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Apparently an Opiod OD is very pleasurable. U feel high and drift away into unconciousness and death. Im thinking of ODing on fentanyl. Thoughts?
 
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That would be my choice as well. The problem is I have no idea how to obtain it.
 
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It probably wouldn't feel too bad. I ODed on alcohol + heroin once and just blacked out. Woke up in hospital.
But other times if you do too much opiates you can feel dizzy, anxious, nauseous, etc. Probably would be up there in peaceful ways to go but not quite as peaceful as N.
 
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contemplatingjaahil said:
Apparently an Opiod OD is very pleasurable. U feel high and drift away into unconciousness and death. Im thinking of ODing on fentanyl. Thoughts?
Nah, it wouldn't be pleasurably drifting away lol.

It's really gross when you take too much of an opiod. Just like it sucks when you drink to much alcohol. Or smoke too much baccy.
Too much of a pleasurable thing, is still too much.

You'd just wanna hope for a fast, painless opiod death (I think this is hard to reliably achieve). Don't hope for a pleasurable one, because that sounds like fantasy to me tbh.
 
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I remember reading reports (on Reddit) of those who overdosed and survived (bc narcan) and it sounded like things were peaceful up until the point they were saved. fentalogue OD was the first method that I was confident in but I no longer have it.

Two of my friends died of heroin OD (one suicide one accidental) so that affects how I feel about it too
 
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I've heard mixed things. Some say they OD'd (but lived obv) and it was peaceful, others describe it as a fucking nightmare
 
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western_heart said:
I remember reading reports (on Reddit) of those who overdosed and survived (bc narcan) and it sounded like things were peaceful up until the point they were saved. fentalogue OD was the first method that I was confident in but I no longer have it.

Two of my friends died of heroin OD (one suicide one accidental) so that affects how I feel about it too
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I've heard mixed things. Some say they OD'd (but lived obv) and it was peaceful, others describe it as a fucking nightmare
I think it is possible to OD peacefully on opiods. But I also think it's incredibly hard to reliably achieve this.

That's why I think it's just kinda a fantasy. Dying isn't gonna be thattt perfect lol
 
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Trojan said:
That would be my choice as well. The problem is I have no idea how to obtain it.
Dw.markets sell patch's, or if you know which seller WHM but it's not listed as fent its listed as oxy, but you need to contact the right seller on wkr, check dread forums to find out which
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I've heard mixed things. Some say they OD'd (but lived obv) and it was peaceful, others describe it as a fucking nightmare
Chexknout xanax and methadone mix, aprently if you get it right its ment to be peacfull,
 
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It'sNotLookingGood said:
Nah, it wouldn't be pleasurably drifting away lol.

It's really gross when you take too much of an opiod. Just like it sucks when you drink to much alcohol. Or smoke too much baccy.
Too much of a pleasurable thing, is still too much.

You'd just wanna hope for a fast, painless opiod death (I think this is hard to reliably achieve). Don't hope for a pleasurable one, because that sounds like fantasy to me tbh.
Wouldn’t compare taking an extensive amount of opioids/opiates at all to too much alcohol or tobacco. I’ve dabbled with opioids quite a bit, and am currently on morphine at the moment.

I’ve taken high amounts of Morphine/ Oxy pills before and it just had my nodding off on several occasions (not suicide attempts), no pain whatsoever, in that aspect it’s peaceful. The thing to note about these is they slow down your breathing and a substantial amount being taken could result in brain damage if you survive.

Personally, that’s my biggest fear of CTB with opioids/opiates. I don’t want to survive it, whether that’s from being rescued while I’ve OD’d or waking up and having spent hours unconscious with my brain not receiving the oxygen levels it needs.
 
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checkouttime said:
Its says its painlesss and quick in the PPH( 2nd paragraph un der the picture) , I know who i would trust for information
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Don’t want to come off as encouraging people to CTB, but I even know from personal experience that this is true. However, as my earlier post mentions, the risk of permanent brain damage exists.
 
