- Jul 15, 2018
The police are here now. My friend called them, so we probably aren't friends anymore. It seems like I'm not going to be sectioned but they're making me talk to a crisis team. Still hoping to ctb in two days.
Any advice for the (NHS) crisis team? I'm seeing them in two hours.I also learned the hard way that with this sort of stuff you can't really trust anyone unless they 100% understand it already.
You're lucky you weren't imprisoned, but those crisis teams don't mess around:
Any advice for the (NHS) crisis team? I'm seeing them in two hours.
I'm feeling even worse now especially given my friend raised the alarm to my mother, who has now told everyone, so I woke up to harassment and have now had to block calls.
Getting better since last night? It feels sort of improbable that I would begin recovery so rapidly. With the police last night, I was calm and collected, smiled and made jokes with them and had a level voice.Being in Australia I haven't dealt with the UK NHS myself (just felt like posting a pic of the crisis battlesuit), but if they're like any other "mental health" team you'll need to play along and pretend that it was just a passing cloud and that you're "getting better".
Given that they're a crisis team you'll need to remain calm and collected, perhaps with some remorse. Watch your words and body language. They don't want someone dying on their watch and getting penalized after all. Agree to future appointments and attend them until you ctb, that in itself should dispel quite a bit of the suspicion.
I know it's a bit late to say now but you really, really have to be careful who you talk to about this sort of stuff if you value your freedom.
Getting better since last night? It feels sort of improbable that I would begin recovery so rapidly. With the police last night, I was calm and collected, smiled and made jokes with them and had a level voice.
Remorse for what? Wanting to ctb? I feel like there's a limit to pretending. I was planning to agree to any appointments they suggested at least.
I told the crisis team person I spoke to on the phone via the police that I began having suicidal ideation at age 6 or 7 (she asked) so I'm not sure it being a "passing cloud" would fly, although I guess I could say it goes up and down a lot and I'm feeling less suicidal than yesterday.
That would suck given all the money I've spent. Luckily though, the materials they saw evidence of are either no longer needed, cheap or easily replaceable: they didn't see my grill etc. and it's hidden so they can't *prove* I have it.
You shouldn't kill yourself because life is beautiful!! = I know you're telling me you absolutely hate this TV show and don't want to watch it, but I think it's a good TV show therefore that is an objective fact and you should be forcibly made to watch it! So I'm going to strap you down and pin your eyes open a la A Clockwork Orange
Some people get married and do it impulsively or for the wrong reasons = absolutely anyone who chooses to get married no matter how long they've been together or how much consideration they've given it is being impulsive and stupid = pro-life logic
Hey guys, just to update you. The police left on the condition I visit the mental health team today
I don't know if they "can" confiscate stuff but all of mine is still intact.Thank god you weren't sectioned. I'm in the UK, a similar age and was locked up last week. Its such a shit place.
I would be so pissed at the friend if I were you but you really can't blame them. People will always do what they have to in order to stop you. Annoying, but natural and just means they care. To be successful it's best to not give any details to anyone now, and not cause any suspicion, as I'm sure you know.
Out of curiosity, are they allowed to confiscate the rope, or tent? I've also been trying to limit contact with any family but my mother was informed of what happened and my whereabouts. It's very frustrating having people aware and get involved. But this has been a good wake up call for me teaching what it takes for a successful attempt as I'm sure it has for you. Good luck.
I don't know if they "can" confiscate stuff but all of mine is still intact.
To my mind, that would be stealing to take legal possessions from someone who is rational and lucid. Owning rope and a BBQ is not illegal. Let me have my BBQ ffs.
How long were you locked up for and how did get out? Just in case I get "saved".
Also, I know most people are instinctively compelled to prevent suicide especially by those they're attached to, but it still makes me feel betrayed and angry. To me it is selfish, even if it's a selfishness they can't help. The friend who ratted me out used to have a cat until she died earlier in the year. The cat was old, blind, deaf, in pain and struggling to eat for years, but he refused to take her to the vet's and have her put down because he was attached to her. To me it feels like he is operating in the same way again. It's different in that my chronic problems aren't physical and I'm not asking him to actually take me somewhere to be euthanised or have any role in it, but his psychology seems to be the same in both cases.
You're on section 2 right? Read my new thread: I got out!I'm still locked up, it's supposedly a maximum of 28 days. But I would advise you to not even consider getting caught, and have a careful plan that is near impossible for this to happen. Sounds obvious, but you really don't want to end up here.
I see what you're saying about keeping people alive, and it definitely is selfish. On the other hand they will say that suicide is selfish because you cause them pain (lol). There will always be a disconnect in perspectives between us and non suicidal people, so practically speaking I guess all we can do it get on with it without their permission or seek 'help'.
Edit: just read that you're being held. Fuck. Just gotta do your time now. By the way the people at this early stage will lie to you and dig for information that all feeds back into your assessment. Do not tell anyone anything 'bad', I saw a post a minute ago about mentioning positive future plans in life etc. This is also good advice.