ImsooDone1N

ImsooDone1N

Arcanist
Nov 22, 2018
670
9.70/10.00 - absolute shit. At Least I pickup my Klonopin (60 x 1mg clonazepam) & MSIR (120 x 30mg Morphine sulfate tabs) today. So, least I’ll have those later-hopefully they help a bit. Klonopin + Morphine + Cannabis/ THC usually takes edge off.
 
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RDPH

New Member
Mar 20, 2022
2
Today was a very bad and down day for me. I would rate it as an 8. I had strong feelings to simply down every pill (prescription and over-the-counter) in the house and drink a bottle of vodka. Today, for some reason I realized how useless I was and how unnecessary I am in the big picture of things. I am simply taking up space and using resources. Not necessary for me to be around anymore.
 
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Im.so.tired

Im.so.tired

Member
Apr 30, 2021
14
9. Im so done with everything. So done being alone. So done having to be responsible for everything. So done with all the horrible thoughts about how useless i am. So done.
 
Everlong

Everlong

One last chance to turn it around
Sep 7, 2022
105
I came into some magic mushrooms so I do have some hope nature might fix nature, if only fir a little bit. I honestly don’t want to CTB but options are like dollars in my wallet. Not many.
SN shipment got screwed up so new bottle in route. What a comfort to have a plan and ability. It’s always just been a plan and the ugh of “What if?”.
I came into some magic mushrooms so I do have some hope nature might fix nature, if only fir a little bit. I honestly don’t want to CTB but options are like dollars in my wallet. Not many.
SN shipment got screwed up so new bottle in route. What a comfort to have a plan and ability. It’s always just been a plan and the ugh of “What if?”.
4 today. But been hanging at 8-9 as of late.
 
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lugerepair

I don't like life
Oct 15, 2020
159
8.5 I guess. I really really really want to die but I know that I don't have the means and I don't want to mess up my suicide and wind up worse off. I think it's really inhumane the way that society doesn't provide us the means to die when we choose to. Life sucks. People are so delusional that they don't realize that life sucks. FUCK.
 
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outrider567

Paragon
Apr 5, 2022
925
9.8--Patti's last 2 chairs I got rid of today, had to, they were triggers, she was crazy about those 2 chairs, one red, one eggplant one ,also a small dresser of hers---Her bedroom is empty now, except for her stripped bed---An empty lifeless room now, but a full happy room still in my memories
 
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nixxeekes

nixxeekes

Member
Jul 3, 2022
7
1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.
I think I'm at 7/10. I want to go already, sometimes the thought of dying never leaves my head throughout the day. But when I spend time doing stuff I like, I'm not complaining. The other 3 points are my will to live, I guess.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,155
Today a 7 hovering close to an 8. Yesterday was pretty bad but I am a bit calmer today but still upset over everything I realized recently....
 
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Aurora_chaser

Aurora_chaser

Fulfilled
Apr 12, 2021
14
Today is a 4. It’s a hum at the back of my mind that I can hear when I’m still, so I’m choosing not to be still. I’m putting on some clothes and going out to hike with some friends.

I know ultimately that I am CTB, but I want to do it in a way that doesn’t leave my friends with the feeling that I betrayed them, so it has to wait for now.