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noname223

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I hate some parts of my outer appearance. For example my teeth are quite ugly.
Though I am pretty happy about my weight. I think I have atypical anorexia. Due to past medication I could barely it anything without gaining weight. This was kind of a torture that lasted 1 year. I hope I won't need the medication anymore but it is not fully clear. I am scared. ( I wrote a thread once about it here in recovery,)

But for now I enjoy being able to eat more stuff without gaining weight.
I was very obese as a child and teenger. I was horribly bullied in school due to it. It left very deep scars that will never heal.

I am still eating mostly very healthy food. But sometimes I can allow myself to eat yummy unhealthy food. WIth this former medication this was impossible.

I could talk more about stuff I hate about my outer appearance. Though this is a recovery thread. Moreover I am a little bit scared this would make it easier to get doxxed. Though all in all I like my current outer appearance. But mentally I am a wreck.

Oh I should explain what atypical anorexia means. I am extremely obsessed by my weight. My therapist did not give me the diagnosis someone else once suspected it. I weigh myself roundabout 5-8 times a day. And the fact that I endured 1 year constant hunger to keep my weight low is quite telling. My weight is low but not underweight.

I had the thought of this thread like body positivity or general about outer appearance. I also have some things which are quite unnattractive. However I also mentioned the reasons why I won't go into detail.
 
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Xion

Xion

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Sorry about that but I'm so envious that you're able to control you weight as it's one of my biggest issues :ahhha: ED bias...

I used to be anorexic but bulimia ruined my body... Now I'm desperately trying to lose the weight again and get healthy skinny this time. 🙏

Can I ask what foods you eat normally ?

So if I must only mention positive things... I'm sometimes told that I'm cute... I have cute expressions and act like a cliché anime girl sometimes lol ? :ahhha:
 
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noname223

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Sorry about that but I'm so envious that you're able to control you weight as it's one of my biggest issues :ahhha: ED bias...

I used to be anorexic but bulimia ruined my body... Now I'm desperately trying to lose the weight again and get healthy skinny this time. 🙏

Can I ask what foods you eat normally ?

So if I must only mention positive things... I'm sometimes told that I'm cute... I have cute expressions and act like a cliché anime girl sometimes lol ? :ahhha:
I eat a lot of expensive healthy food. I won't be able to do that due to coming poverty.
Something what is cheap and healthy are carrots.

My eating behavior is kind of sick. I am only eating like different 10 meals for lunch. I usually eat all almost the same in the evenings or mornings since several years. My family asks themselve how I do it. I don't know. I don't think too much about it. I think this is kind of OCD.

I really like mangos. No bread only bread rolls. (It is easier to stop eating them. Better portions.) I only drink coffee or water. Apples. Daily a lot of salads. A huge bowl.
Yeah I might ctb due to poverty. (Sorry it is not the right subforum.) I won't be able to spend half of the money for food in the future. My OCD/anorexia won't be happy about that. Lol

Oh and by the way. I stopped eating sweets completely since 10 years. I think there were like 10 days in the past 10 years when I ate them. During psychosis or birthdays.
 
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Xion

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I eat a lot of expensive healthy food. I won't be able to do that due to coming poverty.
Something what is cheap and healthy are carrots.

My eating behavior is kind of sick. I am only eating like different 10 meals for lunch. I usually eat all almost the same in the evenings or mornings since several years. My family asks themselve how I do it. I don't know. I don't think too much about it. I think this is kind of OCD.

I really like mangos. No bread only bread rolls. (It is easier to stop eating them. Better portions.) I only drink coffee or water. Apples. Daily a lot of salads. A huge bowl.
Yeah I might ctb due to poverty. (Sorry it is not the right subforum.) I won't be able to spend half of the money for food in the future. My OCD/anorexia won't be happy about that. Lol

Oh and by the way. I stopped eating sweets completely since 10 years. I think there were like 10 days in the past 10 years when I ate them. During psychosis or birthdays.
I tend to eat a lot of the same safe stuff too whenever I'm able to restrict.

I wish I could eat healthy takeout like pokebowls and frozen yoghurt everyday too, that would make things so much easier...
What kind of expensive food do you like ?

I should start making salads again, you're right... I need to find ingredients that aren't overpriced...

