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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I'm scared of dark and what scares me the most are the so called shadow people. When I was still living with my parents back in 2018 I was chilling in my room in complete darkness cause I was lazy to get up and turn on the lights. At one point for some reason I looked at one of the corners of the room and I swear I could see a distinct, different shadow humanoid like shape behind the curtain. I was like "is this real?" And hesitantly got up and turned on the TV for some light and then there was nothing anymore in that corner.

I blame it on my brain because I'm pretty skeptical when it comes to such things, but it felt so fucking real that it truly gave me the chills. I remember that back then I wasn't really that stressed, a factor which can contribute to seeing such things.

Then there's a WW2 photo of a German paratrooper in a forest, behind his shoulder there can be seen a humanoid shadow figure that stands out from the trees. I shared this photo last night in a thread about history. I've shown the photo to many people and they confirmed seeing it too.

I found this photo 2-3 years ago around 1 AM and it was kinda unsettling given how late into the night it was.

Some times I would look in detail at the photo and when I would zoom in to the part with the figure, well... I would get really anxious and feel deeply unsettled. I'd even feel like suffocating. It has this overall dark vibe that I can't explain. I truly wonder what happened after the photo was taken and what the fuck was that figure actually.

Anyways, no clue why I talk about these things while in complete darkness again :):):):).
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
Wow, only I posted on here for the last few days. (Unless there were blocked people that posted)

Well, in the meantime:

Hugs?
 
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paulstrong

paulstrong

Enlightened
May 5, 2020
1,043
horror comedy kill me now GIF
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
221
Stardew Valley is so fucking awesome. I always get dangerously addicted to it for a couple months, then take a break, then come back to it with the same passion. I'm in year 5. There's something incredibly relaxing about it.
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
Adulting is when you buy a duster and realize it is so soft that you don't want to let it go.
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I don't want to think anymore.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,323
I finally hit Master Rank in Pokémon Unite so for once I can actually feel good about myself…at least temporarily……..
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I'm fantasizing about the day when everything will end again and again, it's become very addictive.
 
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waitingforrest

Student
Dec 27, 2021
151
Stardew Valley is so fucking awesome. I always get dangerously addicted to it for a couple months, then take a break, then come back to it with the same passion. I'm in year 5. There's something incredibly relaxing about it.
F**k Marnie. My animals are starving and she is staring at the flipping microwave for the last 3 hours!!!!
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I hope the whole world gets nuked.
 
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LookieLou

Member
Dec 21, 2021
31
I saw photos of people that committed suicide and they scared me out of it but I still want the nothingness. It’s like a zero sum game of how cruel my life is. I encourage y’all to see photos of corpses and really think about what suicide is because I’m so freaked out. I’ve been wanting this for my whole life but to see intestines ripped out and crushed skulls and bloated, blue bodies has me freaked out. I wish I was dead but I don’t like the reality of death. Or living disabled.

I won’t be in that body anymore, so I’m not worried.
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I wish I was talented in writing cause holy salmon, I actually like to write.
 
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Cherry Crumpet

Cherry Crumpet

Hiraeth
May 7, 2018
169
I tripped on the sidewalk over basically my own fucking feet and nothing else and fell down hard. I hate looking like an idiot in public.
 
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Yungire

Yungire

A lonely satori
Dec 3, 2020
374
If a suicide commits suicide, should we count it as one more suicidal person or one less suicidal? -silly doubt-
 
lostundead

lostundead

Student
Mar 18, 2021
127
I know probably noone cares, which is why I didn't want to start a seperate thread, but just in case someone does- I'm leaving this site. The atmosphere here is just downright bad right now, not in small part due to the nyt article, and posting here is just not worth it for me anymore. More importantly my physical condition has improved subsistentially and I think it's time to distance myself from this forum to make a serious attempt at "recovery" and using this stroke of fortune for as long as it lasts.

I can't predict the course of my illness but it's very likely, consiring I may also be faced with homelessness in the future, I'll be back here sooner or later, if this forum still exists by then.

Much love to all and best wishes (even to the person who blocked me).
 
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Depressed Cat

Experienced
Jan 4, 2022
239
The New York Times is a filthy rag, not even worth as much as toilet paper. :angry:
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
910
Imagine monetizing people's suffering. "Oh, your father raped you when you were 7 years old? Your mother threw a plate and you and ruined your left eye? Pay me 100 euros per hour and I'll pretend I care! Oh, and you are having a cancer? Now now now, tsk tsk tsk, that's at least 10 000€!".

They are nothing but "health" dominatrixes! How is making people pay for their mental and physical health any different than making them pay for sex with a dominatrix?

I can't wait till I get to a paradise. I wish I believed more strongly in my true self and didn't fear.
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I fucking love YouTube channel Disturban