

__________________________☆_____________⊙_________□______♧______♤_____________○___


@AverageFanEnjoyer @not-2-b-the-answer @Brick In The Wall @BitterlyAlive_


You fuckers.
There i was all reminiscing about an era that ended before u all were born, listening to 80s new romantic pop. And you play that music. Thaaaat music. (Prodigy, GnR, Kult, Psyclon... )
Now look how my mind has deteriorated!!!
I proudly join your cult. My offering, know it maybe?
Fuck you'da loved the punk, goth, metal & industrial clubs of my 30s. Hardcore.
The club used to go fuckin crazy when this played.....
Hope u enjoy.












Nine inch nails cover Joy Division 4 the Crow soundtrack





Got a big plan, this mindset maybe it's right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
In a whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait never mind

Late night, in passing, mention it flip to her
Best-friend, it's no thing, maybe a slip
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to like
When she walked in he froze up, leave it to fright

It's cute in a way, 'til you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
Escape was just a nod and a casual wave
Obsess about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others, it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd pass
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
'cause there's always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
Wanted to do things to her, it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart

[Instrumental]

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart




Incredible.
play em loud. fucking loud.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

Inthe kingdom ofthe blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,233
5.59 am. I fuckin don't know where to write this...
That ugly motherfucking dawn light is creeping over the dancefloor.
But no - ones going home yet. It must never end... but yeah it will.
I'm playing catch me if u can with sumone I've never met..
These apps are awful till they're awesome.
I'm smiling 2myself :: life description lin 500 characters or less.
yeah, tell me another, a meaningful 1 this time.
Lit & loaded i can hardly speak...maybe thats a good thing.
I have nothing to say, if I did, it'd be about another shooter
dedicated to suicide sunrises and
calling it quits before the painful fucking comedown.
Thinking too much, my mind racing frozen
everywhere but nowhere again.
I'm typing this to remember this, to hold onto my sanity
I'm shivering inside :: I realise i won't have many more of these...
Maybe im afraid, maybe I'm just wired.
All of us are living for the moment, maybe the dirty promise of the next..
this is what is real :: music lights sex n drugs &neverending nights. Nothing more.
Not me. I'm saying goodbye ::
One last look at the half naked bodies, at possibilities and perfections.
This was good. I guess. Knowing I have a crew of friends that love me, that are concerned at my unwillingness to make plans for the holidays.
They don't understand why. Why im so quiet.
they care in their fucked up selfish ways,
I'm just the same ::
Maybe not,
maybe Ryan with his light green smiling eyes and innocent ways
snub tophat virus mask and skull rings
will understand the meaning of run rabbit run
Will understand i dont want him to, but must
will actually let this go.
How can he not see beneath my skin,
into the destructive darkness that will devour and destroy him?
That destroys everything.
Time to go. Say goodbye to the guys n girls n go.
Another line another litany of how nothing makes sense.
Mzwai calls from fuck knows where, maybe the toilets
asking if I can go to the hotel to get more... sure.
They're trashed, I'm streetsmart.
Do they know how much I want to die?
I can hear disco breakbeats and mesmerizing porn playing in the background
The promise of something to kill the hunger, the loneliness,
The pain. Fuck I want my gun.
I'm getting my gear from his handbag, in 20 minutes I can shoot-up
It will all be okay then, warm and comfortably numb.
I knew this would happen, I know myself.
Ryan never stood a chance.
I must remember to maybe find this, it seems important.
diary of a drug fiend, a lotus eater, a loser.
Until its gone, until I'm gone, until everythings gone.
I will miss this :: this is all I've ever wanted.
If only this would never end....








Apologies I will erase. Asap....
 
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BitterlyAlive_

BitterlyAlive_

-
Dec 8, 2020
2,053
I gladly kneel and bleed at the feet of the synthesizer gods.
Yes, I've posted this somewhere else, but its so good.
(Like peeps asking what ctb or sn mean...)






Slow children :: once in yr mind it ain't ever gonna leave.



Petit Cheval at Chelsea Underground, Hillbrow, joburg.
I was just too young to be allowed in :ehh:





Sublime lyrics, sublime voice, sublime hairstyle....





Talking Heads :: the masters at work...



Evoid, my personal local heroes, love it when the crowd goes mental!



There were treasures to be found in the 80s.

You had to crawl on your knees to find them,
Scratch them out of the depths
Spit and suck them clean.

