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motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,906
"I bear the wounds of all the battles I avoided."

You're fucked if you do, fucked if you don't...

In the clearing stands a boxer
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of every glove that laid him down
And cut him till he cried out
In his anger and his shame
"I am leaving, I am leaving"
But the fighter still remains
He still remains...

-- Paul Simon
 
BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
427
"Life is hell, and the sweet still night of absolute death is the annihilation of hell"
--Mainländer

“Death is not an evil, because it frees us from all evils, and while it takes away good things, it takes away also the desire for them."
--Giacomo Leopardi
 
Largeletters

Largeletters

Alone
Jan 21, 2020
643
Norman Bates:
You know what I think? I think that we're all in our private traps, clamped in them, and none of us can ever get out. We scratch and we claw, but only at the air, only at each other, and for all of it, we never budge an inch.

Marion Crane:
Sometimes, we deliberately step into those traps.

Norman Bates:
I was born into mine.

-Psycho (1960)
 
J

January-ish

Member
Aug 23, 2020
10

".......The feeling comes, vague and nebulous, when I consider the prolonged adolescence of our species; the rites of birth, marriage and death; all the primitive, barbaric ceremonies streamlined to modern times. Almost, I think, the unreasoning, bestial purity was best. Oh, something is there, waiting for me. Perhaps someday the revelation will burst in upon me and I will see the other side of this monumental grotesque joke. And then I'll laugh. And then I'll know what life is." ~Sylvia Plath​

 
UseItOrLoseIt

UseItOrLoseIt

1O'8
Dec 4, 2020
2,056
"I drift in and out of people’s lives,
Like a feather in the breeze,
You never really know I’m there,
Until I start to leave,
I don’t make my connections deep,
Because I’m scared of what I’ll lose,
I don’t try to compete with anyone else,
And I’ll never make you choose,
I prefer to stick to the sidelines,
Because the spotlight hurts my eyes,
I hide behind a constant smile,
So you won’t know it’s a disguise,
People tend to forget I’m there,
When I’m in a crowded room,
I can disappear for days on end,
And I’m bound to do it soon,
Don’t worry if you notice I’m gone,
I never meant to stay,
But I know that you won’t miss me long,
I’ll be forgotten in a day."

--Erin Hanson
 
B

Ballehert

Member
Jun 15, 2021
9
"I had no children, I did not pass on the legacy of our misery to any creature." - Dom Casmurro by Machado de Assis

"I think human consciousness, is a tragic misstep in evolution. We became too self-aware, nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself, we are creatures that should not exist by natural law. We are things that labor under the illusion of having a self; an accretion of sensory, experience and feeling, programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody, when in fact everybody is nobody." - Rust Cohle (True Detective)

"I think the honorable thing for our species to do is deny our programming. Stop reproducing. Walk hand in hand into extinction, one last midnight. Brothers and sisters opting out of a raw deal." - Rust Cohle (True Detective)
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,906
The boy in the belfry
He's crazy, he's throwing himself
Down from the top of the tower
Like a hunchback in heaven
He's ringing the bells in the church
For the last half an hour
And it sounds like he's missing something
Or someone that he knows he can't have now
And if he isn't, I certainly am

-- Suzanne Vega
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,906
I am lovely and meek
I am foul when I speak
I am strange when I'm kind
I am frying my mind
Am I, am I getting through?
(I don't care, I don't care!)
Jesus loves me, I know
For my Mom told me so
I'm a loser at love
I'm a flower in the mud
Am I, am I getting through?
(I don't care, I don't really care)
 
motel rooms

motel rooms

So sodomitic.
Apr 13, 2021
5,906
Look at my hands, priest. I have good hands. They are calloused and dirty, but they are good. They could have killed that ugly man, but they forgave. They chose to love and bleed for others instead. They worked tirelessly in these muddy, filthy fields. They nursed my wife when she fell ill and died. They held my boy and wiped his tears as he screamed for his mother. Now he is dead too and they are completely empty. Now they must bury him, find a rope and make a noose. Please leave. I know your secret, priest. I know that you don't believe in God anymore either.

-- A. Antunov
 
X

x_riverrock11

Enlightened
Jan 24, 2021
1,652
Look at my hands, priest. I have good hands. They are calloused and dirty, but they are good. They could have killed that ugly man, but they forgave. They chose to love and bleed for others instead. They worked tirelessly in these muddy, filthy fields. They nursed my wife when she fell ill and died. They held my boy and wiped his tears as he screamed for his mother. Now he is dead too and they are completely empty. Now they must bury him, find a rope and make a noose. Please leave. I know your secret, priest. I know that you don't believe in God anymore either.

-- A. Antunov
Damn. What is this from?
 
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