- Jun 15, 2018
I bought a scalpel today because I can’t decide between a razor like when I attempted or a scalpel. On one hand i’m used to using a razor all these years just for cutting but on the other hand I know the scalpel would be quicker and smoother. I wouldnt have to put as much pressure on my wrists. When I attempted I only got my vein and I really put pressure on the razor blade. This time I found my radial arteries. I’m sad to let go of my husband. But he’ll have a chance of moving on without me. My worries and that voice in my head that’s been saying “you haven’t wanted to be here since you were a kid.” Keeps telling me to just hurry up and end it. Now it’s just about the time span. Either this weekend or this week. I can’t help but feel nervous but the other part of me is excited to finnaly be at peace, no more worrying. I won’t be trapped in my mind anymore with these thoughts that have plagued me all these years.