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nzdarkshark

nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
401
I told her what i'm going to do this summer.
She said she couldn't handle it - I accepted that.
She's leaving me.
If I survive we'll get back together.
But for now it's over.

I've never felt so alone.​
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,136
Yeah, people can’t accept it. Or deal with it. Even when they do love us. I realized this today as well.

I tested the waters with my ex, implied that I was planning to do it soon. She freaked out, started telling not to do it, to seek help. I backed down, told her I was only disturbed, but I’m not going to do anything. First time I have lied to her... But I always knew that I’d have to die alone. Still makes me very sad, though....

I only wanted understanding. Just a hand on my shoulder would be great. Being told to seek help sucks.
 
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HopelessKim

Member
Nov 4, 2018
12
Sometimes I don’t quite understand it when people say to seek help- especially when after much consideration the person actually wants to die. I understand that if a person doesn’t really want to die but is distressed about the constant suicidal thoughts then counseling or something might help.. maybe that’s the mental state that most people assume a ‘suicidal person’ is in?
 
nzdarkshark

nzdarkshark

The Loved Mistake
Sep 4, 2018
401
Sometimes I don’t quite understand it when people say to seek help- especially when after much consideration the person actually wants to die. I understand that if a person doesn’t really want to die but is distressed about the constant suicidal thoughts then counseling or something might help.. maybe that’s the mental state that most people assume a ‘suicidal person’ is in?
Possibly. She didn't specifically tell me to get help. She simply said that if I survive we can get back together.
But I don't plan on surviving...so maybe things are better this way..
 
stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,845
I told her what i'm going to do this summer.
She said she couldn't handle it - I accepted that.
She's leaving me.
If I survive we'll get back together.
But for now it's over.

I've never felt so alone.​
Summarizes my current situation.
There’s no hope of reconciliation though.