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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
902
I saw a really good dream, I wanted to record it. I wish it was possible to record them like you record videos. I could draw them, but I'm not at a level that the drawings would do justice to the dreams.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
902
You know how half of the nights/days I don't sleep a single second and the other half I sleep from 11-15 till 15-24?

Well today I was finally able to fall asleep at around 24 UNTIL GOD OR SATAN OR SOMETHING SENT A MOTHERFUCKER TO RING MY DOORBELL AT 4:30!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since I suffer from a really serious insomnia that will probably be the death of me since I haven't slept well for a year now, this is like having a leg that aches a lot and you can barely walk for a year, then it finally one day stops hurting and you feel a lot better, and you are really happy that you don't need a surgery and it was possible for the pain to disappear, and then at 4:30 in the night some asshole breaks into your house, takes a hammer, smashes your leg dead, and leaves.

Then when I tried to go to bed again, neighbor's dogs started bark at 5:30. And then at 6:30 one neighbor is doing something with their car.

This is why I hate most humans. You can't trust them. Now I have a really unsafe feeling. I feel like I need an army of marines to defend me. Or maybe I'll buy a pack of guard dogs.

Now I can't get off the feeling that someone is out there to kill me or rape me or make false accusations or complain or harass or bully or steal or break property etc. I wish people left me alone. I never approach strangers (unless they have a friendly dog and even then it's really rare like once in a year), I wish strangers wouldn't approach me. (talking about irl strangers, online people are cool, because they are very unlikely to fly (especially during corona times) from Australia to Europe, find my address, and do something bad).
 
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Stuffz43

Member
Feb 14, 2020
6
I'm finally ready to ctb after having been preparing for soooo long, but now I've reached the last and hardest hurdle - my survival instinct is stopping me. Can't believe how powerful that is, be nice if my brain did what I ordered it too.

That's pretty much all I got to say.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,239
Details, please.
Basically once MCU Peter accidentally gets villains from past Spider-Man movies into his universe, he finds out that for most of them they were transported from right before they were about to die. Knowing this, he doesn’t feel right about him directly sending them back to their deaths so he gets the idea from his aunt that he should try to fix all of them instead. To do this, they needed to be “cured” of their insanity or destructive powers so they use the MCU’s superior technology to develop cures for each villain. Some of them, like Green Goblin or Sandman, required anti-serums to be cured and these were administered via injection. Of course by the end of the movie all the villains are indeed successfully cured and given really happy endings before they get sent back to their original worlds meaning they were also forgiven for all their evil deeds.

So basically what I was trying to say/joke about is that the movie was trying to say that the key to redemption lies in getting injected with a cure, aka getting vaccinated. Vaccines save lives. 🤪
 
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StarryStarry

Specialist
Oct 25, 2021
338
My wife's boss got into a car accident today, and I'm angry that he survived.
OMG!!! I wish my ex-boss would go the same way! I would call him an asshole, but an asshole has a purpose - and he has no purpose on this earth except to be a horrible person who doesn't need to be here. If I ever see his obituary, I will celebrate!!!
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
902
Basically once MCU Peter accidentally gets villains from past Spider-Man movies into his universe, he finds out that for most of them they were transported from right before they were about to die. Knowing this, he doesn’t feel right about him directly sending them back to their deaths so he gets the idea from his aunt that he should try to fix all of them instead. To do this, they needed to be “cured” of their insanity or destructive powers so they use the MCU’s superior technology to develop cures for each villain. Some of them, like Green Goblin or Sandman, required anti-serums to be cured and these were administered via injection. Of course by the end of the movie all the villains are indeed successfully cured and given really happy endings before they get sent back to their original worlds meaning they were also forgiven for all their evil deeds.

So basically what I was trying to say/joke about is that the movie was trying to say that the key to redemption lies in getting injected with a cure, aka getting vaccinated. Vaccines save lives. 🤪
Lol, I have never heard of that kind of story in a movie! (not that I watch many movies, but still).

Imagine if they had been turned good and they had still died instantly after getting back into their old worlds so turning them good would have been a complete waste lol, would have made it ten times funnier. I wish I was a bad guy in a Spider man universe, getting a good ending would be nice. I could beat up my bullies in minecraft, tell everyone that I got vaccinated, and everyone would think that I'm now a good guy. I hope they didn't have to show proof of their vaccination in their old worlds. Imagine if Stalin came back here and said he was now vaccinated and good and everyone believed him lol.

I remember when the only vaccines in movies were vaccine type Digimon. Hmm, it's a wonder they haven't advertised vaccines with Digimon. Take a vaccine and turn from Ladydevimon into Angewomon. X'D

I actually heard that in one country they had a "get free sex with a prostitute if you get vaccinated" campaign. XD

Finally a chance for us virgins to get laid for free lol!

I hope they stop those stupid jabs. A real vaccine is something that you only take once in your life or max once every few years and that actually works and doesn't increase your risk of getting diseases. And I'm really angry that we get free vaccines, even though dying from covid is really rare, yet we don't get free food or water or heating even though a human will die without those! "There's a homeless person dying of hunger, thirst, and cold! Let's give them a free jab!
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,239
Lol, I have never heard of that kind of story in a movie! (not that I watch many movies, but still).

Imagine if they had been turned good and they had still died instantly after getting back into their old worlds so turning them good would have been a complete waste lol, would have made it ten times funnier. I wish I was a bad guy in a Spider man universe, getting a good ending would be nice. I could beat up my bullies in minecraft, tell everyone that I got vaccinated, and everyone would think that I'm now a good guy. I hope they didn't have to show proof of their vaccination in their old worlds. Imagine if Stalin came back here and said he was now vaccinated and good and everyone believed him lol.

