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SanguineHare

SanguineHare

Demon Bunny Queen
Dec 16, 2021
74
yeeeeaaaaah motherfuckers I’m getting into a band!! lol.

I laughed a bit too hard on the shampoo one. choked on my own spit and now my voice is further screwed to the point of no return. voice committed suicide before I did. fuck you, voice! /s

I’m 150% sure the “charming” thing is intended as a joke. sarcasm even. and I truly enjoyed that one. unironically. maybe you said that cuz that’s *your* family too. if so, I relate. if not, you need to re-send them a Christmas card with “y’all real charming motherfuckers!” on it if you didn’t already. /s
One of us. One of us. Gooble Gabble. Gooble Gabble.

I myself don't actually have a family anymore. I was pretty much disowned which I am okay with at this point.

I'd DM you by now but I still don't have the ability to on this site. Starting to seem like it will never unlock for me.
 
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little helpers

did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
Dec 14, 2021
522
One of us. One of us. Gooble Gabble. Gooble Gabble.

I myself don't actually have a family anymore. I was pretty much disowned which I am okay with at this point.

I'd DM you by now but I still don't have the ability to on this site. Starting to seem like it will never unlock for me.

TL;DR: if I scared you with fucking long confessions just run for your life and you good. lol. but I mean it. I do.

it’s hard for me to be able to really view them (mine, yours) as family too. when it clearly doesn’t do anything a family is meant for, and did/does all it isn’t supposed to do. it’s “family” in name. a household at most. one where I’m now kept but totally not wanted. strictly for “motherfucker go get sober and choose life” purposes. well I started during HS so I always got a way to score and to use. right in their fucking bathroom. and when there’s all the ways you can ctb in a psych ward, they’d have to be really ignorant thinking the bus doesn’t stop here either.

I actually liked it better when they kind of disowned me. college, that was. doesn’t matter rent wasn’t coming. I got way too much connection, way too attached to the streets, that I could’ve run off with twenty different people anyways. now *that* was a *lot* of choices. and I could’ve said farewell to rent forever. replace four roommates in a 1B1B apt with hella lot of roommates you like and know well dispersed ‘cross an open area. maybe it’s the California weather making me say that. but I know what it’s like sitting ‘round ampm smoking a swisher with buddy at 3 a.m. in rainy winters. my ass was gon freeze. but I honestly couldn’t care less. Idk if I still want that at this point. whether it means more to have shelter or to have real human connection. nobody should have to throw one away to get a ticket for the other. but that *is* the situation right here and it doesn’t help that I been chronically suicidal.

this is whatever though. not many people got to be on here if their life hasn’t already been a “whatever” to themselves. and I’m just another one. and that is whatever as well. I said things that might be too personal for you or for this thread. and you don’t have to give a shit as to if you should make me feel heard. I already feel heard. knowing we share a sentiment. possibly experiences. and the funny thing is I sort of wanted to say all of this just becuz I want you to feel heard.

Edit: don’t know ‘bout the PM thing too well cuz it hasn’t been locked for me since day one. you can try settings (it’s HELLA long and complicated JUST LIKE my comment lol). if it’s too much effort you might want to post that in off-topic section or see if you stumble upon one in the searchbar.

Edit: Edit: I like profile comments a bit better than PMing. if you also happen to feel that way I can comment on yours than mislead this thread with my terrible etiquette lol. is etiquette a Reddit thing only? regardless, *if* you want that *and* don’t mind others seeing your post history, you can go to settings and make your profile open. someone had to teach me this as well who was taught by someone else as well. lol.
take care.
 
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SanguineHare

SanguineHare

Demon Bunny Queen
Dec 16, 2021
74
TL;DR: if I scared you with fucking long confessions just run for your life and you good. lol. but I mean it. I do.

it’s hard for me to be able to really view them (mine, yours) as family too. when it clearly doesn’t do anything a family is meant for, and did/does all it isn’t supposed to do. it’s “family” in name. a household at most. one where I’m now kept but totally not wanted. strictly for “motherfucker go get sober and choose life” purposes. well I started during HS so I always got a way to score and to use. right in their fucking bathroom. and when there’s all the ways you can ctb in a psych ward, they’d have to be really ignorant thinking the bus doesn’t stop here either.

I actually liked it better when they kind of disowned me. college, that was. doesn’t matter rent wasn’t coming. I got way too much connection, way too attached to the streets, that I could’ve run off with twenty different people anyways. now *that* was a *lot* of choices. and I could’ve said farewell to rent forever. replace four roommates in a 1B1B apt with hella lot of roommates you like and know well dispersed ‘cross an open area. maybe it’s the California weather making me say that. but I know what it’s like sitting ‘round ampm smoking a swisher with buddy at 3 a.m. in rainy winters. my ass was gon freeze. but I honestly couldn’t care less. Idk if I still want that at this point. whether it means more to have shelter or to have real human connection. nobody should have to throw one away to get a ticket for the other. but that *is* the situation right here and it doesn’t help that I been chronically suicidal.

this is whatever though. not many people got to be on here if their life hasn’t already been a “whatever” to themselves. and I’m just another one. and that is whatever as well. I said things that might be too personal for you or for this thread. and you don’t have to give a shit as to if you should make me feel heard. I already feel heard. knowing we share a sentiment. possibly experiences. and the funny thing is I sort of wanted to say all of this just becuz I want you to feel heard.