Treasures.

__________________________☆_____________⊙_________□______♧______♤_____________○___


@AverageFanEnjoyer @not-2-b-the-answer @Brick In The Wall @BitterlyAlive_


You fuckers.
There i was all reminiscing about an era that ended before u all were born, listening to 80s new romantic pop. And you play that music. Thaaaat music. (Prodigy, GnR, Kult, Psyclon... )
Now look how my mind has deteriorated!!!
I proudly join your cult. My offering, know it maybe?
Fuck you'da loved the punk, goth, metal & industrial clubs of my 30s. Hardcore.
The club used to go fuckin crazy when this played.....
Hope u enjoy.












Nine inch nails cover Joy Division 4 the Crow soundtrack





Got a big plan, this mindset maybe it's right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
In a whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait never mind

Late night, in passing, mention it flip to her
Best-friend, it's no thing, maybe a slip
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to like
When she walked in he froze up, leave it to fright

It's cute in a way, 'til you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, knees get weak
Escape was just a nod and a casual wave
Obsess about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others, it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd pass
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
'cause there's always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
Wanted to do things to her, it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart

[Instrumental]

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breath, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart




Incredible.
play em loud. fucking loud.

Yooooo I love these, thank you so much! :D The NIN one takes me back, man. Whew!

This has been on my mind today.
 
TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

Inthe kingdom ofthe blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,233
So..... Just the TYP ???:devil::pfff::hihi::smiling:

You missed one.... Is it all over your face **??? :devil::I:hihi::smiling:

Cazwell-Is It All Over Your Face....

(Surely you should understand that I was under the 'influence'..?)
& i sincerely apologise** for my e-mission or should that be o-mission?!
Seriously dig Caswell.. the dirtysexyhumor gives me just what I need!!
And to omit one with the undeniably amazing Amanda Lepore would be nothing short of sinful (met her briefly once, at Heaven Under the Arches in London...she was there with a whole crew from New York clubscene because a band called Dee-Lite were performing :: Amanda Lepore was the coordinator doordiva at a New York club called Taboo, apparently incredible. I had a criminal record at that time so I couldn't get into USA). She has the most perfect va-jay-jay I've ever seen (yeah everyone got shown!)



And in the interest of suffering n self-respect :: I tried to delete that post, but I'm unable to... nothing like a trashed "note to self" to try keep it together, and remember all things are moving toward their end. Nothing like a psycho ramble (at my worst mentally messed up (schizo /ocd 'control' phase..) state I used to make lists and lists of things...or write notes to myself). Nothing like mistakenly typing yr misshapen malaise at 5 in the morning 4all to see. Yeah.. take my inventory... looking forward to ideas that can maybe 'fix' me
Full disclosure (should I require you guys to fabricate an alibi for me pls!)
He ended up coming home with me (complicated story). Casually obvious intimate physical affection (e & mdma may be the cause for us here...) strange discussion about my unusual music collection (he's a gay grunge metalhead...sortof) & I suspect somewhat naive. (Will teach him of Ministry and the harder ways.. nyeh. nyeh.) No he's nice, kinda wholesome - my psychocavalcade will fucking run him over and smear him to nothing - i'm that dangerous; i know I am. I'm not into damaging others. Just myself. Did we? Um, no. I have this post-club ritual that involves hanging out in the bathtub a-line-ing myself with lines n whisky (I even have an entertainment system in there :: music videos, not always porn!) Guess he heard the schnarfing, so asked at the door if I'm willing to share... I said yeah - he then dropped his jeans and climbed into the bath with me... im liking this dude. Ugh. Why now...?! No matter what, im still going to ctb soon. I'm already anxious were getting attached, & he's gonna get hurt cos we can't get more involved. Yeah what seemed like lighthearted fun, is now turning into overwhelming oppression...
Fuckity fuck, this'z gonna b tricky.

So much for a simple send-off 🙃
... in future I will try not overshare!
I apologise for my somewhat indulgent (addict remember!) idiotic ways...
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Real Monster
Sep 26, 2021
1,278

this is what I call music healing to the soul.



Do you remember, when we were dreamers?
When we were roaming the streets of our hearts?
Dressed in black, lost together
We swore never to part...

