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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
499
Today i was told im being disvharged next week which im very happy about. Its been a long 5 weeks in hospital but on the other hand im beibg discharged straight back into the life i was removed out of only worse because now ive lost my job and ill have people chasing me for bill money and rent (ive now not worked for 2 months). Anyway, i sort of feel ok and alittle scared because leaving here starts my exit plan. The method is set, im gonna give myself a few days to drink, fuck, eat good food then thats it, ill be gone. Im excited, nervous, all sorts of emotions. I did it, i showed them my decision is rational now they cant keep me here.
 
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Shewaitsforme

Arcanist
Sep 23, 2018
499
how will it be done?

Ketamine and partial suspension. I tested out partial suspension the other night, i went dizzy and lost my balance very quickly it actually took me by suprise. I blacked out but must have only been a few seconds i think, i had a chair up against my door and came too sat in that. Ears were ringing and my head pounding, next thing i remember is being in bed and the staff removing everything from my room. I didnt have the energy to protest tbh. At least i know with ketamine rendering me unable to back out and save myself it should all go to plan.
 
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Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,142
Today i was told im being disvharged next week which im very happy about. Its been a long 5 weeks in hospital but on the other hand im beibg discharged straight back into the life i was removed out of only worse because now ive lost my job and ill have people chasing me for bill money and rent (ive now not worked for 2 months). Anyway, i sort of feel ok and alittle scared because leaving here starts my exit plan. The method is set, im gonna give myself a few days to drink, fuck, eat good food then thats it, ill be gone. Im excited, nervous, all sorts of emotions. I did it, i showed them my decision is rational now they cant keep me here.

Hope you have a great time before you go.