Edit: don’t know ‘bout the PM thing too well cuz it hasn’t been locked for me since day one. you can try settings (it’s HELLA long and complicated JUST LIKE my comment lol). if it’s too much effort you might want to post that in off-topic section or see if you stumble upon one in the searchbar.

Edit: Edit: I like profile comments a bit better than PMing. if you also happen to feel that way I can comment on yours than mislead this thread with my terrible etiquette lol. is etiquette a Reddit thing only? regardless, *if* you want that *and* don’t mind others seeing your post history, you can go to settings and make your profile open. someone had to teach me this as well who was taught by someone else as well. lol.
take care.
I think I managed to open up my profile to people? I'm not really sure.

Go ahead and try to comment on my profile. :)
 
little helpers

little helpers

did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
Dec 14, 2021
522
I wish I could self harm. View attachment 82273

reminds me of one I’ve seen on r/AddictedToTheNeedle. that one said “I want a huge shot of meth” though. lol. but I really love both. raw and expressive. done on the spur of the moment. even when I’m not SHing I feel like this a lot. heck, that’s why I started SH in the first place. I’d say the worst part is SH impulses when on junk. like, smack, “opiates” junk. painkiller of any kind really. motherfucking wanna do it so much but how far must this shit go till I sense the pain?! that’s real fucked up. anyways I love your art and I’m hugely sorry for ranting.
 
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little helpers

did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
Dec 14, 2021
522
I think I managed to open up my profile to people? I'm not really sure.

Go ahead and try to comment on my profile. :)

******everyone else who’s not Sanguine can ignore this cuz only reason I’m typing it here is becuz I still can’t PM or profile comment them*****

sorry about the late reply. my sleeping routine is the weirdest thing in this world. and I still can’t PM *or* start conversation on profile with you. it doesn’t have that button for me at your account. if you managed to get a “start conversation” and a “chat” option going when someone previews your profile you know you got it right this time. I’ll look into it a little bit. will update if I figure it out.
 
SanguineHare

SanguineHare

Demon Bunny Queen
Dec 16, 2021
74
******everyone else who’s not Sanguine can ignore this cuz only reason I’m typing it here is becuz I still can’t PM or profile comment them*****

sorry about the late reply. my sleeping routine is the weirdest thing in this world. and I still can’t PM *or* start conversation on profile with you. it doesn’t have that button for me at your account. if you managed to get a “start conversation” and a “chat” option going when someone previews your profile you know you got it right this time. I’ll look into it a little bit. will update if I figure it out.
Morning. This forum is made much more confusingly than it really has to been. I'm not seeing any setting to change for it. @[email protected]
 
Live Free or Die

Live Free or Die

A wise man can always be found alone.
Jan 12, 2022
45
All through my tears
I've dreamed of this
Tonight I've lost all my fears
The feeling of eternal bliss

In the end I was there
Filled full of nothingness
My heart pouring despair
Of the things I obsess

The knife bites my wrist
So long I've been waiting
My soul crossing the abyss
I feel my life fading

My blood running cold
Everything is out of me
And my suffer you behold
I've been set free

Cleansed of who I am
I taste the sweet kiss of death
Into my own blood I swam
Less an' less my breath

As I drown into myself
My pain I wash away
My life shows itself
Alone I still am today

All through my tears
I've dreamed of this
Tonight I've lost all my fears
The feeling of eternal bliss

I've finally found what I've needed
Everything now feels so right
My life gently conceded
I've entered the light
 
D&D

D&D

Write something, even if it’s just a suicide note.
Dec 3, 2021
201
One of my poems translated by me into English. Poetry in my language is hard to translate due to differences in idioms and language mechanisms but this should be accurate.

Vision of the city

I love your poem @Hans Voralberg

I do not know what language you are translating to English, but I do know how hard it is to translate poetry ... I would say it is almost impossible to translate, rather to re-interpret.
As I drown into myself
My pain I wash away
My life shows itself
Alone I still am today

Beautiful. Thank you.
 
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settheory

settheory

Sentient structure
Jul 29, 2021
193
They are still dragging a corpse to a hospital. When it reaches the hospital, maybe they'll try to heal it. Then they will send it back into the battlefield and put it in a trench. They will clumsily try to fit a gun in it's hands. If they fail, they will just put it nearby. If it gets wounded again, they will again try to drag it to a hospital and heal it. Or maybe they'll send it into a prison for defying orders.
...
This war just drags on and on. And it feels like it will never end.
 
Live Free or Die

Live Free or Die

A wise man can always be found alone.
Jan 12, 2022
45
The time has come the time is now
Pick a place and pick how
Say goodbye to those that care
Even those with no one there
We'll be gone we won't be missed
Promise me one last kiss
Hold my hand and take the leap
Trust your heart and not your feet
Our bodies fall but our souls will fly
To the heavens through the sky
From the darkness to the light
It's finally over no more fight
Nirvana and serenity
Emotions washing over me
One last thing for me to say
In front of God, it's judgement day
You were my sun and my moon
And in the end I was your doom
Thank you for always loving me
You deserved much better than me
 
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BrokenBliss

BrokenBliss

Member
Jan 11, 2022
86
What a nice thread to scroll through. Good job, everyone.

I've posted some of my paintings before, but here are two more I did.

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I love these!
Years ago I made this and drove around with it for about three months. I guess it could be titled "The Art of Weird Looks at Traffic Lights".

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That is awesome!
 
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