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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
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Sep 4, 2019
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mossyfox said:
at least we're not alone in feeling this unbearable shit
Agreed. I'm sick of feeling this way. Ctb is slowly moving it's way on up to the top of my options list. When it reaches the top, my SI and fear of what comes next goes away and something else takes a jab at my mental health, I'm done
 
idontwanttobeme

idontwanttobeme

Member
Joined
Feb 1, 2021
Messages
36
havent been on here for a while but i still think about ctb daily.. i do wish I could just enjoy life and let myself give life a chance.. but in the end everything is still too overwhelming, even good things, and im sure it always will be.. so i want to end it all still.. so I would say im around 7/8 now
 
Bedrock48

Bedrock48

Specialist
Joined
Feb 1, 2021
Messages
346
8 I think. Not ready to ctb quite yet but certainly lots of thinking going on. Peoples demeanours around me seem to have changed recently and ngl it's a little creepy. I worry I'm giving off signs that I'm thinking about sui without realising. Feels like if a person so much as looks at me a little too long they'll know everything. Probably just in my head.
 
CatTheBus5689

CatTheBus5689

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Joined
Jun 22, 2021
Messages
66
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Everyday I'm tempted more and more to just speed up my plans and throw away all the time I have left. I just don't want to live anymore. For once I'm glad I don't have anything tying me down.
 
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