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KTbear

KTbear

This Be The Verse
Dec 15, 2021
82
I think it would feel really satisfying to go bust up a car and/or some plate glass windows with a bat.
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
wtf I just heard a seagull at 12AM
 
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Trjan

Member
Jan 22, 2020
41
Drinking prosecco and taken a few Benzos. The first drink and pill I've had in months. Feel "free" for the first time in a long time. :)
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I don't care how young I am to CTB. Life is the same shit whether you're 20 or 50.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,321
For me, my childhood was about relating most to Garfield. My adulthood has me relating more to Jon Arbuckle AND Garfield.
 
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gr1lledcheese

gr1lledcheese

Member
Dec 18, 2021
74
Say Anything was a good movie. What was that line? “I gave her my heart, she gave me a pen.”
🎶 in your eyes…🎶
 
Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
910
I hate natalism. Just look at mold, mildew, mosquitos, flies, bad fungi, bad bacteria, bad viruses. If all of them were antinatalists, there would be much less problems. All the least developed, most evil and most harmful things are the most natalist. Usually only humans decide to be antinatalists. I'm not saying natalism is automatically evil or bad, but natalism is like fire. A small fire in a fireplace sometimes can be good, but when left uncontrolled or when grown too big, it's bad and destroying.

Quality over quantity.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
910
I think the term "social justice warrior" sounds cool, even though it means what it means. It sounds like Batman or Spiderman or other superhero. Or a synonym to the word superhero.
 
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T-Sufferer

T-Sufferer

Member
Oct 29, 2021
26
I never chose to exist. I was never given the option to do so but I'm here suffering anyway. Suffering from physical, mental and social pain thats just too much for me to bare. Something has to give. I will get out of this cruelty. I don't want recovery and live a happy life pretending that no one out there is suffering. I refuse to get better as long as humanity lives in suffering.
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
can't wait to get rid of this existence. it's a complete nightmare.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
16,321
Why am I so easily angered and unable to be calmed down just because I’m stupid and incompetent and evil? Why is this pathetic trash heap of a subhuman being known as myself even allowed to do anything? He should be killed and tortured and possibly jailed. I can’t believe there are people out there who actually think I’m smart. Every brain cell of mine is just being used to do stupid things anyway. I wish everyone who’s ever even thought anything remotely nice about me would get slapped. No that’s too good for them. They need to be beaten senseless until they realize just how awful I am. The fact I even think that should be proof enough of how awful I am. I’d rather the whole planet be dipped in acid than allow for anyone to continue thinking of me as being anywhere near a decent person. This disgusting hatred I feel is impossible to resolve and I still have a few months to go before I CTB and ruin the lives of all my friends and family. I can’t wait to show those morons the error of their ways for ever believing in me in any capacity. See where your belief and love gets you? None of it even matters because I’ll always be a reminder of how easy it is to throw away.
 
Nessie

Nessie

Cynical
Aug 23, 2020
1,262
Who TF let me on Facebook?! I was stalking my highschool crush like you do on those things, obviously, then decided to be bold and add her as a friend, she added me back, and then when she like my profile picture (that I put a ridiculous amount of effort in and put up exclusively so that she recognizes me) I decided to be bold and message her. With a long message containing a really stupid joke. She was online but didn't reply. I fcking hate myself. I need a hug. Or advice. Or for someone to knock me out for a week so I have time to stop freaking out about it. Please, send help. Why do I keep doing dumb shit like this when I'm drunk an lonely?
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
wish i was held. but i dont deserve anything so waht im speaking abt lol.
 
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Nessie

Nessie

Cynical
Aug 23, 2020
1,262
wish i was held. but i dont deserve anything so waht im speaking abt lol.
It's not something you have to "deserve", sunshine. I can relate. Sorry that you're lonely. I'd hold you, but I'm most likely not the right person for this, and you're probably really, really far away.
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
It's not something you have to "deserve", sunshine. I can relate. Sorry that you're lonely. I'd hold you, but I'm most likely not the right person for this, and you're probably really, really far away.
Thank you very much.
 
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AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
despite going through it pretty much my whole life, loneliness still hurts as fuck.
 
settheory

settheory

Sentient structure
Jul 29, 2021
193
"Visiting Mount Tai" by Zhang Zongchang

Mount Tai is on the blackish side.
Its top is thin; its base is wide.
If you flip it upside down,
its base is thin; its top is wide.
 
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AntiquatedHorror

Bumbling Idiot
Jul 23, 2021
203
I wonder if D is a bitcoin hodler or if he cashes out instantly. I felt sick to my stomach when it dropped 10% so soon after I got mine, and now I see it dropped even harder.
 
AverageFanEnjoyer

AverageFanEnjoyer

The Hated One
Sep 26, 2021
1,939
I still can't get over that Benjamin Bennett dude on YouTube who just sits and smiles for hours, one time someone attempted to rob his house while doing that (can be seen on the video when the door opens) but when the robber saw him he left.