- Jul 24, 2018
I'm 42 years old. I've lived through childhood abuse and domestic violence as an adult. I've been on disability since 2011. I'm nonfunctional at this point. I stay in bed most of the time. I have no friends and no social life. I spend some time with my brother. He doesn't understand and I just fake things with him so he doesn't have to worry. I have a cat that I love with all my heart. He's been my sole reason for living but lately I have been considering maybe someone else could take care of him better. I'm on meds. I've tried many. They don't help. I'm in therapy but can only go every 3 weeks due to expense and the therapist being so booked because it's a community mental health center. I'm alone most days and can go days without human interaction. Death seems my only option. I've been thinking of hanging myself on my door.