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worldexploder

worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
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I hear ya. My life at 35 is so radically different from the lives of people I grew up with I wouldn’t be able to relate to them. I’d seem like an alien and visa versa.

No car, never had a job, on SSI (and yes people will judge you for that unfortunately), alcoholic, mentally ill, no kids (which I see as a positive), and a failed marriage.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
I hear ya. My life at 35 is so radically different from the lives of people I grew up with I wouldn’t be able to relate to them. I’d seem like an alien and visa versa.

No car, never had a job, on SSI (and yes people will judge you for that unfortunately), alcoholic, mentally ill, no kids (which I see as a positive), and a failed marriage.

there is no scenario where i will make it to 35
 
worldexploder

worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
2,823
there is no scenario where i will make it to 35
I should have CTB 12 years ago when I first started to actively think about methods. I decided to give life one more chance. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I’ll ether go by Dignitas or find some other way.

I have made a rational decision to terminate myself within 6 months. I’ll be looking for the easiest ways out during this time.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
I should have CTB 12 years ago when I first started to actively think about methods. I decided to give life one more chance. That was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I’ll ether go by Dignitas or find some other way.

I have made a rational decision to terminate myself within 6 months. I’ll be looking for the easiest ways out during this time.

i really hope i find the strength to end it before 30
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,475
Same here I have never been as poor as I have been this month I dropped out of school in September and is now on welfare even though I haven´t gotten any money from the government this month only some money from my parents. And everyone around me has everything going for them while I am going no where.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

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Aug 31, 2018
565
Same here I have never been as poor as I have been this month I dropped out of school in September and is now on welfare even though I haven´t gotten any money from the government this month only some money from my parents. And everyone around me has everything going for them while I am going no where.


this is such a bad feeling. your life goes to shit and everyone else who used to be on your level or even below that is suceeding. i got to be honest here: i cant be happy them. in fact their sucess combined with my situation was the reason i cut contact with most of my former friends
 
S

Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
I don't care about other people, really. I envy their happiness sometimes, but I'm not angry. I could never be like them. For me to be happy, I'd have to be someone else. Since that's neither possible, nor desirable, ctb is the only choice I have.
 
TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,475
this is such a bad feeling. your life goes to shit and everyone else who used to be on your level or even below that is suceeding. i got to be honest here: i cant be happy them. in fact their sucess combined with my situation was the reason i cut contact with most of my former friends
That is why being a teenager was way better, even though as a teenager we have all of these hormones making us confused and feel everything so much more including the depression I had but we were equals everyone our age went to school and if people had jobs it would be crappy low status jobs like working at Mc Donalds, cashier etc. or a dishwasher (like I did) now previous friends and people we knew are above us in life and it fucking sucks.
 
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