I want to die because:

  • I'm ill

    Votes: 20 16.5%
  • I have no place or purpose in life

    Votes: 34 28.1%
  • I'm in a difficult situation

    Votes: 10 8.3%
  • I've made big mistakes

    Votes: 11 9.1%
  • I was bullied

    Votes: 2 1.7%
  • I have no real friends

    Votes: 3 2.5%
  • I was abused

    Votes: 4 3.3%
  • I'm tired

    Votes: 21 17.4%
  • Other reason

    Votes: 16 13.2%

  • Total voters
    121
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nuclearsnake

Student
Jul 11, 2018
147
Quite a few of the reasons fit me. I had a shitty childhood, was abused, am ugly, have no social skills and am trans and my dysphoria is killing me (my shitty country I loves gatekeeping so no HRT or surgeries anytime in the future and I'm already old as fuck).

I'm tired of fighting it all. Every day is endless torture.
 
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NoHope

Member
Aug 7, 2018
44
I have no place or purpose in life, I'm in a difficult situation, I was bullied, I'm tired, other reason
Voted other reason
Ill also if autism/chronic depression/OCD counts

I suffer from depression and OCD too.
For me they are debilitating and have caused so much suffering that I can't even function properly.
 
Zanexx

Zanexx

Dead
Jul 15, 2018
190
I suffer from depression and OCD too.
For me they are debilitating and have caused so much suffering that I can't even function properly.
My OCD involves washing my hands near constantly (I always carry wipes with my and clean my hands approximately twice a minute on average); hygiene paranoia relating to food etc.; feeling a compulsion to write down every thought that comes into my head, however mundane, which has been the case since I was a child: if I'm on a computer I create documents or similar and then save them or I have my phone with me all the time and use the notepad on there, or if I don't have access to either I have to use whatever I can find to write on (this is the only way I can cope with processing); the stereotypical having to touch things or do them a certain amount of times or in a certain order and the list goes on.
 
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Laggy

Laggy

Member
Jul 20, 2018
31
I chose ill, but I don't mean physically ill.
Addiction, failure in almost every area of my life, laziness/lethargy, depression, absolute disgust with myself as a person, all contribute to my desire to die.
 
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Suicideisnirvana

Suicideisnirvana

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Aug 4, 2018
312
Other reasons, for me it's half personal problems, half disgust with life and its structure. The fact that all is based on Luck and Looks, that people like you if you are goodlooking and you get all the perks and you have to climb a mountain if not good looking just to attain the basics of what a goodlooking person have, the lotery of birth, people being born in poverty and the injustice, aninal farming, this will always disgusts me even if my personal problems were solved magically.
 
Mona

Mona

Oliver
Aug 14, 2018
3
I've fallen in love with someone who I have no chance with, I've been mentally and physically abused. I have no one by my side except for a few friends. And I'm just tired of it all.
 
deflagrat

deflagrat

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Apr 9, 2018
360
I am useless, suffering severe cognitive symptoms from schizophrenia and probably some other stuff I don't know about.
 
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DoneFighting

Student
Aug 14, 2018
102
I spent my 20s prepping for life. I was responsible, did what I was supposed to. Everything backfired. I abuse vodka and can't control it. I wrecked my relationship, pushed away friends. My asshole ex is trying to clean me out even though everything I have to show for my life was acquired before marriage .I'm sick of fighting my alcohol problem, sick of dealing with lawyers, sick of fighting my thoughts. I just want peace I just want to be gone. I've made many attempts, had all my guns taken from me when my boyfriend shows up randomly. Last attempt was Sunday I found my handgun while wasted finally got the balls to pull the trigger and it didn't go off. So now I'm here dealing with another week, putting my fake face on. I'm going to plan better next time.
 
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NoHope

Member
Aug 7, 2018
44
My OCD involves washing my hands near constantly (I always carry wipes with my and clean my hands approximately twice a minute on average); hygiene paranoia relating to food etc.; feeling a compulsion to write down every thought that comes into my head, however mundane, which has been the case since I was a child: if I'm on a computer I create documents or similar and then save them or I have my phone with me all the time and use the notepad on there, or if I don't have access to either I have to use whatever I can find to write on (this is the only way I can cope with processing); the stereotypical having to touch things or do them a certain amount of times or in a certain order and the list goes on.
I have similar compulsions. I have had OCD for 10+ years now (since I was a kid).
I also have to write down thoughts and take notes/lists, take long showers, touch/do things multiple times and everything has to be "just right" or perfect, etc., etc. I doubt everything and have a fear of making a mistake, I constantly have to reassure myself or ask for reassurance. I'm afraid that people find it annoying but I can't stop, it feels terrible.
It sucks. I have a lot of compulsions and obsessions, some of them come and go and some are impossible to get rid of. :(
 
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shin

Member
Jul 11, 2018
9
Life is bullshit and I'm tired of it, I don't even care about my mental illnesses, absolute lack of friends, the shitty place I'm in, the big mistakes I've made or how mistreated I was, it's all pointless. I just want perfect nothing, forever.