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Vault of Memories said:
Wouldn’t compare taking an extensive amount of opioids/opiates at all to too much alcohol or tobacco. I’ve dabbled with opioids quite a bit, and am currently on morphine at the moment.

I’ve taken high amounts of Morphine/ Oxy pills before and it just had my nodding off on several occasions (not suicide attempts), no pain whatsoever, in that aspect it’s peaceful. The thing to note about these is they slow down your breathing and a substantial amount being taken could result in brain damage if you survive.

Personally, that’s my biggest fear of CTB with opioids/opiates. I don’t want to survive it, whether that’s from being rescued while I’ve OD’d or waking up and having spent hours unconscious with my brain not receiving the oxygen levels it needs.
Yeah, but nodding on opioids is very different to ctb.

When you're nodding (peaking on opioids), feeling great, imagine taking excessive amount more. That wouldn't feel good bro. Best you can hope for is just going unconscious quickly. It doesn't just keep getting nicer, the more you take, forever.

Also I was on the morphine last night! What brand got atm?
I got 50 10mg Zomorph - so slow release. But if you poor out the beads from the pill and crush them up you bypass that SR p easy.
Such a peng sleep last night lol, sleep like when you were a kid. I miss getting a sober good nights sleep - haven't had that in so many years now.
 
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It'sNotLookingGood said:
Yeah, but nodding on opioids is very different to ctb.

When you're nodding (peaking on opioids), feeling great, imagine taking excessive amount more. That wouldn't feel good bro. Best you can hope for is just going unconscious quickly. It doesn't just keep getting nicer, the more you take, forever.

Also I was on the morphine last night! What brand got atm?
I got 50 10mg Zomorph - so slow release. But if you poor out the beads from the pill and crush them up you bypass that SR p easy.
Such a peng sleep last night lol, sleep like when you were a kid. I miss getting a sober good nights sleep - haven't had that in so many years now.
I used to get the 60mg Kadian back in the day which were extended releases that came in capsules too. Just like you said, could open it up and eat or crush and rail the beads.

For a while have been getting these circular 100mg ones that just have an M on one side and a 100 on the other. Trying to look up the brand for you and it describes them as gray, though they are more blueish to me.

Sometimes I used to get those 100mg MS Contin pills.

You heavy into it? I’ve been messing around with them for a few years, but have gone months without them. Wouldn’t say I’m addicted, but obviously I love the feeling. I usually don’t reside throughout the day, so I think that helps with not going through the terrible withdrawals, though I have had some bad ones where I can’t sleep after using everyday for weeks.

I think taking a lot would have you knocks out pretty fast, though with extended release you might get the nauseous and dizziness feeling. I know some people get nauseous just taking prescribed doses of M.
 
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contemplatingjaahil said:
Apparently an Opiod OD is very pleasurable. U feel high and drift away into unconciousness and death. Im thinking of ODing on fentanyl. Thoughts?
Wow I was just thinking this same thing. I live in Seattle where I know I can find fentanyl. Problem is I need to make myself look more like a junkie than a middle aged cop to score some. But, it seems like the easiest way to go.
Side note: I watch a YouTube channel called Soft White Underbelly. It’s a guy who interviews the homeless on skid row. I’m always amazed by the addicts that OD and were dead, but came back with a shot of narcan. They always seem grateful to be alive. Yet, their living circumstances are complete shit. And the abuse a human body can take before dying is unreal.
 
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This method can also be potentiated using grapefruit juice to increase its potency and make it even more deadly, i have listed a page from the PPH with the information. If fentanyl wasn't so deadly then you wouldn't see endless documentaries about it and there wouldn't be an opiod crisis in america with 1000's if not millions are dying from OD.

Anyway i'll leave it upto members on here belief someone on here claiming to know about something or believe assisted suicide experts that produce the PPH, it's a no brainer really!!!!

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IV Narcan (naloxone) can quickly reverse the nastiest of opioid ODs. It's an amazing antidote but most of us here are not a fan : )

One of the reasons why barbiturates are considered the gold standard.
 