Do you eat sweet things (not sweets) other than apples and mangos ? Like porridge or dried fruit for instance ?

I feel you about poverty, I'm sorry you also struggle with that. Is there no way you could get a better income or find cheaper stores ? Here it's come to the point where due tlo inflation food is now cheaper in organic stores than in regular supermarkets, and you can also find some cheap healthy food in places like Lidl, though I really don't like going there.
 
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I tend to eat a lot of the same safe stuff too whenever I'm able to restrict.

I wish I could eat healthy takeout like pokebowls and frozen yoghurt everyday too, that would make things so much easier...
What kind of expensive food do you like ?

I should start making salads again, you're right... I need to find ingredients that aren't overpriced...

Do you eat sweet things (not sweets) other than apples and mangos ? Like porridge or dried fruit for instance ?

I feel you about poverty, I'm sorry you also struggle with that. Is there no way you could get a better income or find cheaper stores ? Here it's come to the point where due tlo inflation food is now cheaper in organic stores than in regular supermarkets, and you can also find some cheap healthy food in places like Lidl, though I really don't like going there.
I am very lazy concerning cooking. I eat instant meals. With roundabout 100-130 calories per 100 gramm. It is more expensive than cooking fresh meals I think. And the fruits are expensive.

Honestly I currently don't have that much problems financially. My family gives me enough money. Though my parents also will stop working in some years. The situation will be very dramatic. ( I am very scared.) My sister might also not be able to get a stable income.
Believe me I try my best to get a stable income. But I am very ill and working is triggering me extremely. I try to fight but the odds are clearly against me.

I drink cappuccinos with different flavors. You could count that as a sweet. But the calories are not that high. I also eat sweet yoghurts with different flavors. These two are the most sweet things I eat.
 
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I am very lazy concerning cooking. I eat instant meals. With roundabout 100-130 calories per 100 gramm. It is more expensive than cooking fresh meals I think. And the fruits are expensive.

Hoenstly I currently don't have that much problems financially. My family gives me enough money. Though my parents also will stop woiking in some years. The situation will be very dramatic. ( I am very scared.) My sister might also not be able to get a stable income.
Believe me I try my best to get a stable income. But I am very ill and working is triggering me extremely. I try to fight but the odds are clearly against me.

I drink cappuccinos with different flavors. You could count that as a sweet. But the calories are not that high. I also eat sweet yoghurts with different flavors. These two are the most sweet things I eat.
We have a lot of preferences in common lol ^^

What about disability benefits if you can't work ?
 
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We have a lot of preferences in common lol ^^

What about disability benefits if you can't work ?
It is the same amount as welfare. I cannot live with that low amount of money.
 
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Foresight

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Jun 14, 2019
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I like the shape of my lips. Everything else is trash head to toe.

5-8 times a day? I'm trying to break my daily weigh in habit. I have a habit of doing it every morning and it's compulsive.
 
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Seeking_Peace

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May 18, 2022
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I like my face. Although, the do you model question aggravates me because I feel like wasted potential.
 
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I like my freckles.
 
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Bodydysmorphia

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It's nearly impossible for me to find something positive about my appearance as I feel like the negative aspects outweigh the positive ones (I can't even find really one).
 
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Dr Iron Arc

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Feb 10, 2020
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I’m six feet tall. The compliments end there.
 
lofticries

lofticries

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Feb 27, 2021
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Lol this is hard. I like my lips now that everyone in the world is getting lip filler to have them.

I also like having long legs even though I'm insecure about my height.
 
whatevs

whatevs

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Jan 15, 2022
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I have strong arms, and my right arm brachioradialis is suspiciously powerful. Onanism might ve making me slowly but surely the new Devon Larratt.

I also will never bald, even though the hair is like Jewfro, so not sure if it´s all that attractive.
 
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NoLifeNoPain

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Jun 17, 2018
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Well I guess I'm tall enough for a guy (6ft, 1,83m for my european folks)
I can eat whatever I want without getting fat, but that also makes it hard for me to gain any physical strength
I could've really used a bigger skull, wider shoulders and
maybe some facial hair (as much as I don't like the aesthetics of it, being less androgynous, less child-like does give you some status in society)

We have to play the cards we were dealt
Life isn't an rpg where you get to customize your avatar,
there's no point in fantasizing to be someone you'll never be
 
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