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FullFat

FullFat

^best order at Micky-D's ever
Apr 27, 2018
375
Yep, I take a lot more risks with alcohol and my medications, and my (already aggressive) driving somehow gets even more aggressive.
 
Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
Yes I do I have been highly self destructive in the past and did bad drug combinations involving Benadryl alchohol energy drinks elavil and meth all together. Drank half a bottle of gin mixed with Benadryl and elavil. Have had problems with being hyper sexual. Used to black out on purpose because I didn’t care. I tend to crave being in fucked up situations also.
 
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DeletedUser4739

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Absolutely! The only time in over four decades of life I got arrested was due to the most severe manic episode I have ever had. I managed to struggle through 40 years, only to have my mental illness combine with a shit person to give me a record.
 
Smilla

Smilla

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Apr 30, 2018
2,549
I’m hyper self destructive—haven’t done hard drugs in recent years but if you count alcoholism, smoking, paying bills late, not exercising as “self destructive” then yes.

I had about 10 years wherein I took care of myself but now I can’t be bothered.

CTB will be the best gift I give myself. And others around me.
 
Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
I’ll add spending issues to my list.somehow went through $80k in two years and now nothing and this was money from selling my condo which is my biggest mistake literally woke up one day after blacking our and girl that was with me left I said fuck everything and flew up north and sold my place then moved to Maine for a girl I barely knew.
 
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DeletedUser4739

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I’ll add spending issues to my list.somehow went through $80k in two years and now nothing and this was money from selling my condo which is my biggest mistake literally woke up one day after blacking our and girl that was with me left I said fuck everything and flew up north and sold my place then moved to Maine for a girl I barely knew.
Same here. Money management is certainly not one of my strengths.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
Same here. Money management is certainly not one of my strengths.
It’s usually when I’m hypomanic and start a new hobby or back then it was nice hotel rooms after I broke up with ex in Maine. Right after drove 24 hours straight from Maine to fl to get this girl that was partially reason I moved and she put me through insanity saying this fucked up group was after her.
 
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Rex

Rex

Lonely af
May 25, 2018
169
I can be quite self destructive with my behaviours when I'm super low, yeah. From self harming to spending all the money I have to risky sex, you name it. I don't take good care of myself physically either... but that one is always the case.

It's all self though, like within. I rarely act out at people unless they purposely go out their way to piss me off.
 
Tiburcio

Tiburcio

Voluntary deletion.
May 9, 2018
1,573
In that state I'm... demonic. I can't describe it with other word.

Not just for me, I end ruining everything and harming people who is around me. I'm super self- destructive, but I also am destructive for others. I don't even notice it until it's too late. It sucks.
 
here4now

here4now

The ride never ends!
Jun 13, 2018
21
Yup. I do a lot of stupid things that I wouldn't do when I'm feeling better. I often hope that when I finally jump in front of a truck it will end up looking like an accident.

It would also be interesting to find out who would win: 20000kg vehicle or 75kg of mental illness?