All the passion we possessed
All the problems we addressed
In Allegiance
In Allegiance

We were bleeding from the fights
Always fought to claim our rights
In Allegiance
A Sworn Allegiance

Do you see them? When you're dreaming?
All the faces we left in the past
Dressed in white, nursed by angels
They're Resting in peace at last

All the passion we possessed
All the problems we addressed
In Allegiance
In Allegiance

We were bleeding from the fights
Always fought to claim our rights
In Allegiance
In Allegiance

The controversy we produced
Be condemned and be accused
In Allegiance
In Allegiance

Always at each others backs
Slip through all the cracks
In Allegiance
A sworn Allegiance


SPETSNAZ - ALLEGIANCE

 
not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Visionary
Mar 23, 2018
2,993
Post in the Metal thread muh dude!
Wait... There's a metal thread??? Somehow I missed it. (Or forgot)
I've been posting Metal here since almost the beginning. I thought this was for all music.
(Surely you should understand that I was under the 'influence'..?)
& i sincerely apologise** for my e-mission or should that be o-mission?!
Seriously dig Caswell.. the dirtysexyhumor gives me just what I need!!
And to omit one with the undeniably amazing Amanda Lepore would be nothing short of sinful (met her briefly once, at Heaven Under the Arches in London...she was there with a whole crew from New York clubscene because a band called Dee-Lite were performing :: Amanda Lepore was the coordinator doordiva at a New York club called Taboo, apparently incredible. I had a criminal record at that time so I couldn't get into USA). She has the most perfect va-jay-jay I've ever seen (yeah everyone got shown!)



And in the interest of suffering n self-respect :: I tried to delete that post, but I'm unable to... nothing like a trashed "note to self" to try keep it together, and remember all things are moving toward their end. Nothing like a psycho ramble (at my worst mentally messed up (schizo /ocd 'control' phase..) state I used to make lists and lists of things...or write notes to myself). Nothing like mistakenly typing yr misshapen malaise at 5 in the morning 4all to see. Yeah.. take my inventory... looking forward to ideas that can maybe 'fix' me
Full disclosure (should I require you guys to fabricate an alibi for me pls!)
He ended up coming home with me (complicated story). Casually obvious intimate physical affection (e & mdma may be the cause for us here...) strange discussion about my unusual music collection (he's a gay grunge metalhead...sortof) & I suspect somewhat naive. (Will teach him of Ministry and the harder ways.. nyeh. nyeh.) No he's nice, kinda wholesome - my psychocavalcade will fucking run him over and smear him to nothing - i'm that dangerous; i know I am. I'm not into damaging others. Just myself. Did we? Um, no. I have this post-club ritual that involves hanging out in the bathtub a-line-ing myself with lines n whisky (I even have an entertainment system in there :: music videos, not always porn!) Guess he heard the schnarfing, so asked at the door if I'm willing to share... I said yeah - he then dropped his jeans and climbed into the bath with me... im liking this dude. Ugh. Why now...?! No matter what, im still going to ctb soon. I'm already anxious were getting attached, & he's gonna get hurt cos we can't get more involved. Yeah what seemed like lighthearted fun, is now turning into overwhelming oppression...
Fuckity fuck, this'z gonna b tricky.

So much for a simple send-off 🙃
... in future I will try not overshare!
I apologise for my somewhat indulgent (addict remember!) idiotic ways...

It's all good bro. :heart: I'm happy you couldn't delete it. Some songs I've never heard before. I somehow found the cazwell all over your face a couple years ago. Not into some of the clothing they wear... If any.:wink:
I didn't know who Amanda Lepore was either.
I'm happy you met someone.:hug: Selfishly I hope it keeps you here longer. You will be missed by me and so many others. I really don't mind what you post. It's my decision to watch or not.
Anyway... You are awesome!!!:love:
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

Inthe kingdom ofthe blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
1,233
It's all good bro. :heart: I'm happy you couldn't delete it.../
I'm happy you met someone.:hug: Selfishly I hope it keeps you here longer. You will be missed by me and so many others. I really don't mind what you post. It's my decision to watch or not.
Anyway... You are awesome!!!:love:

Þ Your comments mean more than u will ever know, thank you. Going thru a meaningless, worthlessness cycle :: Scrambled Eggs & Suicide written ages ago (in my profile post) makes me realise how long my s.i has been like a scratching monster trying to get out.
(Linkin Park's Crawling fills my senses!)

Something abysmal *; something obscure**; know the feeling?! ::


*



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