I remember when the only vaccines in movies were vaccine type Digimon. Hmm, it's a wonder they haven't advertised vaccines with Digimon. Take a vaccine and turn from Ladydevimon into Angewomon. X'D

I actually heard that in one country they had a "get free sex with a prostitute if you get vaccinated" campaign. XD

Finally a chance for us virgins to get laid for free lol!

I hope they stop those stupid jabs. A real vaccine is something that you only take once in your life or max once every few years and that actually works and doesn't increase your risk of getting diseases. And I'm really angry that we get free vaccines, even though dying from covid is really rare, yet we don't get free food or water or heating even though a human will die without those! "There's a homeless person dying of hunger, thirst, and cold! Let's give them a free jab!
Dang, I sorta wish I had known about that article and held out a little longer before getting my jabs although I guess I don’t really actually have a way of getting to Austria anyway. Maybe they’ll allow people getting their boosters. 😅

But yeah, it’s a shame how many governments are responding to this pandemic that can’t even kill 1/1000th of the global population by enacting heavy authoritarianism and prioritizing it over many other necessary matters.

At the very least, in the movie I think it was implied they were sent from a moment in time early enough that they weren’t immediately going to die right after (like with Dr. Octopus, who arrived and hadn’t reformed yet which happens a few minutes before he dies in Spider-Man 2). It’s not shown in the movie itself but it’s plausible that when they came back redeemed they would then surrender immediately or at the very least be able to easily show they are no longer a threat… I think if that were possible for me I’d risk getting pricked by needles but instead I just got some mild symptoms and am otherwise still quite unhappy in general.
 
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Circles

Circles

There's a difference between existing and living.
Sep 3, 2018
1,702
You say you miss people but life forces you to move on and you end up only caring only so much to the point that it amounts ash.
 
GentleSoul

GentleSoul

Here, but not 'there'...
Dec 14, 2021
411
Someone said to me once, "I'm beached as."

I said "Okay... nice to meet you, Daz."

He just laughed at me for like 10 minutes. Didn't even tell me about the stupid whale video. True story.
 
Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
7,812
I've been sorta obsessing about reading about Chris Watts and the murders of his wife and kids. I'm not victim shaming but the more I look into it the more I see the terrible situation he was in with his wife. She was an extreme spender, they basically just had his income, she was obsessed with filming herself and family selling her wacky shakes and energy bars, she berated him, she made up her illness and made up illnesses for her young kids, they were behind on their mortgage and had 0 money and she was pregnant again. He started an affair and got to hike around and see life outside of her vapid narccissitic reality. She went away for 6 weeks to her family and he got a breather from her intense consumption of money and him and their kids. He killed her upon her return from a stupid business trip that consisted of spending more money to invest in something that wasn't pulling in money. I've really never seen people who could aquire this shit they had on the income he got. Her videos are all over Youtube. I feel very sad that he killed his small kids. They loved him and I think he loved them back. I can't comprehend how he got the nerve or craziness to kill them but he must have seen it as it would be impossible to raise them on his own. I don't know. The case/situation is really interesting. He was a seemingly cool dude married to a bitch and couldn't take it when he should have left her...but she would have always been winning somehow. She should have become a real estate agent. She had the looks and personality. To sell energy shakes online to FB followers is so fucking STUPID.

I feel sorry for him in that he has to spend the rest of his existence in prision though the murders were ghastly and horrible. He said he has only God to judge him and wants to mentor other prisoners. I think he is delusional and probably a narcississit but I don't think he was a narc in the 8 years he was with her. I think he was put down and used.

Sorry for the huge pic. I wish it was smaller.

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Oh yes this was an amazing documentary, on how fake Facebook can be. I was shocked what he did to those little girls.
I've been sorta obsessing about reading about Chris Watts and the murders of his wife and kids. I'm not victim shaming but the more I look into it the more I see the terrible situation he was in with his wife. She was an extreme spender, they basically just had his income, she was obsessed with filming herself and family selling her wacky shakes and energy bars, she berated him, she made up her illness and made up illnesses for her young kids, they were behind on their mortgage and had 0 money and she was pregnant again. He started an affair and got to hike around and see life outside of her vapid narccissitic reality. She went away for 6 weeks to her family and he got a breather from her intense consumption of money and him and their kids. He killed her upon her return from a stupid business trip that consisted of spending more money to invest in something that wasn't pulling in money. I've really never seen people who could aquire this shit they had on the income he got. Her videos are all over Youtube. I feel very sad that he killed his small kids. They loved him and I think he loved them back. I can't comprehend how he got the nerve or craziness to kill them but he must have seen it as it would be impossible to raise them on his own. I don't know. The case/situation is really interesting. He was a seemingly cool dude married to a bitch and couldn't take it when he should have left her...but she would have always been winning somehow. She should have become a real estate agent. She had the looks and personality. To sell energy shakes online to FB followers is so fucking STUPID.

I feel sorry for him in that he has to spend the rest of his existence in prision though the murders were ghastly and horrible. He said he has only God to judge him and wants to mentor other prisoners. I think he is delusional and probably a narcississit but I don't think he was a narc in the 8 years he was with her. I think he was put down and used.

Sorry for the huge pic. I wish it was smaller.

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Also theres another on Netflix called don’t F with cats, my two speechless documentaries
 
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verywellthen

Member
Dec 16, 2021
22
Why has my brain developed a habit of waking me up at 4am and thinking that is the best time to try to solve problems which OF COURSE I am completely incapable of solving even at 4pm? Please stop it....
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,890
With all the bullshit going on, I hope he is okay.