I’ve been here too long
- Jul 8, 2018
I came up to South Dakota for some stuff I need to do here and staying with friend. Well, the whole time I’ve been here I’m getting preached at about how I need to find a guy to take care of me and I’m gonna end up getting aids and murdered. As though it’s easy to find a guy if u are past the age of 40 as a woman to take care of u. Not only is it my age, but being a prostitute, having difficulty attaching, pair bonding. I’m so used to having to be on my own that I don’t know if I can bend at this point. The only guys interested in u at 40 well let’s just say it’s not pretty. I mean for the long term. So I’m trying to deal with my life as it is and just accepting that things are as they are and trying to make the best of my shit life. I wish she could just quit making me feel worse than I already do about my situation. As if I don’t know that my future is going to get worse. It’s like quit dwelling on it because it’s not like there’s a magic wand that can just fix these kinds of problems. At least not in the current system we live in.