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I would say if you find a place you can't be found, no1 can intervene with narcan. I mean even some of the opiod abusers can't be saved using the reversal drug and die. As with most methods not being found is high on the agenda, if people just do things where they will be found, the will most probably 'fail' due to not following that advise
 
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checkouttime said:
This method can also be potentiated using grapefruit juice to increase its potency and make it even more deadly, i have listed a page from the PPH with the information. If fentanyl wasn't so deadly then you wouldn't see endless documentaries about it and there wouldn't be an opiod crisis in america with 1000's if not millions are dying from OD.

Anyway i'll leave it upto members on here belief someone on here claiming to know about something or believe assisted suicide experts that produce the PPH, it's a no brainer really!!!!

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Hey can u tell me more pls? I also live in the UK and I really want a fentanyl OD but no idea how/where to start
 
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Vault of Memories said:
I used to get the 60mg Kadian back in the day which were extended releases that came in capsules too. Just like you said, could open it up and eat or crush and rail the beads.

For a while have been getting these circular 100mg ones that just have an M on one side and a 100 on the other. Trying to look up the brand for you and it describes them as gray, though they are more blueish to me.

Sometimes I used to get those 100mg MS Contin pills.

You heavy into it? I’ve been messing around with them for a few years, but have gone months without them. Wouldn’t say I’m addicted, but obviously I love the feeling. I usually don’t reside throughout the day, so I think that helps with not going through the terrible withdrawals, though I have had some bad ones where I can’t sleep after using everyday for weeks.

I think taking a lot would have you knocks out pretty fast, though with extended release you might get the nauseous and dizziness feeling. I know some people get nauseous just taking prescribed doses of M.
Jheeezeee 100mg a pill!!

I have fucking 10s lol, usually would take 4, 5 or 6 depending on how monging I wanna be. Alongside smoking a shit ton of bud on top of that ofc. Maybe a ciggy too. Cigs on morphine fucking sends you lol.


I'm not like heavy into it. Started sipping lean like maybe 2ish years ago. Ya know, like 150mg codeine over 40 minutes or something, just sat there monginggg in like super super intense euphoria - especially once I worked up to like 200mg, then 300mg.

Realised how fucking good/suited the opiod high is for me, so tried like trammies next. Fucking love that drug, definitely my favorite opiod. There must be something about how my body metabolises it or some shit, because I seem to get such a better high from it then everyone else.

and just kept exploring different opiods a bit ya know.
only problem is the feeling is just so good. I really try not to take them, because I could easily take them everyday. definitely the perfect category of drugs for me personally.


at the moment, I haven't formed a regular habit of taking them - and that's really what I need to maintain. because if it ever becomes a regular habit, I'd really struggle.

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Jheeezeee 100mg a pill!!

I have fucking 10s lol, usually would take 4, 5 or 6 depending on how monging I wanna be. Alongside smoking a shit ton of bud on top of that ofc. Maybe a ciggy too. Cigs on morphine fucking sends you lol.


I'm not like heavy into it. Started sipping lean like maybe 2ish years ago. Ya know, like 150mg codeine over 40 minutes or something, just sat there monginggg in like super super intense euphoria - especially once I worked up to like 200mg, then 300mg.

Realised how fucking good/suited the opiod high is for me, so tried like trammies next. Fucking love that drug, definitely my favorite opiod. There must be something about how my body metabolises it or some shit, because I seem to get such a better high from it then everyone else.

and just kept exploring different opiods a bit ya know.
only problem is the feeling is just so good. I really try not to take them, because I could easily take them everyday. definitely the perfect category of drugs for me personally.


at the moment, I haven't formed a regular habit of taking them - and that's really what I need to maintain. because if it ever becomes a regular habit, I'd really struggle.

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Would obviously recommend not making a habit out of it. Again, 100mg are high pills but I have a tolerance at times, or go on/off them for a day or two so I don’t get too into them.

Today was the worst in a while as I took half (roughly 50mg) before going to work along with my kpin dosage and Topamax, and Vitamin D pill (deficiency).

