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nzdarkshark

nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
401
I've been self harming for around 1-2 years - haven't cut myself in a month or so; but trying to make myself pass out and a suicide attempt is technically self harm so... ~shrug~

If you ever wanna chat to someone I'm usually around and about :)
 
Dead_Inside

Dead_Inside

Wizard
Jul 2, 2018
625
I began self harming around April. Haven't self harmed in a few months but I think a relapse is inevitable.

I made an Instagram account to show my scars. Fortunately most of them have faded:
https://www.instagram.com/s4nctioned/
Don’t know why but that made me cry. Think it reminds me of my little sister .... she always cut her self too .... I couldn’t really help her. Obviously I can’t eve get my shit straight.
 
Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
189
I've honestly never really tried to be clean of self-harm, I don't handle stress well. I feel like the slightest thing sets me off. I've been doing it for over ten years I think, although I would pull at my hair and do other things before then. It was burning and cutting that then started happening.

I personally find seeing the different 'kits' that people have interesting. I just keep my blades and what I burn with in an old glasses case.
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
362
Keeps getting deeper.
Someone once called the white layer styrofoam.. too funny.

Do you stitch yourself up? I got a few bad raised ones because I couldn't/didn't. At least grab some strong tape to close it..
 
Anon1337

Anon1337

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Oct 1, 2018
201
Someone once called the white layer styrofoam.. too funny.

Do you stitch yourself up? I got a few bad raised ones because I couldn't/didn't. At least grab some strong tape to close it..
They aren't deep enough for stitches. This is my biggest scar:
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Lara Francis

Lara Francis

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
1,630
Hi.
I have cut for about a year and half.
It started as very small superficial cuts that healed without leaving scars.
It then progressed into multiple cuts and when one arm was full I would use the other,often on the same occasion.
I guess nobody plans to start self harming and I certainly never thought I would but it is a coping mechanism for me.
The problem I find is that no matter how much you cut , you always want to do one more cut which ends up being deeper and will leave other scar.The biggest risk for me is stopping once I have started especially when I use the wrist area.
I wish it was as easy to stop as it was to begin.
 
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creationisdeath

Specialist
Oct 20, 2018
362
I wasn’t thinking about that. I just wanted to slice myself open and see the blood flow. Hopefully it will get lighter and flatten over time.
That takes decades and will never really get flat. I've heard you could use "rosehip seed oil" though. But I don't know if that is some homeopathy style scam or real.
 
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Anon1337

Anon1337

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Oct 1, 2018
201
That takes decades and will never really get flat. I've heard you could use "rosehip seed oil" though. But I don't know if that is some homeopathy style scam or real.
90% sure I won’t be alive in a decade. Doubt I’ll live for much longer anyway. Not too worried.
 
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Anon1337

Anon1337

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Oct 1, 2018
201
Posting pictures of your cuts(especially fresh ones) makes you seem like your doing it for attention... Especially when you make an Instagram account for it.
I do it for satisfaction and upload it for attention. I’ve been self harming long before I made that account. I never get any attention irl.
 
Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
546
My first self-harm was in 2012, i just cut 3 simple slices on my hand. Now i've grown up a bit, and i am still doing this. My both legs have scars, i also have one on my stomach (the wound is healed, but still you can recognize it by white slices)