After work I did take a full 100mg and then 2 hours later ended up railing a 20mg Addy and the other half of the M from this morning (roughly 50mg). Addy was because I wanted to clean my room a bit and then studied some shit for work. Now I’m doing another “no no” and having a cigar and on my second beer. Obviously it’s hypocritical of my to say to not mess with opioids/opiates, but I’m still at the point where I could just not take any tomorrow. However, I am feeling that annoying itchy feeling right now you get from them.

again, would just say to be careful man, since I really can’t stop you from taking them. Hypocritical again on my part as this morning I mixed 50mg with 1mg of kolonopin and just recently in a short amount of time took 150mg of M, 20mg of Addy, and on my second beer (first being a Kolsch at around 4.7%, this one a Hazy DIPA at 7.0%, both 16oz beers). Just please make sure you do your research and avoid mixing it with alcohol, benzos, etc. for your own health. Just feel I’m obligated to say that. I know we’re on a pro-choice suicide, but I can’t imagine ODing accidentally to be a pleasant experience - same with severe opioid/opiate addiction. I know why you’d be inclined to take them though. Opioid/opiate highs are one of the best feelings I’ve ever experienced.
 
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Lean. Brilliant stuff.
Wear in the UK can you buy Codeine Linctus.
All of the online pharmacy stores have stopped selling it.
 
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Lean. Brilliant stuff.
Wear in the UK can you buy Codeine Linctus.
All of the online pharmacy stores have stopped selling it.

I've just google searched it and added some to a cart on a website, took me about 10 seconds to find it!!!! I think some sites have stopped selling it though, i think it says no longer available on a few
 
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Not in the UK you won't. All online pharmacys have stop selling it. It's now a P med on prescription only.
 
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Not in the UK you won't. All online pharmacys have stop selling it. It's now a P med on prescription only.

i just added 6 bottles to a cart on a website and it will come to the uk!!(just to test a random number to buy!!) like i said some sites aren't selling it anymore though
 
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Never.
Before you could only add one bottle oer order.

Let us know of the UK Pharmacy if you can.
Thanks.
What's the Pharmacy you added 6 bottles to.
Cheers.
 
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Never.
Before you could only add one bottle oer order.

Let us know of the UK Pharmacy if you can.
Thanks.

I haven't actually bought it, just saw it on a site and added 6 bottles for a random amount lol.

EDIT actually it says error when i just went to look in the cart. it lets you add them but then won't open the cart says error.

Now looking further into it, i think the company may no longer sell the product at all??
 
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Never.
Before you could only add one bottle oer order.

Let us know of the UK Pharmacy if you can.
Thanks.
What's the Pharmacy you added 6 bottles to.
Cheers.

were not allowed to discuss sources/websites

i have gone back on he site and checked. when i tried opening the basket to look at the stuff it came up error. for some reason they have it advertised but then it can't be bought lol
 
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Personal messageemail if you like.
It's all good any way.
You cannot buy this medicine any more.
 
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Jheeezeee 100mg a pill!!

I have fucking 10s lol, usually would take 4, 5 or 6 depending on how monging I wanna be. Alongside smoking a shit ton of bud on top of that ofc. Maybe a ciggy too. Cigs on morphine fucking sends you lol.


I'm not like heavy into it. Started sipping lean like maybe 2ish years ago. Ya know, like 150mg codeine over 40 minutes or something, just sat there monginggg in like super super intense euphoria - especially once I worked up to like 200mg, then 300mg.

Realised how fucking good/suited the opiod high is for me, so tried like trammies next. Fucking love that drug, definitely my favorite opiod. There must be something about how my body metabolises it or some shit, because I seem to get such a better high from it then everyone else.

and just kept exploring different opiods a bit ya know.
only problem is the feeling is just so good. I really try not to take them, because I could easily take them everyday. definitely the perfect category of drugs for me personally.


at the moment, I haven't formed a regular habit of taking them - and that's really what I need to maintain. because if it ever becomes a regular habit, I'd really struggle.

:)
Tramadol does that to me too I was addicted to it for a few years daily I havnt touched it for about 2 now but I always have the urge to get them it’s the best high
 
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